sustainanility

A sudden cry in silence,
a heart beats from that moment.
Wondering,
how long will it last in the future?
How hard will it beat against the external pressure?

Contracting and relaxing are everything,
everything of muscular working.
Questioning,
how long will it work in the future?
How hard will it work against the air particles?

Expression on the face is something,
something that reflects our feelings.
The darkness of the world steals the happiness,
the garish flowers numbs the consciousness.

For everything, there is a season,
and a time for all the matter under heaven.
A time to kill and a time to heal,
a time for war and a time for peace.

On the way of your life,
all the troubles' coming by.
They are cruel and even fierce,
try to make your show your tears.

Falling down? Never mind.
Stand up straight and don't be shy.
Give thanks to the grass and the sky,
cus they are caring and kind.

The sun's rising, the cock's crowing,
all the things keep on working.
Clear the dust on your body,
make a step and keep on walking.

Mates are always standing by,
be the booster in your life,
help you go through all the tides,
to see you soaring on the sky.

Life is hard,life is tough,
may God bless you all the path.
Friends can be a catalyst,
as a wellspring of sustainability.

In the world of A(ii)

The overwhelming sense of loneliness kept growing.
A felt more and more heavy in his life.All the feeling is being kept inside.He wanted to get relieved!
One day,he was setting at a corner lonely and helplessly.This was a good moment for evil to attack.There were many negative feelings conquering his mind and emotion.They want to conquer his mind completely and take control of his soul!
They asked A and said:"You are alone at all!what a failure and abandoned pitiful boy!You are rejected!What is the meaning for you stay here?There is no reason!No reason for you to live!No reason for you to bear the cross and follow Jesus Christ!You are now suffering!What for?!"
A answered:"erm..ya.You are right.I am alone.I am now lost and wondering for the reason of living.Are you sure that there is no reason?!Tell me the answer!"
They kept convincing.A kept struggling with them.However,at that instant,there is a sound!A voice came from no way.
It sounded:"You should search for the good news!You may find the answer."

A felt curious and wondered what it is.
Search on the net.
Found a website:www.goodtv.tv
There was a sermon.(John 5:6)
John 5
The Healing at the Pool
1Some time later, Jesus went up to Jerusalem for a feast of the Jews. 2Now there is in Jerusalem near the Sheep Gate a pool, which in Aramaic is called Bethesda[a] and which is surrounded by five covered colonnades. 3Here a great number of disabled people used to lie—the blind, the lame, the paralyzed.[b] 5One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. 6When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, "Do you want to get well?"



In this passage,the pastor said:"you may be alone,no one may understand your feeling.You are helpless?hopeless as well?How about I tell you that [now there is a person who is praying for you.]You may say:(all the people fail you!No one may pray for you.)Then how about I say [there is a God who prays for you all the time?Holy spirit prays inside of your heart with intense sigh of feeling.Jesus Christ prays for you always on the heaven.]Then,what is your though?"

A has nothing to say but to listen to the pastor.
These passages told A that God is looking at him all the time eventh all the people ignored him.
A knew that god not only look at him and also knows what he feels!
A felt very comfortable and touch.At the same time,pastor asked by saying:"Do you want to get relieved?"
A was shocked because that is what he wanted for a long time.
A nodded his head hardly and said "YES!I want!"
(The end)

In the world of A

In the world of A
Anyone here?hey~response please..It is dark!
Hey!Hey!Anyone here?answer me please?No person here?How come?
(turn to one side)Oh shit!There is a big gate in my heart!It blocks everything from entering.It is locked!Which is the stupid who locked it?o~my...I locked it...ya...I decided to lock it sometime.(just realized.)
(talk to myself)You must be stronger eventh here is dark completely.You must be faithful and hopeful eventh there is no light at all.You...You...You...must not show your worries and sorrows eventh.....you are alone here.(the gate is still being locked.)
(Outside.)
A:hey~come!study group?^^
B:o~sorry...not free..you enjoy then.
A:haha!It's ok.^^never mind.see you tomorrow.

A:hey!do you know about xxx?I shared with you last time right?rmb?
C:o~ya.anything again?
A:walao~I tell you what pla pla pla pla...
c:o~like that only lar?!(B seems like not interested)
A:haha!nothing la..kidding only~^^ok la..busy of your stuff then.(not in the same channel)

A:what is the difference btwn Catholic and Protestant?You are Catholic,should know right?
D:o~like that la..nothing different.
A:serious?there should be a difference.
D:a little bit only.
A:o~hahahaha^^(stop topic)

A:how come like that?misleading lar~
E:?take it easy man.Any prob?
A:what?!ok...nothing then.==(disagreement)

Most of the time...A is physically alone.But sometime there are some girls accompany A.However they are not in the same channel so far.Alone at last.

(the gate is still being locked.)
A likes to set at a corner quietly.Talk to himself.The overwhelming sense of loneliness grows continiously.

contradiction

It is very interesting for us to get into a new place.You will become the stranger then.
I like the feeling being a stranger that others know nothing about me.
They don't know about my past.What I have done they won't know unless I tell them.
kaka!Like a man in secret.Every thing of you is secret.^^Do you like the feeling?What do you think about that?

Some of the people may enjoy this kind of feeling but somehow they feel lonely.Ya.Actually they just want it last temporary.Sometime they need.They need to be listened and understood.In a new situation and environment,there should be no one who understand you well.No one will be in the same channel with them.Hence there is no achievement of sympathism.
Sometime we try to held our emotion and feeling deeply inside our heart so that others may not be able to read your mind and understand about your feeling.
But sometime we try to tell others about our feeling and thought indirectly by doing something strange and abnormal.
Such a complicated contradiction.^^

爱是不保留

常听说世界爱没长久哪里会有爱无尽头
尘俗的爱只在乎曾拥有一刻灿烂便要走

而我却确信爱是恒久碰到了你已无别求
无从解释不可说明的爱千秋过后仍长存不朽

谁人受痛苦被悬挂在木头至高的爱尽见于刺穿的手
看血在流反映爱没保留持续不死的爱到万世不休

惟求奉上生命全归主所有要将一切尽献于我主的手
我已决定今生再没所求惟望得主称赞已足够

Principle,it doesn't matter?

"I got no choice!!!!",nowadays that is what people usually use to explain the difficulty of the crisis they faced and the excuse they use to prevent from being guilty.It works indeed.Really!They will feel in this way,take it easy and just go ahead with their flexible principle.Actually I won't believe that human being will really act like that(change their principle).But now I fail to convince me not to believe.
There are many cases which are not rare to be found.The matter is your perspective.Don't pay attention on that thing, it may make ur life more easy and comfortable.
Some1 may say that I got no choice so they have to do something that is not allowed and unmoral or maybe something that is against their principle.
The principle now becomes the rule they used to follow in their life.By the way,it is flexible and fixed by themselves.Well~then what is the real and main principle?Where is it?In the world,something that is accepted by them is considered as acceptable.Well~if that is really acceptable,why do they get the bad ending,the tragedy which they don't expect early in the beginning.
Some1 disobeyed their principle and did something they thought that is unmoral.
After that,I asked.Some1 told me that the principle can be changed any time.I was like nothing to say.Really!
Some1 told me that they decided to be a man but then now they become a dog which is smelly and messy.
Some1 told me that they won't behave in a particular way,but finally they told me that their principle can't be applied and fulfilled in the world.
Some1 asked me to take it easy because that is what they do.They changed their mind and principle due to the changing of the situation.Nothing to do with me.They said that One day I will be like them also.==
For an example,a person who said that he won't sleep with his partner before marriage.After several years,what he disagreed has been done by him.The principle was changed.He said I won't have sex with his partner.Others may agree with the change.Now I asked.Then what will be the next principle?He may change it again.Then,something that may happen will be a tragedy.
What should we follow?Are you right?Who can tell you?Don't ask me please.Instead you should Ask God.
I don't like to be such people.
Conclusion:Live without truth=Death.(honestly)
you may disagree.But that is what I think.That is all.

What the?(II)

Well~After what the?(I) case,I was shocked.Now realized that indeed there are many people who don't really know how to appreciate the right and beneficial things.Instead they will consider that as rubbish!Sad~That is why such people may miss the grace from Lord at the end.
Ok...I used to be Driver in BM.Its ok..Even thought some of my BM friends might joke with me involving the word 'driver',I just take it easy.^^
I used to bring my cousins to Jit Sin(independent) every morning.so I have to wake up extremely early.Well~no blaming...I volunteer to do so.But indeed it may spend my time due to some procrastinations.
Early in the morning,I asked my cousin brother what time I have to fetch him.He answered and said 3 o'clock.Well~230 I left my school to Jit Sin.Ready to fetch him.
I was standing in front of Jit Sin and the same time I was observing something not only my cousin brother but X X X.haha!lol!But I felt strange cus I waited for a long time.==''So I called my cousin sister who was staying at home.She asked me to leave and ignore him.WelL~Nothing I can do right?Just leave then.Walao~just noticed that I wasted my time!LLB!!!I was kinda pek chek!He is the thief of my time.(I guessed that he was playing game with his friends.)
ok ok....I kept it.And I asked him about the case.He didn't apologize, and told me that he forgot to go back instead he went for a game with his friends.
LLB!!I was hoping that my guesswork is wrong!but...ai yo~
I felt kinda unpleasant, because my stupid cousin didn't appreciate my contribute.==
sad...He is an unreliable and irresponsible boy.Really having low moral value.
Nothing to say.But I keep praying for him.Cus I don't want to see his life become a waste.It is pitiful due to his naivety.

What the?

Long silence...pai seh la...^^
My friends please forgive me..
What a rush?What a rush?
I used to rush in my dairy life.Not only weekdays but weekends as well.
I arranged my time properly and sensibly so that I am able to involve something unnecessary into my living day.
There were several sad cases almost dismay me.Thank God.I just took it easy,otherwise I would get mad seriously.
Case 1
My cousin sister is quite a good and obedient girl.She always goes to work after school(help her father).I would like to encourage her by bringing her out for a cinema.well~the Up's showtime was about 945pm.In order to be Gurney there early, we had to move at about 8oopm.Well~She left from her working place and took a bath.We both were about to go out for Cinema.I was waiting for her,watching TV and chilling out.My mobile phone rang and I noticed a msg.
From Ah Ting(my cousin sister)
我爸爸不给我去，我们还是别去了，不然会害你被骂。

Reply
Its okay.next time la.
I made my way to my room and tried to ready myself for reading.
When I was doing my works, a scolding voice came from the hall.(my uncle)
I ignored him and did my work.But I heard that he was talking about me!
what the?!
I went out for drink.Met him unfortunately.Greeting and leaving.
He stopped me and said something annoying and provoking.I "LL" then.
He said:“啊俊！下次你要带她们出去前先问过我。不可以随便随便就提早放工的。他们放工时间是八点。他们早放，谁来做工？你以为你是谁？要早放就早放啊？”
I was like walao~I just want to encourage my dear cousin sister only.Nothing bad right?
I just answered:"sorry.Ah tior~我不知道他们八点才能放工。没有下次了。^^"(faster entered my room and closed the door)
He kept scolding no one.My cousin bother then came in, and asked me to go out cus uncle wanted to talk with me.Walao~again?
I went to him.He scolded again:“啊俊！你的朋友买票了吗？”我说：“没有，我跟阿停而已”。He said then:"我跟你说年轻人要拍拖前，先想想自己有没有本钱。你听到没有？"nodded my head steadily and said yes.
He kept talking until he felt satisfied.=='
At the same time, we were staying outside my cousin sister's room.She heard all the thing and sent me a msg to apologize.
After words, my cousin brother told me that his father thought that I was going to bring my cousin sister to know other guys.@@walao~!!!!!what?!!!!Terrible!Am I trying to bring her falling in love?
Lucky,I was kinda steady.I endured all the thing without any blaming.At the same time,my cousin sister was very sad and she cried in her room.(my cousin bro told me.)
Sad case...really don know how to have a outing next time.May be nerd soon.