Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Be still

It has taken me quite a long time to get rid of the habit of getting upset.

I have been involved in a complicated problem happened among my classmates last year. There was a classmate knowing nothing about the problem. For some purposes, I intended to talk with them. But they rejected me by saying that "sometime it is good to know nothing instead of everything." I was speechless of his opinion. Now, I could understand fully what he wanted at that time. He wanted to be irresponsible and free of the trouble. He wanted to live out of burden.
Sometime, being responsible is not an enjoyable stuff for a normal person. I have frequently got into the state of weariness in such situation I am having now. why? Because I am now responsible of this situation. The more I get responsible, the more I get worried and burdened. At the time, I couldn't withstand the pressure, I would blame in secret and I have ever thought to escape from that. I blame God! What on earth asked me to be responsible of such suffering situation! I was unsatisfied of the change that He gave me after F6 indeed. Why?
I kept thinking why everyday since I got responsible of that. Harboring the dissatisfaction especially at night time. The school days were nice and wonderful. I never felt in pressure on studying actually. I read bible and praise the Lord almost every night at the period. But somehow I feel in high pressure at home, I had stopped praying and even singing praises to Him in my bathroom. Cus I don't understand why.
I kept asking even though I know that knowing why couldn't really help me to get this situation better. I just wanted to blame showing that it is unfair.
Time flies. I got the answer...no...It's inspiration.
I read the book written by Nick Vujicic. I realized and believe that there must be a purpose for this problem happening though I don't really know about that.
Whatever problem happens, you just pray and praise.(believe that God has his own almighty plan beyond our expectation to show his mighty power and love.)

With this beautiful reason,I will Go with FAITH,PEACE,JOY,HOPE and LOVE^^
cus Bible says, Be Still and know that I am God.