哥哥，我爱你^^

23-12-2009，12.45 pm,Wednesday
Program-Visiting in an Ipoh orphanage,celebrate Christmas with them
Mission-show our love to them and bring some joys in their life during the short period.
In the name of- Jesus Christ
Nibong Tebal Gospel Hall Youth Society was having the pleasure to visit orphans in Ipoh.
We took for about 2 hours during the journey...Finally, we were able to bring our ass down from the Inova.
The 1st thing I noticed when I entered the small and normal hall -two or three girls were hugging the orphans...They were whispering,I am pretty sure of that.^^It was sweet and nice...
4 girls about 17-19 years old came here in the name of LEO to visit the orphans.
This is the photo they took before they left.

There are about 20 sth orphans.Erm..Nope.Basically,some of them are not orphans.they were just cruelly abandoned and then adopted blessedly.
One of the boys has been abandoned by their parents 3 months before.He looked so uncomfortable and disappointed of getting in this orphanage...
He is 14 years old...the only one 14 among the orphans.
I asked but not deeply...scared that I casually recall his sad memory.This is all I know...
I tried my best to inspire...inspire him to take care of the younger one,be a strong and trustworthy brother among them.^^May God bless him.


well~let's sing!Christmas Carol!After that,we gave thanks to us gratefully and cheerfully..haha!
Then,they started to group each other and sing as they dance.wow~It's so cool!haha!
I were having a question mark on my head at the same time.Who should be the one to present and show the love?haha!It seemed that they were not willing to stop dancing ans singing!Haha!They are really like adorable angles singing and dancing around the sky.
They taught me to be innocent and pure indirectly.That is one of the characteristics which our God adores.haha!
Their behavior inspired us to get more passional.Then,we danced with them as the music was playing aloud.^^I am quite sad that I didn't take picture at that precious moment.T.T
They formed a circle in the hall and sat down tiredly.haha!Before the situation started to become chilly,I took a guitar and played at a corner...The orphans started to followed and sing with me!It warmed up all the hall...haha!It was really funny!

What happened later surprised me seriously is a girl stared at me happily and said:" 哥哥，我爱你!".It's just like tell me that my mission has been fulfilled.^^I replied and said with intense gratitude:"谢谢！".
It's touching my heart seriously.I want to thank God for giving me such chance to show my love.I am wondering why "I love you"is hard to come out from my mouth.Maybe I take it much more serious.
Somehow the people can say it aloud without any hesitation."I love you" cannot be simply used,but I am pretty sure that the orphans used it in the appropriate way.
She is Xiao Yi.She should be the most cute among the orphans.haha!She has no mental problem and physical problem.Just want to take photo with her because she has a funny face.
After a few minutes then,we had to leave the orphanage to Ipoh Jusco.^^Wish them have a unforgettable Christmas.May God bless them!

Recently

My holidays are going to finish.I spent it with joys and cheers.haha!
Outing with my friends and some of my sisters in Christ.
Dating with...erm...negative...actually the word isn't appropriate for that situation.
Besides that, I brought Lucas out to Seperang Jaya for a musical competition.That was nice and he got a GOLD MEDAL.It was expected by me...haha!We are proud of having such brother.^^(I forgot about the date.)
Sisters in Christ...erm..They are Shermin and Ying Huan.Daniel and I had an outing with them...
That was also an ideal and memorable one.We learned sth after that.Ying Huan intended to leave her home and stay at a hostel with her friends next year.Erm...I was shocked...but my persuasion should be ineffective..I tried not to speak too much to her but to pray for her...
The job of being a servant of Christ is getting heavy and heavy especially before the Christmas.
haha!No matter how tiring it is I will be able to enjoy during the service.
Christmas is near...Merry Christmas to all my friends...Don't be a fool during this precious season.haha!

The content

One day,a group of old friends they met together.they all were so glad to see each other.Then they started their conversation.(Actually some of them left their mother school to other,as for other still keep studying firmly at their mother school.)

A:Hey!!Long time no see!!How are you?How is the school life there now?(give each other an embrace)

Guys:Hey~I am fine..The school life hasn't been changed...haha!But I hope that it can have a little bit change so that it won't be too boring.^^

A:yea..I agree with that.In fact,that is inspiring in mind growing and change.People may get more wise,happy and mature when they look out of the box.I meant it works to all the aspects.^^Agree with me,my friends?

Guys:yea...It makes sense.Anyway,now we have no choice but to flow with the water of destiny.

B:yea...But that surely will be a turn for you all to do what you long for.^^erm...How is Jeremy?I wonder whether the car-Wajar that passed by the dim sham restaurant is his.I saw it last morning.

A:LOL!He went there for what?I am curious of that?For the sake of Jassica?

B:Who knows?So?How are they recently?Both J.

Guys:erm...They are all fine...But seemingly Jeremy still madly clings to her.

B:o~well..I think It has lasted for a long time...I am wondering what answer she gave to him.

Guys:Answer?There will never be an answer for the noob relationship.They are willing to keep flirting like shit...such a bullshit!What can we do?!

B:erm...negative..well~ o0o i want to give them as the premature marriage gift, if possible.

A:LOL!!haha!well...then your wife will be very upset....kakaka!

Guys:haha!ya...your turn,A!Any new and fresh love story that can animate and spark up our boring life?No selfish but share fish!haha!Or you still...haha...Jassicaaaaaaaaa?!

B:haha!LOL!Don't!Jassica again pula..people now is different already.Now Melissa....haha!!!Don't argue...

A:what?That girl?I just mentioned once in front of your stupid face!!Don't...haha...kill me then...

Guys:wow~well~How is the girl?

A:B!you have the responsibility to stop the mess going worse!!

B:haha!I know I know....

A and B
The way they speak is just slightly containing some powder of sarcasm and pride.
The word is special to me among the dialog is "Jassica again pula".
Actually A has never focus on Jassica even she is not a bad girl.There are plenty of fishes in the sea that A ever knows after changing his school.He knew that there is no right for him to just admire one madly in the haphazard way.He is free and happy...try to make life easy...

Many people like to choose to stay at a particular place and do something that is the same,monotonous and even worthwhile.They may not learn anything.
Trying to jump out of the box is what many people should do in this era.

任何人都曾经是只井底蛙，问题是他有没有志愿爬出这个安全的井口，成为自由傲翔的飞鹰呢？

任何人都曾经单纯过，问题是有谁肯愿意舍弃一些不必要的单纯，为自己争取一些必要的成熟？

The content

One day,a group of old friends they met together.they all were so glad to see each other.Then they started their conversation.(Actually some of them left their mother school to other,as for other still keep studying firmly at their mother school.)

A:Hey!!Long time no see!!How are you?How is the school life there now?(give each other an embrace)

Guys:Hey~I am fine..The school life hasn't been changed...haha!But I hope that it can have a little bit change so that it won't be too boring.^^

A:yea..I agree with that.In fact,that is inspiring in mind growing and change.People may get more wise,happy and mature when they look out of the box.I meant it works to all the aspects.^^Agree with me,my friends?

Guys:yea...It makes sense.Anyway,now we have no choice but to flow with the water of destiny.

B:yea...But that surely will be a turn for you all to do what you long for.^^erm...How is Jeremy?I wonder whether the car-Wajar that passed by the dim sham restaurant is his.I saw it last morning.

A:LOL!He went there for what?I am curious of that?For the sake of Jassica?

B:Who knows?So?How are they recently?Both J.

Guys:erm...They are all fine...But seemingly Jeremy still madly clings to her.

B:o~well..I think It has lasted for a long time...I am wondering what answer she gave to him.

Guys:Answer?There will never be an answer for the noob relationship.They are willing to keep flirting like shit...such a bullshit!What can we do?!

B:erm...negative..well~ o0o i want to give them as the premature marriage gift, if possible.

A:LOL!!haha!well...then your wife will be very upset....kakaka!

Guys:haha!ya...your turn,A!Any new and fresh love story that can animate and spark up our boring life?No selfish but share fish!haha!Or you still...haha...Jassicaaaaaaaaa?!

B:haha!LOL!Don't!Jassica again pula..people now is different already.Now Melissa....haha!!!Don't argue...

A:what?That girl?I just mentioned once in front of your stupid face!!Don't...haha...kill me then...

Guys:wow~well~How is the girl?

A:B!you have the responsibility to stop the mess going worse!!

B:haha!I know I know....

A and B
The way they speak is just slightly containing some powder of sarcasm and pride.
The word is special to me among the dialog is "Jassica again pula".
Actually A has never focus on Jassica even she is not a bad girl.There are plenty of fishes in the sea that A ever knows after changing his school.He knew that there is no right for him to just admire one madly in the haphazard way.He is free and happy...try to make life easy...

Many people like to choose to stay at a particular place and do something that is the same and even not worthwhile.They may not learn anything.
Trying to jump out of the box is what many people should do in this era.

任何人都曾经是只井底蛙，问题是他有没有志愿爬出这个安全的井口，成为自由傲翔的飞鹰呢？

任何人都曾经单纯过，问题是有谁肯愿意舍弃一些不必要的单纯，为自己争取一些必要的成熟？

EMO~drug~

I am here to update my blog.There is a post with a title we are used to talk and joke about.^^
I have a friend from Penang, he is accustomed of calling those who emote as EMO.This is usually used to describe the feeling of depression of a person.We often exaggerate the situation.
Something that is emotional is connected with people's feeling.Love nowadays is used to replace the word "emotion".I am quite upset of watching the movie "Twilight- New Moon".I noticed that something actually corrupts public morals has been transferred to people's mind through such "romantic love story".It started to threaten our brilliant marriage as well.
Those who watched the movie,they don't really realize that they are going to become the character among the movie.They tend to behave likewise what Bella did inside the story.
"How could she simply leave her home and her caring father to a guy without any information and hesitation?Is that Love?":I asked a girl.
"She really fell in love with the guy-vampire":the girl said to me.
What kind of love they actually have?If that is love,that must be ugly one.She hurt her father emotionally by making him worried for three days.That is selfish,not love.
Whatever I said is belonging to my opinion.It got no offense.I just want to share with those who see this message..The decision of agreement is always belonging to you all.^^
Don't follow our feeling to make any decision.Beware of what is love and emotion.
Those who behave according to their emotion will get thirsty of emotional appetite like an addictive drug.
As for those who behave according to their love will get eternal joy and peace.

World record!I said: oh my God!

As what I noticed recently,most of the Bananas like to call God's name out aloud when they get shocked or surprised!Especially female...I am annoyed whenever they do it frequently without any hesitation.Nope...they didn't insult my name, but God's.His name is worthy,please don't make fool of God but to fear him!
A question here...(think that carefully if you believe in God...whatever God that you believe...I don't have to specify it.)
What are you going to do when God came from Heaven after you called his name carelessly?What will you answer when He asked you for the reason of calling his name?For your sake,don't do it again please.The day He comes is the end of the day.Don't learn imitate this kind of worldly behavior.Perhaps,you may feel comfortable or motivated after calling his name.But Lord will not be glad but wrathful for being called casually and simply.

Now back to the topic of this post.There are not much of amazing things I have seen.But in BM here, my aunt's house,I have seen a lot of that.
haha!over here...

Perhaps you may find that it is a simple photo..A boy with a thin epidermis and damn thick fat layer is lying on a bed in the dim living room.All the thing you see is that...For me?That is totally different.This ain't a simple and innocent photo.It is a world record that I haven't seen before!And hope that it won't happen to me.

That day..I don't ever remember the date.Forget about the date.Usually,I wake up early in the morning...and having the responsibility to wake my cousin brother up from his dreamland.
Indeed this is annoying.Why?I called his name out, he gave me the exasperating response by giving the stupid voice(orh~~~).If you are animated that day,you will be dismayed immediately after that.==
I kept quiet then.(there was a case that he got angry with me cus I woke him up much early)After 5 minutes something I tried again by calling out his name.Then I heard.(Ooooooor~~~~~)The fist was ready at that moment but my nature isn't that violent.Having the motivation but the nature.==

K...He got out from the bed finally, and we went off to school as usual.
345 we reached home together.
I straight away made my way to my living room and did what I should do for the sake of my studies.The moment I went out from the room was about 5oclck.I went out for sth then I passed by an immobile and huge MEAT "which" was set in the middle of the hall under the spinning fan.
My conscience held my pace and turned myself to the MEAT.I tried to "revive" him.But it didn't work at all cus the MEAT didn't move and respond at all.I was shocked and tried to find his breath.Thank God.He is alive,still a fresh MEAT.Nothing I could do to this kind of MEAT but to ignore him.
Came back at nighttime,I entered my room steadily.Then I saw the PHOTO.(situation)10s Stunned of Mirana's arrow!Sorry..I should buy a Linken!==
He kept sleeping without changing the Uniform!!!
well~At the end,he woke up at another morning with his Uniform.I emphasized!With His Uniform!!!!Oh my~Really..that is a world record...in my mind....==

That is worthful to me.

3 girls = 1 pasar that is what I used to say.
How about 3 girls + 1 smart guy?LOL!

In our class,most of the classmates decided to go for the Penang Bridge Marathon.I was struggling to decide whether I should follow.Finally,I decided to follow and filled up the form.(sorry..niel niel)
After our L6 final exam,and the Marathon is just on the corner.I invited my classmates for a training and most of them can not make it due to their tuition.Then,Melissa and Li Hui decided to fulfill the plan with me.Before we went to Mengkuang Dam,we played "Ting Ting" in Jusco 1st.
Well...I filled up my petrotank with fuel for the sake of journey.I was glad to look at my fuel tank's pointer.haha!Felt a little bit satisfied.=D
Before I moved to fetch them,I was worried of wearing what kind of shirt?Sportive or refined?I was lazy to bring any extra cloth there.Finally,I just be a sportsman then.
Actually the appearance doesn't often bother me.haha!What I care is behavior.
After that,I fetched them and all of them were very sportive also.We all were lazy to bring extra cloth.==
And this is the way they wore on that day.

A nice match.Speechless should be an only response.==
Left LH,middle her sister,Right Melissa Lim
(sorry,I was not allowed to take photo officially,but sneak.)



I should not stop my job as a cameraman.But sad that I just took a few picture.==
Notice or not?They didn't buy any Doken,but they asked if the machine works?haha!LOL!I was like siam away from them.==

After that we went out and made our way to Mengkuang Dam.^^
There is a nice place.I am regret of not taking its photo.
That should be an appropriate place for human being to have a break or an exercise.^^
A lot of fun we got in that outing.I have never expected that I would have this kind of outing.Thank God,for giving me the chance,though that was a rainy day.^^
(I much cherish the outing.^^May have next outing later.)

How tiny are we?

We may be proud for being the most intelligent creation in the world.
But look at the sky,the sea and the sky, be aware that we are almost nothing in the universe.A flood can destroy a big country in one single night.How tiny we are!

But sometime, if you are in trouble.Try to treat the trouble in the same way.It is just a small problem within the big big world.It's not big big thing.Cheer up!Face any problem with your faith.Always be hopeful!

sustainanility

A sudden cry in silence,
a heart beats from that moment.
Wondering,
how long will it last in the future?
How hard will it beat against the external pressure?

Contracting and relaxing are everything,
everything of muscular working.
Questioning,
how long will it work in the future?
How hard will it work against the air particles?

Expression on the face is something,
something that reflects our feelings.
The darkness of the world steals the happiness,
the garish flowers numbs the consciousness.

For everything, there is a season,
and a time for all the matter under heaven.
A time to kill and a time to heal,
a time for war and a time for peace.

On the way of your life,
all the troubles' coming by.
They are cruel and even fierce,
try to make your show your tears.

Falling down? Never mind.
Stand up straight and don't be shy.
Give thanks to the grass and the sky,
cus they are caring and kind.

The sun's rising, the cock's crowing,
all the things keep on working.
Clear the dust on your body,
make a step and keep on walking.

Mates are always standing by,
be the booster in your life,
help you go through all the tides,
to see you soaring on the sky.

Life is hard,life is tough,
may God bless you all the path.
Friends can be a catalyst,
as a wellspring of sustainability.

In the world of A(ii)

The overwhelming sense of loneliness kept growing.
A felt more and more heavy in his life.All the feeling is being kept inside.He wanted to get relieved!
One day,he was setting at a corner lonely and helplessly.This was a good moment for evil to attack.There were many negative feelings conquering his mind and emotion.They want to conquer his mind completely and take control of his soul!
They asked A and said:"You are alone at all!what a failure and abandoned pitiful boy!You are rejected!What is the meaning for you stay here?There is no reason!No reason for you to live!No reason for you to bear the cross and follow Jesus Christ!You are now suffering!What for?!"
A answered:"erm..ya.You are right.I am alone.I am now lost and wondering for the reason of living.Are you sure that there is no reason?!Tell me the answer!"
They kept convincing.A kept struggling with them.However,at that instant,there is a sound!A voice came from no way.
It sounded:"You should search for the good news!You may find the answer."

A felt curious and wondered what it is.
Search on the net.
Found a website:www.goodtv.tv
There was a sermon.(John 5:6)
John 5
The Healing at the Pool
1Some time later, Jesus went up to Jerusalem for a feast of the Jews. 2Now there is in Jerusalem near the Sheep Gate a pool, which in Aramaic is called Bethesda[a] and which is surrounded by five covered colonnades. 3Here a great number of disabled people used to lie—the blind, the lame, the paralyzed.[b] 5One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. 6When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, "Do you want to get well?"



In this passage,the pastor said:"you may be alone,no one may understand your feeling.You are helpless?hopeless as well?How about I tell you that [now there is a person who is praying for you.]You may say:(all the people fail you!No one may pray for you.)Then how about I say [there is a God who prays for you all the time?Holy spirit prays inside of your heart with intense sigh of feeling.Jesus Christ prays for you always on the heaven.]Then,what is your though?"

A has nothing to say but to listen to the pastor.
These passages told A that God is looking at him all the time eventh all the people ignored him.
A knew that god not only look at him and also knows what he feels!
A felt very comfortable and touch.At the same time,pastor asked by saying:"Do you want to get relieved?"
A was shocked because that is what he wanted for a long time.
A nodded his head hardly and said "YES!I want!"
(The end)

In the world of A

In the world of A
Anyone here?hey~response please..It is dark!
Hey!Hey!Anyone here?answer me please?No person here?How come?
(turn to one side)Oh shit!There is a big gate in my heart!It blocks everything from entering.It is locked!Which is the stupid who locked it?o~my...I locked it...ya...I decided to lock it sometime.(just realized.)
(talk to myself)You must be stronger eventh here is dark completely.You must be faithful and hopeful eventh there is no light at all.You...You...You...must not show your worries and sorrows eventh.....you are alone here.(the gate is still being locked.)
(Outside.)
A:hey~come!study group?^^
B:o~sorry...not free..you enjoy then.
A:haha!It's ok.^^never mind.see you tomorrow.

A:hey!do you know about xxx?I shared with you last time right?rmb?
C:o~ya.anything again?
A:walao~I tell you what pla pla pla pla...
c:o~like that only lar?!(B seems like not interested)
A:haha!nothing la..kidding only~^^ok la..busy of your stuff then.(not in the same channel)

A:what is the difference btwn Catholic and Protestant?You are Catholic,should know right?
D:o~like that la..nothing different.
A:serious?there should be a difference.
D:a little bit only.
A:o~hahahaha^^(stop topic)

A:how come like that?misleading lar~
E:?take it easy man.Any prob?
A:what?!ok...nothing then.==(disagreement)

Most of the time...A is physically alone.But sometime there are some girls accompany A.However they are not in the same channel so far.Alone at last.

(the gate is still being locked.)
A likes to set at a corner quietly.Talk to himself.The overwhelming sense of loneliness grows continiously.

contradiction

It is very interesting for us to get into a new place.You will become the stranger then.
I like the feeling being a stranger that others know nothing about me.
They don't know about my past.What I have done they won't know unless I tell them.
kaka!Like a man in secret.Every thing of you is secret.^^Do you like the feeling?What do you think about that?

Some of the people may enjoy this kind of feeling but somehow they feel lonely.Ya.Actually they just want it last temporary.Sometime they need.They need to be listened and understood.In a new situation and environment,there should be no one who understand you well.No one will be in the same channel with them.Hence there is no achievement of sympathism.
Sometime we try to held our emotion and feeling deeply inside our heart so that others may not be able to read your mind and understand about your feeling.
But sometime we try to tell others about our feeling and thought indirectly by doing something strange and abnormal.
Such a complicated contradiction.^^

爱是不保留

常听说世界爱没长久哪里会有爱无尽头
尘俗的爱只在乎曾拥有一刻灿烂便要走

而我却确信爱是恒久碰到了你已无别求
无从解释不可说明的爱千秋过后仍长存不朽

谁人受痛苦被悬挂在木头至高的爱尽见于刺穿的手
看血在流反映爱没保留持续不死的爱到万世不休

惟求奉上生命全归主所有要将一切尽献于我主的手
我已决定今生再没所求惟望得主称赞已足够

Principle,it doesn't matter?

"I got no choice!!!!",nowadays that is what people usually use to explain the difficulty of the crisis they faced and the excuse they use to prevent from being guilty.It works indeed.Really!They will feel in this way,take it easy and just go ahead with their flexible principle.Actually I won't believe that human being will really act like that(change their principle).But now I fail to convince me not to believe.
There are many cases which are not rare to be found.The matter is your perspective.Don't pay attention on that thing, it may make ur life more easy and comfortable.
Some1 may say that I got no choice so they have to do something that is not allowed and unmoral or maybe something that is against their principle.
The principle now becomes the rule they used to follow in their life.By the way,it is flexible and fixed by themselves.Well~then what is the real and main principle?Where is it?In the world,something that is accepted by them is considered as acceptable.Well~if that is really acceptable,why do they get the bad ending,the tragedy which they don't expect early in the beginning.
Some1 disobeyed their principle and did something they thought that is unmoral.
After that,I asked.Some1 told me that the principle can be changed any time.I was like nothing to say.Really!
Some1 told me that they decided to be a man but then now they become a dog which is smelly and messy.
Some1 told me that they won't behave in a particular way,but finally they told me that their principle can't be applied and fulfilled in the world.
Some1 asked me to take it easy because that is what they do.They changed their mind and principle due to the changing of the situation.Nothing to do with me.They said that One day I will be like them also.==
For an example,a person who said that he won't sleep with his partner before marriage.After several years,what he disagreed has been done by him.The principle was changed.He said I won't have sex with his partner.Others may agree with the change.Now I asked.Then what will be the next principle?He may change it again.Then,something that may happen will be a tragedy.
What should we follow?Are you right?Who can tell you?Don't ask me please.Instead you should Ask God.
I don't like to be such people.
Conclusion:Live without truth=Death.(honestly)
you may disagree.But that is what I think.That is all.

What the?(II)

Well~After what the?(I) case,I was shocked.Now realized that indeed there are many people who don't really know how to appreciate the right and beneficial things.Instead they will consider that as rubbish!Sad~That is why such people may miss the grace from Lord at the end.
Ok...I used to be Driver in BM.Its ok..Even thought some of my BM friends might joke with me involving the word 'driver',I just take it easy.^^
I used to bring my cousins to Jit Sin(independent) every morning.so I have to wake up extremely early.Well~no blaming...I volunteer to do so.But indeed it may spend my time due to some procrastinations.
Early in the morning,I asked my cousin brother what time I have to fetch him.He answered and said 3 o'clock.Well~230 I left my school to Jit Sin.Ready to fetch him.
I was standing in front of Jit Sin and the same time I was observing something not only my cousin brother but X X X.haha!lol!But I felt strange cus I waited for a long time.==''So I called my cousin sister who was staying at home.She asked me to leave and ignore him.WelL~Nothing I can do right?Just leave then.Walao~just noticed that I wasted my time!LLB!!!I was kinda pek chek!He is the thief of my time.(I guessed that he was playing game with his friends.)
ok ok....I kept it.And I asked him about the case.He didn't apologize, and told me that he forgot to go back instead he went for a game with his friends.
LLB!!I was hoping that my guesswork is wrong!but...ai yo~
I felt kinda unpleasant, because my stupid cousin didn't appreciate my contribute.==
sad...He is an unreliable and irresponsible boy.Really having low moral value.
Nothing to say.But I keep praying for him.Cus I don't want to see his life become a waste.It is pitiful due to his naivety.

What the?

Long silence...pai seh la...^^
My friends please forgive me..
What a rush?What a rush?
I used to rush in my dairy life.Not only weekdays but weekends as well.
I arranged my time properly and sensibly so that I am able to involve something unnecessary into my living day.
There were several sad cases almost dismay me.Thank God.I just took it easy,otherwise I would get mad seriously.
Case 1
My cousin sister is quite a good and obedient girl.She always goes to work after school(help her father).I would like to encourage her by bringing her out for a cinema.well~the Up's showtime was about 945pm.In order to be Gurney there early, we had to move at about 8oopm.Well~She left from her working place and took a bath.We both were about to go out for Cinema.I was waiting for her,watching TV and chilling out.My mobile phone rang and I noticed a msg.
From Ah Ting(my cousin sister)
我爸爸不给我去，我们还是别去了，不然会害你被骂。

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Its okay.next time la.
I made my way to my room and tried to ready myself for reading.
When I was doing my works, a scolding voice came from the hall.(my uncle)
I ignored him and did my work.But I heard that he was talking about me!
what the?!
I went out for drink.Met him unfortunately.Greeting and leaving.
He stopped me and said something annoying and provoking.I "LL" then.
He said:“啊俊！下次你要带她们出去前先问过我。不可以随便随便就提早放工的。他们放工时间是八点。他们早放，谁来做工？你以为你是谁？要早放就早放啊？”
I was like walao~I just want to encourage my dear cousin sister only.Nothing bad right?
I just answered:"sorry.Ah tior~我不知道他们八点才能放工。没有下次了。^^"(faster entered my room and closed the door)
He kept scolding no one.My cousin bother then came in, and asked me to go out cus uncle wanted to talk with me.Walao~again?
I went to him.He scolded again:“啊俊！你的朋友买票了吗？”我说：“没有，我跟阿停而已”。He said then:"我跟你说年轻人要拍拖前，先想想自己有没有本钱。你听到没有？"nodded my head steadily and said yes.
He kept talking until he felt satisfied.=='
At the same time, we were staying outside my cousin sister's room.She heard all the thing and sent me a msg to apologize.
After words, my cousin brother told me that his father thought that I was going to bring my cousin sister to know other guys.@@walao~!!!!!what?!!!!Terrible!Am I trying to bring her falling in love?
Lucky,I was kinda steady.I endured all the thing without any blaming.At the same time,my cousin sister was very sad and she cried in her room.(my cousin bro told me.)
Sad case...really don know how to have a outing next time.May be nerd soon.

Master?Monster?

In my view,High School BM is a school which is full of hardworking teachers...so far..^^they would like to inspire and encourage the students to be hardworking.Actually, they often give us the modal of hardworking.
There was a story that my Chemistry teacher shared with us during the class.
She finished her lesson and started to talk with us.
Scientists were going to perform an experiment.(what experiment she didnt mention at all.)They brought 3 boys into a room.The boys were young ,physically and metal healthy.
The scientists put 3 famous and testy chewing gum on a table.It is very attractive for the three little boys.And they said:"There are few crewing gum here.You all can take it.After 5 minutes if your crewing gum is still here.You will get one more crewing gum."After that,they went off.
Several CCTV were set at the corner of the room to observe their behaviour within 5 minutes.
1 of them just simply took it without hesitation.
1 of them hesitated for a few minutes but finally he took the crewing gum before the end.
1 of them hovered around the table,he seemingly intended to take it.But after that, the boy went away from the table and did other thing to removing the attention from the crewing gum.(trying to get another crewing gum.)
After that, the scientists let them get back to their lives.
After several years,the moment the boys entering into University.
The scientists went to visit them, and observe how their lives were.
The boys who took the crewing gum within 5 minutes,were not able to entrance any university due to their bad results.
The only boy who succeed to get another sweet got the excellent result and was able to get into a good and well-knowing University.
"what do you learn from the research?",my teacher asked.
All kept silent.I answered:"determination, teacher."
"good,that should be the answer."

My friends, in fact we can do all the things without any impediment.But is that really beneficial for you?For your life?For your future?
We can do whatever we want to do.No one!no one!can impede you do to so!But yourself.God has given you the authority to do whatever you want.The freedom has been given.But please!please!cherish the authority....
We would like to eat the sweet which is really attractive and even tempting.But you didn't achieve anything if you just simply take it without and delay.
Wait for a minute, you may achieve and get one more..gain...obtain...you succeed.
Be the one who take control of the tempter.Be the one who can take control on your own.Be the one who is called as Master.
Above all the mass media,all the damn tempter!
Otherwise you will be the prisoner which is cheated and trapped by the scheming tempters.You look like a Monster then.

You raise me up!

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up… To more than I can be.

(Give all the glory to your name, Lord.
cus you strengthen the weaker,heal the patient.)

Us against the world...

Westlife-Us Against The World

You and I, we’ve been at it so long
I still got the strongest fire
You and I, we still know how to talk
Know how to walk that wire
Sometimes I feel like
The world is against me
The sound of your voice, baby
That's what saves me
When we're together I feel so invincible
(chorus)
Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight
Us against the world
Against the world

There’ll be days
We’ll be on different sides but
That doesn’t last too long
We find ways to get it on track
And know how to turn back on
Sometimes I feel
I can’t keep it together
Then you hold me close
And you make it better
When I’m with you
I can feel so unbreakable
#(chorus)

nightmare?just an odd midnight.

Last night, I decided to sleep at about 10 O'clock and I got my body's approval.
Because I was really exhausted not only physically and emotionally.
I was supposed to study and rush my homeworks at the time, but I cant tahan.
I laid on my bed and fell asleep...

Fell asleep,that was nice.
Peaceful state at a night.

Door was knocked,sound annoyed.
Ass was brought out from the bed.

Washed my face,cleared my mind.
There had a big crowd stand outside.

Mixed inside, wonder why.
I never meet such in my life.

Noise coming, flag coming.
Holding a smoke jar and went in.

Close the palm of the hand,
With 23 incense in between.

Annoying, suffering,
Breathing equals torturing.

The clowd dimissed ,the flag was set,
Uncle called me come and prayed.

Frightening, steadily,
Went off after I said yes.

Hope that you all will be able to know what I am talking over here..haha!
There was a taoism ceremony.^^

procrastination..==

As what my annoying MUET teacher says-How many day you all are having now before the coming of STPM?haih~sianz...keep reminding us until I feel nauseated.Genarally we may ignore her words and keep doing our sizable homeworks.Well~actually we don have much more time...I think about the question properly..and found that we just have a short period in fact..If we procrastinate the works or revisions, then the period will get more and more shorter.haih~
Last Tuesday, I had an experiment to do.That was a physics experiment and our Physics teacher-Form teacher is a serious man.Before the physics period our PA teacher prolonged our class period. At the same time, our stupid monitor didnt ask teacher to let us go for the experiment.=='well~they rushed to the physics lab after that.But I was keeping my books slowly and steacily with a guy.Both of us got into the lap late.well~a show then.
When we paced into the class which was terribly silent at the moment.
I felt that something bad and mad was going to happen.=_=
We reached followed by our class monitor and assistant monitor.(they just passed up the hmwk and left from the office.)
We all were punished..our stomach kena pinched seriously.(that was really painful@@)
Ah Sir scolded us for awhile and then he left us in the lab doing the experiment without any lead.sad..then we all just moved ,took the apparatus and did our experiment.
After teh experiment, Sir stated that those who hang in the report late after he went out the lab, their reports won't be accepted anymore.
At the same time, my group was late.That was going to be recess period and Sir was going to leave.
I still steady steady cus the front door is just infront of my group.I thought Sir for sure would leave by using the door.
OKAY!DONE!I turned to Sir's table just realised that he left already!what!he went out from the back door?!oh shit ,I said and rushed to the office.
When I met Sir, he still looked very angry.I was chasing after him and he noticed me.Before I said any thing.He knew what I was going to say.He stopped in time and asked me to keep the report and go off from the office.what?!oh no!just a chance...?
I still tried to convince him..and finally he warned me and said:"don't disturd me"
speechless.."see you Sir"I replied.
well~my procrastination brought me into a trouble...finally my prayer brought me from there.Sir recieved my report after that.thank God...no more next time..I dare not to do so..

Beh Tang!

I feel very sorry for my long silence..forgive my laziness please..haha!
I thought I have nothing to share with you all..but i just noticed that there are something funny..well...there is a picture-a commode...beh tang!


It made me recall our friend..Ah Beh!haha!
something unknown inside the Beh Tang!guess what?

oh shit!all the shit tennd to come out!walao~torturing!I had to go to my aunty shop for excretion.==It lasted several days only...thk God!haha!

back...sad...

packed my things and took my key...got into my car and drove...
I have to attend a Chemistry tuition before I can go back to NT.
Smth happened and made me feel unsatisfied...suak suak...well~jus straight away turned my way to NT..
reached NT and called Niel out for a dinner..we shared about many things...erm..actually they shared alot...I was trying to share...but not much more things that I can share...erm...I got no special thing...==''anyway...I was willing to listen...^^
after d dinner,I went home...opened the gate and noticed that my mom was doing her works...
It was odd for her to ignore me...I found it weird and I was pretty sure that something happened before...
I asked my mom that anything happened before...what she look so angry?at the same time,I was playing with my dogs^^
Actually,I got the answer before she answered me.She got angry because of my younger brother...same case same problem...Generally,I am not able to find him out....because he is such a popular guy in the school now...many programs are waiting for him.I hard to see him at home.==''and at the same time,It means that I wont be able to control him or even interrupt into his living life.I expected that there will be a problem like now.
She cried while she was explaining her anger to me...the only thing I could do was to confort her...and encourage her...so that she won't give up and despair of the boy.
At that moment,I was pretty angry...I was just like to punch him seriously!!!!
what can I do?really punch him 99?i don't think that is a good solution...
I wonder...what is the time that he realised his naive?

Jesus's Eyes

Scripture
[God] told me,"My grace is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness." Once I heard that,I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap andbegan appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness...And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.
- 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 -
A story~"[Melha] went right uo to her nearly blink father and pointed to one picture on the wall---one of the Lord calling little child to Him--and said,'Look at Jesus'
" 'have no eyes,O my daughter--I cannot see,' was the answer.[The girl] lifted her head and eyes to the picture and said, 'O Jesus,look at father!' "
Had Melha shown the pride of adulthood, she might ahve agreed with her father that it was useless to try to see God.But in joyful humility, she simply acknowledged that her father was weak and God was strong. She knew that God sees us before we can even look at Him. He longs for us to acknowledge how dependent we are on him.
In our ambition we believe that we must get our lives together before we can turn to God. But in our humility we realize that only through God will we find the completeness we need to love him,see him, and care for others.

Prayer
God, I am weak today...Help me to be strong in you...

(Garp Chapman & Elisa Stanford; The Love As A Way Of Life)
DEVOTIONAL~

Saturday~

Satuday and Sunday are both the bustling days for me.I recalled my memories that happened before I tranferred to BM High school.Actually, my Saturday is supposed to be peaceful and meaningless.Somehow, I would rather to sit infront of the computer for nothing than of a book during the lame Saturday.But for now,it changes to be the most bustling day in a week.
Generally, many family likes to have a outing during the weekend,especially mt family.They used to go for dinner at Saturday night,because they are free during the weekend.
Now,I just can get back to my hometown NT about 430pm something, due to my tiring chemistry tuition.It is merely a rush!After that,I am not allowed to take my own time,but to spend the time with my family.Em~I think nothing is bad...everything is good actually...but I am not satisfied about the schedule...It is pretty short...to spend tiem with my family and even friends...==
well~my parents drove and picked up my grandparents for dinner.I don't really know why they often call them out for dinner recently, but anyway it is a good behaviour.I have no comment.
On the way to restaurant-Tambun,I picked up my mobile phoneand viewed the photo I have taken before.
At the same time,I got an idea~to take photo with my grandparent...kakaka!!
Reached the restaurant,we got out of the car.I stood straigthly and looked around for nothing.My grandfather stuck with me closely and straightened his body=='''I was wondering what he was going to do for me...He stared at me,grined and said that I am getting talled,grown up much more..haha!I just responsed by laughing.He turned his body and started to move away toward the restaurant.I grasped his shoulder politely from his back and asked him taking a photo.Ki cha!settle!At the ame time,I asked my grandmother to take a photo also.
Actually, I am not a person who likes to take photo anywhere and anytime..I just know that it is necessary for me to have their photos,even they may be old and unsightly now or they may not be good on grininng in the face of the camera.
After dinner,we reached home about 830pm.Alright~my parents got their own entertainments and it seemed that they didn't encourage me to join them.Then,I just lep on the bicycle and rushe ahead MY church delightfully.There ahs been a long time that I didn't come to church~
Always geelfs extremely joy and peaceful whenever I paced into the church.. like my second comfortable home~The topic was about "love"
we were separated into 4 groups and discussed about the things we didn't achieve the scripture.I shared about something with my brothers and sisters in Christ.Always keeps reminding myself that without spirit I am merely a Dust~there is no reason for me to boast!
After that,I had supper with Daniel and Man Yen...we shared about the experiences that we gained in our lives with each others.At the same time,I found it lametable if we harbored he jealousy and hatred among our friends..sorry...I am just only a dust,I am weak without God...I am nothing without spirit..so I may despair of anyone of you~pai se..forgive me...
went to Daniel's hjouse and chatted with his parents...then finished my tiring and meaningful -Saturday...(we got a plan,that I have never expected before...)=P!!

One week?or one second?

there are many differences between 1 week and 1 second.
The magnitude is one of the differences...1 week is actually 7 days and we convert it into second that should be (7x24x3600)second.
There is about 604800 second within a week.erm~big difference~
A week is just like a spark(happen within a second).haha!crapping lar~erm...
I am now at my comfortable home in NT.What happened in this week?Sorry...I just can roughly share with you all~
Monday~in the beginning, every thing was fine as usual~But in the Physic class,I kena~
When the teacher Mr Lew was teaching,I whispered again...walao~and immediately my guilt was discovered by his eyes.He pointed me with his finger and at the same time all the students were staring at me...oh no~at that particular time,I felt extremely remorseful of my stupid,useless and unnecessary whispering.you know what?Actually,I whisper to no one.I just pretended nothing happened.stayed cool,baby~
"you !five push up." Do you still remember...?last time Mr Lew called me"you, shut up!".I just realized that was a warn.After that,5 push up~instead of shut up!
well~just obeyed his order and gave him five push up rapidly~because I scared that something more terrible will happen...
He is a good teacher.haha!Eventhough,he punished me~because he didn't scold you after the punishment.I like this kind of teacher...I really respect him but I was sorry that I am not enabled to adapt myself in such special and fresh way of study so far.(silent totally and just listen)
After that,was chemistry period.She gave us many and many homeworks...damn~and I am also owing her the chapter 1's homeworks.LLB!!!nothing to say...
I transferred my friday PA tuition to Monday.
Actually I didn't concentrate my attention well in the beginning because I just finished a rush~
Besides that,there were some Jit Sin students around.The one who sat by me was a talkative guy.He was joking with a girl whose is my classmate and was one of the Jit Sin students before.
They talked about me I could hear that....They asd that I look like thier friend...who is it?
O~Huang Jun Wei~yeah!I know that...we both have a similar face.They made noise in the class...walao~really a crazy group....
I changed my seat and sat beside a girl "Che Huo Gui" while we were waiting for the ohter teacher.haha!The group joked again by saying that she is my GF...=='''
well~speechless..I dislike nonsense.what lar~handsome guy must have a girl friend?lol!
Then,a friend that I encountered in NS-JPJ...I noticed her and greeted...
She pointed the girl and saying something...I didn't really know what she said or asked....but I can ensure that she was questioning me whether the girl is my GF or not?lame~
I was lazy to explain more during such embarrassed situation.sianz~
At last the talkative guy asked for my HP no and now chat with me frequently.sweat~=='''

七十二变?不好料。不变才好料。

“这个世界上唯一不变的东西就是变”
这句话，是我在去年的时候，在我的亲戚家里头的一本心灵大师所写的心灵论读到的。我相信那本书应该蛮著名的。
对。他写的理论听起来确实头头是道。我也很相信，他说的理论，大家听了都会点点头。
我一面看，一面点着我的大头。看到了那一句，我就迟疑了一会儿。
“这个世界上唯一不变的东西就是变”
对。很多东西都在变，我们对这些改变真的作不出细毫的影响甚至控制.当然，我们也只能白白接受。可是，他是否是完全正确的呢？他是谁？他是心灵大师！我知道～出了很多有名书籍～我也知道～无论如何，我知道，他也是人。就算他会飞也好！他还是一个会飞的人。哈哈！
我读到这里的时候，我的大头里冒出了一个念头－可以说是答案吧？
我认为他对一大半，只错了一点。可惜，错一点，还是错，没有同情分。
这世界有个千年不变的道理，那就是耶稣爱你～
这就是我脑海里那时突然所冒出来的念头。
神使世界一直在不停的变换中，从这里就已经衬托了他那伟大又永恒的爱。因他的爱不被时间影响，永无止尽。阿门。

pek check!!!!

yeah~the end of the holidays,but some1 is just about to begin his (Danny) holidays...haha!!
My holidays were good enough...I was so satisfied...haha!
well~this morning I went out for breakfast with my family.At that time, I was worried about the tuition time.sweat~
when we were eating, my brother suggested to go to Econsave...why?because he planed to make a cake for his girl friend...=.='''oh no~
By the way, my dad and mom sapu the things they need in the Econsave...lol!!!bought many fruits and mineral water...=.='''sianz...I was pushing the damn heavy trolley and walking there like an clumsy idiot...just discovered the principle of Newton's first law and inertia...haha!!!
Then,I was late to be at home...and allowed my friends and teacher waiting for me outside my home...=.=so sorry~unexpected case...=P!
After the tuition,I found myself in trouble.I knew that 1 of my friends received a letter from JPN..and er application was approved...
and Delvinson sadly failed to apply his tukar sekolah!!haha!!tease him!!!I t should be bad to him.
and now...I sakit kepala~i didnt get ANY letter from what damn or shit JPN!!I got nothing!It is worse!!!sianzz...my mind was blank...and I was just sitting in the hall for no purpose.
walao~~sianz!!!I am yearning to change my study circumstance cus i needed that to help me on my study.
well~it's okay for them to disapprove my application.But~at least tell me ma!!!turtoring me!!I have no answer..and I don really know what to do for the next.=.=AH!!!!LinLaoBuA!
I asked Daniel's family for help...they adviced me going to JPN and inquire them.
well~that should be the only way to solve my worry...

AhKuNaMaTaTa~what a wonderful day~

oh~thank God for giving me a wonderful holidays...I really enjoyed the whole holidays~
recall back~that can be considered as 2 weeks busy and meaningful holidays...
terribly tired during the holidays but at the same time I felt satisfied...
we planed to have many trips...and by the ways, unconsciously I found us in several conflicts.
haha~well~finally, thank God for humbling us to tolerate each other whenever we discuss together.
and then we all had a good discussion and made a decision.Everything is fine then.
I learned something during my holidays.Simple is good~simple is great~I cherished something that we can do in NT but not in other country.I started to like it...and stopped my annoyed sense.
Hallelujah!!!I have nothing to say but praise the Lord~that is all~

Home Alone ~.~

My parents have gone for a journey 2 days ago.the place shoud be Bukit...I don't really know where the place located even my mom told me before.^^
well~
This morning,I woke up at 1130am..oh no~wasted!I missed the pretty and peaceful morning.>.< Paced out from my room and I noticed 2 pairs of bright eyes were staring at me.It was so pitiable for 2 stupid dogs sitting helplessly in the chest.^^
Due to my lovingly-kindness, I liberated them from the chests and brought them for a walk.
got Hungry and went out for my lunch...didn't know where to take my lunch.Finally,i went to 5 tingkat having fried rice as my lunch.
I returned to my home...just realised that I was the only one staying at home except the dogs.
My younger brother stayed at Hutan Lipur to participate a camp as a helper.
My elder brother went out for working...speechless...
Home alone...I could totally understand the loneliness the kid felt in the movie " home alone"during the lonely time...In the movie,there has 2 stupid thiefs.
Thank God.Here just got 2 stupid dogs instead of thiefs.It would not be so dangerous.Nonetheless,they brought me many troubles.
Ricy~cute right?It is lovable and cute on his appearance,but it is a naught and mad dog!!
One afternoon,I came from IBM with a tired condition.I discovered some gastric juice on my sofa.Yuck!whose masterwork?I thought the author should be Ricy.Ignoing the problem and went into the kitchen.In my kitchen,half of the ground was full of rubbish.oh~Ricy!!!!
oh no!!It was clever enough turning over the rubbish can and search for something to eat.I didn't know what was that,but that should be in his stomach already=='''and that was the reason why the s2p dog vomited.don't know why they don't like to eat the food we bought for them.
Then,I had no choice but to clean up the mess.==''
alone...alone....alone...
my friends went to penang and I was at my home....
and my dogs were ignoring me for the whole day...lying beside the door and waiting for my mom coming back...emo dogs...=='''
my parents are supposed to go back today...but they sent me a messange saying that "we are going to spend 1 more day at Bukit..cus there are many funs...take care lo...!"
Eventhough the messange didnt mention any thing about the dogs...but I understood that "take care" should be for the dogs.haha!!!
(blog for fun....)

a long way that is full of EMO

last Friday,my brother brought me and our friends to BM.
My friends and I went there for a 2 hours of Pa tuition while he and his friends went there for a dinner...
My mom used to worry about me..It is fathomable and I would endeavor to subside her botheration.^^so I had no choice but allowed my brother fetching me to IBM.By the way,I had to recognize the way to IBM because there would be my turn one day in the future.
So sorry..On the whole journey,I was busy joking with my friends...and there was full of laugh.We kept the condition until we reached IBM...=='''I just realized that I didn't really remember the way.
Yesterday,my dear brother had to work.I thought that should be a time to let me drive by myself.^^My mom started to worry again..and she tried to be free fetching me to IBM...but finally she failed...because our Tuition would spend us 2 and a half hours.She won't be able to wait for us until we finish the tuition due to some reasons.
well...she had no way but allowed me to drive.
My friend,Chiong You,a girl who used to pretend a Kawaii Girl...arrived my home at 530pm..She was stupid.She called me out by her phone but not by the doorbell.walao~terrible...
Then we started moving to fetch our Xiu Li.
I was waiting for her outside the Happy Kindergarten while chatting with Chiong Yu.^^
due to some reasons,she has to work as a teacher of kindergarten.I used to look her with my full of respect because she is a indepentent and sensible girl.^^
She was shocked by my early coming,she assumed that I would come at about 555pm.
^^Finally,she was forced to quit her class prematurely.
kay..we made my way to IBM...^^we chatted on the way.
There were many things and persons we talked about.They just shared their feeling and wondered why they can treat me as a good opposite sexual friend that other guys can never be.
haha!I was so delighted to know what kind of person I am in their life.
Then,talked about planning for a trip in the future...haha!Xiu Li was sad and unpleasant to talk about the topic because she thought her family won't give her approval for the plan.^^who knows?haha!perhaps,it may be a miracle!be hopeful la!!!haha!!
Next topic was about my leaving.I am just waiting for the letter from JPN and I hope that they can approve my application.They asked me about the reasons^^
I bla bla bla...They had no comment but to agreed with my reasons.I could tell the grief from their talks.It sounded touching...even we are not in the same class for now..but they are still unwilling of my leaving.I totally believed that they didn't attempt staying me just for being their driver.I was glad to know about what they feel when I am about to leave from them.
Haha!EMO-such of this feeling more or less becomes the feeling I always experience recently.
I departed from some of my secondary schoolmates,departed from Ns's friends...departed from Jao Jun..departed from Idiot...haha!now just discovered that there are so many persons I departed from recently.Probably,I will depart from Tunku kaki after 1 or 2 weeks..leave to a new circumstance that may be worse or better compared to NT.
don't have to be depressed..I will be back..and there will be a moment we meet and laugh at each others again..^^be hopeful..cheers~~

3 new classmates

As usual~cycling to school peacefully...nothing was going to be special in our lame physics class.
When I was hesitating to do my PA essay,a teacher followed by 1 girl and 2 guys stayed outside of our class.At the same time,I didn't notice their coming,because I was turning my back to them.
Since,the teacher turned and stare at them,I was automatically attracted paying my attention on them.At the moment,I could feel that they would be our classmates.
LOL..why did they change to my school?I wondered if they are having any mental problem.==
haha!okay~after PA class,I left my seat and went to talk with them(2 guys).^^
erm...I forgot their names already...haha!In their opinion,I knew that their school may be more worse compared to our school and at the same time,I thought my school is not bad la...haha!!(not good also)
haha!!I was so surprised that their applications were approved successfully and rapidly.==''
I asked them about that...and finally I just realized that how low is my school teacher's efficiency...
they just straight away found Miss Lee who works in JPN requesting approval from JPN.That was all.swt...
I never talked to the girl.But, Man Yen had talked with her for quite a long time.If you want to know about the girl's appearance...sorry..please ask our sister Man Yen,so far,she should be the only one who can help you to know about the girl.haha!!
yeah..one of the guys is Christian from Parit Buntar Methodist Church...quite handsome la...but he is hyperactive...i just noticed during the class...=='''
I forgot to say.haha.they came from Parit Buntar...they studied at Krian before...kakakah!!I think they should be the students of high quality.^^

Stand

stand by me...stand by me...God!!!
This should be what I always say...I also bless to the others in this way...It should be meaningful and tactful to us...because He stands by us whenever and wherever.How can the almighty God stands by us?
Is it deserved for us to receive such unconditionally preferential treatment-Grace?
Yes!!He says....All because of Love...^^I will grin and joy whenever I ponder the grace He gives me in my life.Cause...It is so delightful to being cared and loved by a almighty God.
Well~I found many of Christians including me just know who great our God is.
We all know that He will forgive our guilt and sins due to our weaknesses.He will pity us whenever we confess in front of Him.yeah!We know and believe that He will...
But somehow we forgot and even used to ignore what God had shown during the old testament.
I know..cus I read more or less about the old testament...
The word that He had mentioned and emphasized many and many times during the old testament is Justice.
Exactly,It is hard for us to talk about Justice,but it doesn't mean there is not such thing like justice.We even have ever ignored such truth when reading the holy bible.Definitely,there has justice in the world,no matter we ignore or accept!And because our Lord is everlasting and also justice and love are eternal.
haha!I love God and believe in Christ because He loves me the most and He is the first one who loves me.Man may fail me but he won't and never fail me.
but~actually,what can I do to answer his love?Yeah...just trust Him and obey the commitments He gave us.haha!!How easy and ludicrous for me to type on the blog and talk in front of the guys,but..but...but...I could not stand properly and even steadily at the position that is at the side of my lovely God at certain particular moments and conditions.
what would happen if I was drawn by darkness and at the same time He came from the Heaven to the hopeless and degenerate earth.What could I say in order to escape the just trial?
yeah!I would be punished 99.Sadly,that I can't stand by Him but I often call Him to stand by me.oh no!!totally wrong!!!I should be the first one moving to his side...so that He can stand by me and lead me.I just realized how selfish I am?
Thk God..because He hasn't come yet and I confessed to the Lord in order to beg a forgiveness.But I can't ensure that he won't come when I am in the side of darkness for the next time.==''Jerry~Don't try to ignore and neglect Justice.Because Justice came before the coming of Love.><*

Higher ways

"My thoughts are not your thoughts,neither are your ways my ways,"declares the Lord.
Isaiah 55:8

I often meet Christians who are upset because God hasn't answered their prayers-at least not in the way they had hoped or on their time schedule.Being patient with God doesn't mean believing that he is still in process.Being patient with God means trusting that he is sovereign and loving.It means believing that his love will not allow him to answer requests that don't line up with his ultimate purposes.
We are not first to grow restless when God's timing appears to be off.Thousands of years ago,God reminded the prophet Isaiah,"As the heavens are higher than the earth,so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts"(isaiah 55:9)
When we know that God is loving and just,we don't have to understand his ways in order to be at peace in teh midst of life's stresses.We can accept that God operates on his own timetable.As the British hymm writer Frederick William Faber wrote,"We must wait God,long,meekly,in the wind and wet,in the thunder and lightning,in the cold and the dark.Wait, and he will come.He never comes to those who do not wait."

Prayer~Dear Lord,help me to trust that you love me even when I don't understand your timing.

神与我同在

从前 不明白 为何我的世界 只有黑白

一直 在徘徊 那个才是我 生命的路牌
现在 才明白 是他拣选我 这平凡的小孩
因为 他的爱 让我生 活 多姿多彩

神与我同在 他的爱不会更改
就算我失败 他也能让我站起来
神与我同在 他的关怀不会慢一拍

我曾败坏 是他让我活过来

我才明白 神是爱～

hallilujah!!!这是我在营里所写下来的歌~thk God!!!

Breakfast with my GM and Mom

In a very good morning,I was woke up by a call which was from Micheal Angelo.He was not sure the way to Bukit Jawi and asked me how to go in the phone.=='''
He went swimming with his pretty sisters,sadly I rejected his invitation last night.cause I should have to accompany my Gm and Mom this morning.
sat on the sofa of white with semi-lying posture.opened my eyes with semi-consciousness.
They urged me to wash my face and follow them.well~forced to move...sianzzz~somehow my brother was more lazy than me,he didn't wake up for breakfast also.Geng!!Actually I should be the latest who fell asleep last night among my family.Of course,I should have the right being the one who woke up latest.
Whatever,I just endeavored to be a good son and grandson.^^
On the way,I was still in a 1per4 awake condition.=='''
We made our way to bustling Pasar.I set my safety belt automatically,even I was not so conscious of which Hand I used.
At the Pasar,we found no place parking and I noticed a familiar umbrella.wah kao!!police!
Why was I so scared?take it easy,man~=='''
Don't know why police like to set beside the road reading news paper and don't want to set properly inside the Police Office drinking coffee?
Niel,beware!!
At the same time,I discovered many cars were parked in many hazardous and irresponsible ways.walao~sort of selfish behavior!It became a seemingly acceptable way of parking.
There have some areas for parking.Some of the stupids parked their stupid cars outside the lanes and covered the way for the cars which are in the parking area to come out unreasonably.
hard to express la...Actually,I should have to take some photos...really angry with the behavior.Why don't they just straight away park their cars in the middle of the road?more easier what?walao~
Due to their stupid behaviors,we went ahead to Palir Buntar...^^
Light refreshment became our breakfast.Nothing was special,they just ate and I just swallowed.
erm~going back...By the way,I asked my GM about the story of how my GM and GF encounter?(cus she asked me about BGR before.)
haha!!funny story!!It happened dramatically.She enjoyed to tell me about the her story.haha!!!
It sounded interesting....kakaka!!!erm~well~that is all.
Then,they went to buy ticket for my GM.cus she will go back to Rawang on monday.^^sad...

memories～

I was used to live without ambition before.Is it important for a person having a ambition?
I didn't think so.^^
4 days ago,due to some reasons,I should have to go to Penang.On the way,I was alone and taking a long time pondering.I like to have a silent moment pondering,no matter it is short or long.
Because,I believe that whenever you ponder,God will provide wisdom to you at the quiet and secluded moment.
By the way,I read a book which talks about significant ambition and attitude in our life.
It inspired me a lot.I just realized how naive I am.
At the same time,I discovered some wira and wirawati.I didn't know where the camp they came from.But,the picture they were going home was very touching to me.
oh no..The life in Gua Chenderai was a very indeed sweet memory in my life.I was so grieved when we were going to separated.
I started being EMO.Then,I noticed a wira with a guitar.It recalled my memory about the moment I was playing guitar delightfully in bustling L5.It was a scene of bustle and excitement.
I never forgot the moment I was alone in Gua Chenderai L5 hostel every Friday.
They had to worship every Friday evening.During the period,all the Buddhist and Muslim had to leave.yea~I was alone but not lonely.^^
The moment they were worshiping, the moment I was carrying a common guitar in my strong arms and singing praises to the Lord joyfully in L5.
All the sweet memories were recalled when I was sitting at a isolated corner within Rapid.
=D!!I grinned to the sky and felt deeply grateful to the God for giving such memorable memories in my life.
Rapid brought me to Perangi,and I went off the bus with my huge head.
After Daniel's call,I tended to Perangi and was standing outside of the bustling shopping complex.Emo again~I still could not forget,I had come here for "straying" with my friends several times.We were used to build a trip and came here for 'straying'.haha!!Actually,we had written and read some essays that talk about the cases of straying.haha!!Obviously,we are the strays.lol!!!I thought that we could write that kind of the essays very well.^^
But we stopped straying since Form 5.
During these few hours,I was terribly emotionally sensitive.
haha!!EMO right?Don't know what time I started to be emotionally sensitive.==''

Durian and dog

Phone rang.I picked up the phone and talked.My father said that he bought many durians for my mother.^^haha!!lol!!
After a few minutes,a engine sound told me that my father just came back.I still kept immobile because my grand mother was in the drawing room.I assumed that she would go to open the gate for my father.My father kept honk,I was forced to get out of my room.I saw my grand mother arranged our shirts but she didn't notice the coming of my father.When I found out the remote control and opened the gate,she just noticed it!=='''lol!!
My dad straight away took out 2 bags of durians from the car.I automatically found out a big knife newspaper and a cloth.I thought that I finished my job.^^but I forgot to take out the tapper ware.
haha!my mum likes to held all the durian in the refrigerator.^^
My family likes to eat durians..haha!!esp the dogs...see??they always become the 1st and 2nd which attend the "durian operation".They are called as Durian King and Durian Queen.haha!!
oh!They discovered my camera!!!back back!!our sussy has a strong appetite...you can tell in its eyes.^^haha!!our Ricy has strong nature of patience..see?It kept quite and waited for the chance to assault..good boy!!^^haha!!

Sianzz..

Today, i went to Tunku for orientation.
Before,I moved ahead Tunku,I stood in front of the mirror and made sure my uniform is standard.^^
haha!!A deep sense of feeling overwhelmed me when I was wearing school uniform in front of the mirror.well..any thing was fine.I leaped on my Bike and made my way to school.
When I reached the school,I discovered that some thing is wrong with my uniform.My senior saw me and told me that my uniform was wrong..Actually,my pants should be black=='''
walao...please la...1st day only la...I..I..speechless then left to Dewan.
Oh!!Exalty!I was the one who wear wrongly the uniform.I had made a big mistake.==''I didn't ask the color of the pants and shoes.Well...my friends all teased to me...when everyone entered the dewan and discovered my wrong uniform,they would laugh and said-"Qi Jun,are you going to study F5 again?"
oh no!!I was willing to dig and hide my BIG HEAD inside the hole.
ai yo.....annoyed!!!!
I quite dislike my head but face.I should have to think about the solution to cure my Big Head disease.Otherwise,I will be in crisis again in the future.
Then,we just started the orientation.While the teacher was talking about the subject,we were chatting at the back.haha!Rest time...erm...I discovered that I was in a lonely status.Then,I found myself inside the group of girls.=='''I felt complicated and confused why I didn't set with the guys but...oh no....something wrong with me?
maybe,I can't talk with guys well.^^
yea..Niel!I kept my hook properly today.^^don't worry.kakaka!!

Happy Mother's day

wow....Two stupid guys stayed my home last night."Early"the morning,they woke up and went back to their own house.When I was intending to sleep again,my dear mum asked me to take a bath,because she was going to bring GM and me for a breakfast with her.
I felt annoyed to be in my home,I didn't know why.Maybe I was just woken up and felt uncomfortable.
We went to Sungai Bakap for a breakfast.Unexpectedly,we just had a simple breakfast.I expected to go Palir Buntar.Cheh...
On the way going to Sungai Bakap,I sat at the back seat of our car.I looked around inside the car and thought where did my brothers go.I could not imagine how lonely both of these 2 women would feel.Oh no...how bad are my brothers??What day is it??
(After you finished to blame each other,you will start to blame yourself.)Ai...How worse am I?
I am the son they love the most.I always leave them alone.=='''I felt so bad to realize how worse the way I used to treat them.Sorry....I am so sorry...
I didn't buy any thing for her as a mother's day present but I decided to glue myself with her for the whole day.haha!!We went to Sunway Carnival for a movie.In the beginning,we passed by a stage.I saw a group of people standing by the stage.It seemingly was going to have a program^^
Yea..I got it.There was a cat walk for many pairs of daughters and mothers.Haha!!My mum felt interested in the program,and she stared to me delightfully and asked me to participate the program with her.Walao..don la!!!I just got away from her rapidly.All daughters....she wanted me to go for what??hook??don la!!Daniel and ES will scold me later.kaka!!
They felt disappointed because there didn't have any good movie for them.Then,I just noticed a movie-Shinjuku incident!
haha!!!I thought it should be nice.Therefore,we decided to watch the movie.^^
bought Tickets then "Pid"to popular...^^I looked around the new age's area.A title of a book looked familiar,that was-'Lies Women Believe and The Truth Set Them Free"
HEY!All the girls pay attention please...For the sake of my friends and Sisters,I decided to suggest the book to you all...you all should have to read the book okay??kakaka!!
It will change your life in a particular way.kakaka!!
There is a stall which sells many adornments.All of the adornments was made by either iron or glass.Those are small and pretty.I ordered a adornment which can hung on the bag.haha!I like it..^^a word of blue-"blessing"
Hope that I really can bring the blessing from God for my friends or neighbor.God bless.

Happy Mother's night^^

Last night,I didn't go to church.The reason was I decided to have a happy dinner with my family.I wished they have a happy mother's day.Then, my presence was to bless them in this very moment.haha!

We went to NT Zhang Ke having our tasty dinner.
Before my brother and I reached the restaurant,we brought along a cake which was made by my brother's hands.
I got out of our wira of black with a cake on my hands.^^It looked impressive in the restaurant.
All of the customers stared on me...(actually they was staring the cake haha!)
I could feel their envy of my mother.^^I was upset to take the cake,because the manufacturer of it was my brother but me.=='''
Before the coming of meal dishes,we enjoyed the cake joyfully.

see that?Even it was unsightly,it was tasty.The lament was the unstable biscuit-made base.
The manufacturer was my brother.It should be his maiden cake.so dirty!!!look?@@haih...behave abit la..in front of my camera la....==''Yeah...we should not forget our GM!Her appearance was changed 180degree.=='''
walao...coloured her hair with black@@and wearing a red colour spec...=='''looked so lifeful.
haha...There was a wonderful night with a beautiful moon^^I appreciated the scenery when i was waiting for Daniel.haha!nice day....

walao~2

I wrote 2 blogs this evening until 530pm..
well~made my way to Daniel's house.haha!I reminded him to take helmet,haha!He answered by saying"i know"(That means he won't forget)
covered our head,started my engine,moved to Sri Nibong.
We waited for the football match in between indians and malays for 20mins.
Then,we started our game.^^haha!
shoot the ball...steal the ball...block the ball...pass the ball...foul the player...tease the player..complain the player...nothing is special...
finished the game...we moved our body to motorcycle...keep our things and cover our head then we moved out of school...
what!!police again??
walao~we almost kena...if we didn't cover,sure kena again!thk God!!=='''haha!!that is all...

reading~

Haih~lame la...I decided to play a match of Dota so that i could be relieved by abusing the NOOBs..sadly,I had to follow my mum and GM to go to Japatan Imegrense xxx in Butterworth.
She wanted to renew her passport.Don't know where she intends to fly.
She brought a book for me..with the title-"少抱怨,多实践" in order to satisfy my reading desire during the boring moment when she was busy of the passport's renewing.
I found the knowledge in the book makes sense.There are many theories to encourage the reader for fulfilling their aims.
A story..
There was a competition in between a group of frogs.The 1st "person" who reached the top of the mountain would be the winner.The match started.After a few minutes,they started to feel suffering and began to complain about the weather.Some of the frogs that were having a huge belly complained by saying "How can i leap and reach the peak with the stupid belly!?"
They teased to each other during the competition.Finally, a frog reached the peak and won in the competition.^^It is a deaf frog.Haha!In his world,it jus has aim but complain.Therefore,it could be the winner in the match.
Some of the principle are against the principle of Buddha..I found it should be a sensitive issue.
(please forgive me for expressing it in chinese.^^)

有位修道士隐居在山上静修,近十多年来都没下山,饮食都是从他的弟兄姐妹来的.

有一天,有人上山询问他修行的原因.结果,那修道士直率地回答道:"这样子,我的下辈子就会更好!"
the writer harbored many comments for the short dialog.He showed all of his comments on the book.I could understand his confusion clearly for the principle by his words.
(Why don't we start to change our life for now?why do we have to spend this life for the sake of our next life?=='''If we try to escape the reality for now,we are merely a coward and won't make a triumph in our life anymore.)
It makes sense...i agree with it fully!He is a good speaker who has writen many books to encourage the hopeless people.I like the book's title-<<不要看破,要突破>>
well~haha!I really like it.It comes from reality principle.

WALAO~~

Last night,I made a deal with Daniel that we are going to Pasar for our healthy breakfast...
Actually,he decided to accompany his dear mum "shopping" and called me to follow them.
For my sake,he asked me to wake up early in order to have a healthy life style..otherwise,i will~~haha!!Then,i was grateful to accept his invitation.
Thk God...I brought my ass out of the bed before 645am SUCCESSFULLY..haha!!who says i can't make it??!!
I got ready and waited outside my home..I found it hard to open widely my eyes...I took up my HP and texted Daniel in order to inform him that i woke up already.
It was suffering to be in a half-sleepy status..I sat outside for along time...looked forward their coming...but I didn't see any Vios come to me...
After a few minutes..Daniel texted me by writing that "come fetch me"..
well~as usual..I just put my helmet on the motorcycle and made my way to his house...
It was cool enough to drive with my basketball T-shirt in the early morning.haha!I assumed that I would go to Pasar by their car.
Daniel was ready when I reached his house...he lep on my motorcylce.. then we made our way to Pasar...
On the way, he told me that his mum left to Pasay early..and left him alone...=='''
well~We just took it easy and rejoiced that we could have our HONEYmonent.LOL!!
At the pasar..our stomach didn't give any demonstration...so we decided to find his mum...
We were confident enough on finding out his mum even she is a short and small but wise woman...^^
We could not find her out in any corner of the market...
suak liao~we had to fulfill our appitites...we talked and ate alots....haha!!I felt satisfied for this morning...^^
(who knows what will happen for the next?)
Generally...NT kampung Kia...haha..don used to pakai helmet anymore...
hey!pasar la~don have to wear (helmet) what??Do you think a piece of spoiled vegetable will fail us?haha!!just drive regardless...
I am a good driver...I used to drive without speeding over the rate which is fixed for the drivers..
haha!But in the eyes of police, a motorcylist drives without helmet is a bad driver...=='''swt!!
I got a rude shock,when i turned into a corner and noticed a big umbrella fixed at the end of the road..and the worst was 3 polices sitting there.Oh shit!!
what a bad luck!I felt helpless and hopeless when a police stood up and stopped us,then he asked us by saying "kenapa tak pakai topi?"...
what a good question!I wonder know "kenapa hang berada di sini?"
If they didn't come.they would not ask the question la....kap kap siao siao...
My skull was blank temporary,because I really didn't know what to do.I was just laughing at Daniel.They were busy of writing sth.I didnt wonder anymore..just trying to hide myself or get out from here rapidly...because there were many uncles and aunts know about us.Haha!!
walao~~while we were waiting for them to finish their writing,another uncle was blocked due to his uncovered head.I thought some1 was going to accompany us.But it was merely a faked,the uncle tried to take a forgiveness from the handsome police.Finally, he was relieved...yea~God blessed him...lol!!I had nth to say.It showed us obviously that WE were in terribly WORSE luck..
A piece of paper made me down...My mind appeared many pictures for example the moment when my mum knows it..when my dad knows it..and what I will be come after they realise that...lousy la~GAI lo!!!The pictures just came out temparory.After that, I drove peacefully back to my house.
On the way,I was wondering that what time our hard working police started to patrol our peaceful NT kampung?keso~tell me next time!please...i will cover my head with my dad's huge helmet!!
Then,Daniel kept the damning paper for my sake.=='''As a concluision,it was a lamentable morningWe felt lame and stupid in this morning.
I pretended that nth happened this morning.^^
swt~=='''don't worry...Daniel's dad will help to swallow the paper...lol!to settle it!^^be hopeful and fool!!! XD

why did He choose me?Who am i?

I have confused many times before.Why did my Lord choose me to present his blessing in front of the people?Who am i..?What a huge head wretch i am!It should have no reason for him to choose me..expressing his love on the stage in front of my church members.
I know...I know...I am nothing..merely a mess or dust...
Because of his Spirit,I was regenerated to serve him.
Because of his Love,I was selected to be his people.
haha!I am glad to be selected inexplicably..
I am glad to stand with him permenantly..
I am glad to sing for him joyfully..
I am glad to be embraced by his unfailing love..
3rd of May is the date for my brother and sisters in church to be baptized.
They determined to sacrifice their life for God..and admitted that Jesus Christ is their Lord and God of life in the face of world and Devil..
We rejoiced!^^and sing for them..
I sang the song on the stage with 2 of my brothers..ES and Daniel..
Thk God...they changed the lyric before..finally the lyric could be called as flawless..^^
Daniel...rushed to type the lyric into his laptop...so that we could straight away transfer it into teacher Tong's laptop...At the same time, i was just sitting aside..in order to cool down in the very moment...haha!I was like...a bit nervous~but thk God,my body didnt tremble anymore..because i was steady enough...haha..
Well~we practised for a while..in a small and echoes-filled room...discussed properly about how to present the song.
After a few minutes,Mrs Teoh came to urge us,because we would have to present soon.
well...let us give the blessing by singing the song for them!
Thank God...We presented the song steadly and flawlessly...
I heard many of people giving many of compliments for the song.They didn't know where the song comes from?because they never heard it before...
When I nosed that the compliments about the song..I reasonably took it easy..
Actually I dont deserve to be praised..I know..because I am dust without love of Jesus Christ..
I prefer to give all the glories to the Lord..who had created me and strengthen me...made me wise and gave me inspiration to write the song at the night...
Some of them praised for my sweet voice...yea~Thk God my sweet voice comes from him.He graces my voice...Hallilujah!