In the world of A(ii)

The overwhelming sense of loneliness kept growing.
A felt more and more heavy in his life.All the feeling is being kept inside.He wanted to get relieved!
One day,he was setting at a corner lonely and helplessly.This was a good moment for evil to attack.There were many negative feelings conquering his mind and emotion.They want to conquer his mind completely and take control of his soul!
They asked A and said:"You are alone at all!what a failure and abandoned pitiful boy!You are rejected!What is the meaning for you stay here?There is no reason!No reason for you to live!No reason for you to bear the cross and follow Jesus Christ!You are now suffering!What for?!"
A answered:"erm..ya.You are right.I am alone.I am now lost and wondering for the reason of living.Are you sure that there is no reason?!Tell me the answer!"
They kept convincing.A kept struggling with them.However,at that instant,there is a sound!A voice came from no way.
It sounded:"You should search for the good news!You may find the answer."

A felt curious and wondered what it is.
Search on the net.
Found a website:www.goodtv.tv
There was a sermon.(John 5:6)
John 5
The Healing at the Pool
1Some time later, Jesus went up to Jerusalem for a feast of the Jews. 2Now there is in Jerusalem near the Sheep Gate a pool, which in Aramaic is called Bethesda[a] and which is surrounded by five covered colonnades. 3Here a great number of disabled people used to lie—the blind, the lame, the paralyzed.[b] 5One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. 6When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, "Do you want to get well?"



In this passage,the pastor said:"you may be alone,no one may understand your feeling.You are helpless?hopeless as well?How about I tell you that [now there is a person who is praying for you.]You may say:(all the people fail you!No one may pray for you.)Then how about I say [there is a God who prays for you all the time?Holy spirit prays inside of your heart with intense sigh of feeling.Jesus Christ prays for you always on the heaven.]Then,what is your though?"

A has nothing to say but to listen to the pastor.
These passages told A that God is looking at him all the time eventh all the people ignored him.
A knew that god not only look at him and also knows what he feels!
A felt very comfortable and touch.At the same time,pastor asked by saying:"Do you want to get relieved?"
A was shocked because that is what he wanted for a long time.
A nodded his head hardly and said "YES!I want!"
(The end)