I have stopped working as a part-time helper in CS Computer Technology after May.
It is because of my laziness but I feel like I have other things more meaningful to do. That may be more beneficial to me. But I don't really have a clear planning for my June. I think I should figure out my aim before I could think of the plan.
Before Form 6, I had a revolution in my mind-set. Self-improvement had been replaced my self-inferior in my mind for that period. Thank God for changing me little by little. The sand has been gathered to form a small massif.
Now I am in my hometown. My attitude doesn't seem like previous. It has changed somehow negatively. The passion to find the possibility of improvement is fading slowly and silently. I feel really sad and helpless of that. I get back to the nest - safety zone which greatly discourages me to search for challenges. Sometimes, I would think having my normal and peaceful life, making no special changes do not seem like a mistake. But, time flies, I would ask myself - What have I done?.Nothing.
I have watched a tv program - good tv just now. The sermons given really inspired me to improve and get myself different from others. The pastor said:' The situation somehow may influence your passion..passion of job and other things else. ' I asked my self, is it impossible for me to make changes in my hometown? Can't I just overcome the surrounding influence to just get improved?
Nick Vujicic is an inspiring man without arms and legs. However, his life is terribly good. He has inspired thousand of people with his story, experience and attitude. In fact logically he should be the one who needs encouragement. But he overcomes the physical limits to live a life without limit. I know! I read his book. I got inspired seriously while I was reading his book. However, the effect got faded with time. I just realized I am still the same after a long time I have read about his story - his book. Feel dreadfully ashamed.
Well..it's time to cool down and think what I can do to help others or improve myself. May God bless me..I need another change in my life.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Friday, May 27, 2011
with everything we have
My blogger has been blank for several months. I feel nothing but a little bit shameful of myself.Finally, I take initiative to fill something over here.It's ridiculous to say that I have no time to write blogger during my long-term holidays as I could keep on posting before holidays.
Life is full of contradiction in fact. You would be willing to earn money, but at the same time, you are not happy to spend your time greatly for that. You wish to have more time for your own self.
Now, I feel like having no time to play after I started to work. Therefore I tell myself to cherish my youth by doing what I like and ought to do. By the way, money does matter this time.==
Back to the topic, I have heard a story about a man and a wife.
I am pretty sure that is a real story.^^
Most of the days, both of them quarrel with each other. The man expects the wife to do housework properly. He urged his wife to keep this and that. But the wife doesn't really have time to do everything. She has other things else to do. She feels burdened and stressful with her husband behavior. Most of the night, she cries sadly in secret while the man feels unsatisfied. This unwittingly becomes the unhealthy routine in their life.
Then man did nothing wrong. He just wants to have a comfortable home. That's why he urged his wife to fix up the mess. But the wife is unable to fulfill.
The wife did nothing wrong. She just looks for rest of mind and physics. But the man keeps on commanding.Why don't the man fixes the mess up? Let the wife feels free. Why don't the wife try to change her mind and not to magnify her sight to the problem?
Please try to do goods to others with everything we have.
Life is full of contradiction in fact. You would be willing to earn money, but at the same time, you are not happy to spend your time greatly for that. You wish to have more time for your own self.
Now, I feel like having no time to play after I started to work. Therefore I tell myself to cherish my youth by doing what I like and ought to do. By the way, money does matter this time.==
Back to the topic, I have heard a story about a man and a wife.
I am pretty sure that is a real story.^^
Most of the days, both of them quarrel with each other. The man expects the wife to do housework properly. He urged his wife to keep this and that. But the wife doesn't really have time to do everything. She has other things else to do. She feels burdened and stressful with her husband behavior. Most of the night, she cries sadly in secret while the man feels unsatisfied. This unwittingly becomes the unhealthy routine in their life.
Then man did nothing wrong. He just wants to have a comfortable home. That's why he urged his wife to fix up the mess. But the wife is unable to fulfill.
The wife did nothing wrong. She just looks for rest of mind and physics. But the man keeps on commanding.Why don't the man fixes the mess up? Let the wife feels free. Why don't the wife try to change her mind and not to magnify her sight to the problem?
Please try to do goods to others with everything we have.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Feel Good!
The days seem very shiny and hopeful after 21 Feb 2011 where my STPM result came out.
I am teaching Form 4 students mathematics every Monday night in Sri Nibong Tuition Center. Some of the them used not to pay attention somehow in my class. Perhaps I look like a student rather than a teacher.haha~
However, I still help them by guiding them how to solve the math problems which are very annoying and boring to them. This became my job.
Last night, as usual I teach them at Monday night. The air conditioner, old marker pan and dirty white board were still playing their instrumental roles in the small class. But there were something different. They all turned up in my lesson without being late.
It was what really shocked me first. I was pretty sure that they knew I have got a good STPM result cus I know Mr and Mrs Teoh would spread the good news to the students.
Teach..teach..teach..No one sounded disrespectful.
Before I finished teaching, one of the students voiced out something like : 'teacher, how could you improve your language?'.
I turned to him curiously,wondering how much he knows about me.
I held the marker pen with both of my hands and started to talk to them informally.
I realized that Sir has ever shared with them something about me before.
At the end of my lesson, the students shared about their problems that influence them from being hardworking in the class. Some of them wanted to have a change in their life. It sounded great indeed.
In order to get them ready for the examination, we decided to have revision tomorrow night.
I liked the way they talked to me and listened to me last night because it made me to feel greatly respected. The feeling was great and indescribable. I liked the way they dismissed last night, they joked to each other before leaving by saying :'ei..change change!'. Even thought that might seem like a joke rather than a encouragement, but I sincerely hope they really help themselves to improve.
Wish them all the best in future^^
( for those who have ever helped me to improve myself, I give thanks to each of everyone of you sincerely! )
I am teaching Form 4 students mathematics every Monday night in Sri Nibong Tuition Center. Some of the them used not to pay attention somehow in my class. Perhaps I look like a student rather than a teacher.haha~
However, I still help them by guiding them how to solve the math problems which are very annoying and boring to them. This became my job.
Last night, as usual I teach them at Monday night. The air conditioner, old marker pan and dirty white board were still playing their instrumental roles in the small class. But there were something different. They all turned up in my lesson without being late.
It was what really shocked me first. I was pretty sure that they knew I have got a good STPM result cus I know Mr and Mrs Teoh would spread the good news to the students.
Teach..teach..teach..No one sounded disrespectful.
Before I finished teaching, one of the students voiced out something like : 'teacher, how could you improve your language?'.
I turned to him curiously,wondering how much he knows about me.
I held the marker pen with both of my hands and started to talk to them informally.
I realized that Sir has ever shared with them something about me before.
At the end of my lesson, the students shared about their problems that influence them from being hardworking in the class. Some of them wanted to have a change in their life. It sounded great indeed.
In order to get them ready for the examination, we decided to have revision tomorrow night.
I liked the way they talked to me and listened to me last night because it made me to feel greatly respected. The feeling was great and indescribable. I liked the way they dismissed last night, they joked to each other before leaving by saying :'ei..change change!'. Even thought that might seem like a joke rather than a encouragement, but I sincerely hope they really help themselves to improve.
Wish them all the best in future^^
( for those who have ever helped me to improve myself, I give thanks to each of everyone of you sincerely! )
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Thanks giving
Time flies as usual, neither speeds up nor slows down.
And here I am, writing my post after a few days I received my STPM result.
Seriously, I give thank to God wholeheartedly. He is really...awesome!
Bible said : God use ordinary person to do his extraordinary plan.
I think I have done an extraordinary thing just a few days before. I got an excellent STPM result which has made my parents being proud of his son-me.
I hope the Lord in heaven would also feel being glorified.^^
I have never thought that one day I will achieve something big like this. Maybe, other people may find it reasonable, but ...it is a really big change in me just in these several years. I just can give thanks to him and praise him.
21/2 was the day I received my STPM result and also the last day for my dad to do radiotherapy. I wish that he will never get into the stupid radiotherapy room and being scanned by the stupid X-ray machine after that.
Thank God.For everything I have now, I give thanks to you!^^
And here I am, writing my post after a few days I received my STPM result.
Seriously, I give thank to God wholeheartedly. He is really...awesome!
Bible said : God use ordinary person to do his extraordinary plan.
I think I have done an extraordinary thing just a few days before. I got an excellent STPM result which has made my parents being proud of his son-me.
I hope the Lord in heaven would also feel being glorified.^^
I have never thought that one day I will achieve something big like this. Maybe, other people may find it reasonable, but ...it is a really big change in me just in these several years. I just can give thanks to him and praise him.
21/2 was the day I received my STPM result and also the last day for my dad to do radiotherapy. I wish that he will never get into the stupid radiotherapy room and being scanned by the stupid X-ray machine after that.
Thank God.For everything I have now, I give thanks to you!^^
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Be still
It has taken me quite a long time to get rid of the habit of getting upset.
I have been involved in a complicated problem happened among my classmates last year. There was a classmate knowing nothing about the problem. For some purposes, I intended to talk with them. But they rejected me by saying that "sometime it is good to know nothing instead of everything." I was speechless of his opinion. Now, I could understand fully what he wanted at that time. He wanted to be irresponsible and free of the trouble. He wanted to live out of burden.
Sometime, being responsible is not an enjoyable stuff for a normal person. I have frequently got into the state of weariness in such situation I am having now. why? Because I am now responsible of this situation. The more I get responsible, the more I get worried and burdened. At the time, I couldn't withstand the pressure, I would blame in secret and I have ever thought to escape from that. I blame God! What on earth asked me to be responsible of such suffering situation! I was unsatisfied of the change that He gave me after F6 indeed. Why?
I kept thinking why everyday since I got responsible of that. Harboring the dissatisfaction especially at night time. The school days were nice and wonderful. I never felt in pressure on studying actually. I read bible and praise the Lord almost every night at the period. But somehow I feel in high pressure at home, I had stopped praying and even singing praises to Him in my bathroom. Cus I don't understand why.
I kept asking even though I know that knowing why couldn't really help me to get this situation better. I just wanted to blame showing that it is unfair.
Time flies. I got the answer...no...It's inspiration.
I read the book written by Nick Vujicic. I realized and believe that there must be a purpose for this problem happening though I don't really know about that.
Whatever problem happens, you just pray and praise.(believe that God has his own almighty plan beyond our expectation to show his mighty power and love.)
With this beautiful reason,I will Go with FAITH,PEACE,JOY,HOPE and LOVE^^
cus Bible says, Be Still and know that I am God.
I have been involved in a complicated problem happened among my classmates last year. There was a classmate knowing nothing about the problem. For some purposes, I intended to talk with them. But they rejected me by saying that "sometime it is good to know nothing instead of everything." I was speechless of his opinion. Now, I could understand fully what he wanted at that time. He wanted to be irresponsible and free of the trouble. He wanted to live out of burden.
Sometime, being responsible is not an enjoyable stuff for a normal person. I have frequently got into the state of weariness in such situation I am having now. why? Because I am now responsible of this situation. The more I get responsible, the more I get worried and burdened. At the time, I couldn't withstand the pressure, I would blame in secret and I have ever thought to escape from that. I blame God! What on earth asked me to be responsible of such suffering situation! I was unsatisfied of the change that He gave me after F6 indeed. Why?
I kept thinking why everyday since I got responsible of that. Harboring the dissatisfaction especially at night time. The school days were nice and wonderful. I never felt in pressure on studying actually. I read bible and praise the Lord almost every night at the period. But somehow I feel in high pressure at home, I had stopped praying and even singing praises to Him in my bathroom. Cus I don't understand why.
I kept asking even though I know that knowing why couldn't really help me to get this situation better. I just wanted to blame showing that it is unfair.
Time flies. I got the answer...no...It's inspiration.
I read the book written by Nick Vujicic. I realized and believe that there must be a purpose for this problem happening though I don't really know about that.
Whatever problem happens, you just pray and praise.(believe that God has his own almighty plan beyond our expectation to show his mighty power and love.)
With this beautiful reason,I will Go with FAITH,PEACE,JOY,HOPE and LOVE^^
cus Bible says, Be Still and know that I am God.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Will be blessed.
Few days ago, I have watched GoodTV which has successfully inspired several times when I was in bad mood.
A sermon given.
A story was given to show how God bless people.
Spider is a good and smart hunter among the series of insect.
Its web is sticky and acts as an useful weapon for spider to hunt.
I have seen a scorpion being hunted by a spider in National Geography. 1st, scorpion unwittingly got stuck in the sticky web. It tried to get away of the web but finally it's whole body got wrapped up. The spider got itself slowly closer to the scorpion and injected poison in the scorpion's body.(to paralyze the scorpion) After several minutes, spider only got extra closer to the scorpion and brought it into spider's hole.
A question given. Why doesn't the spider get stuck by its own web?
This is because the feet of sniper produce oil which helps it to walk on the web without being stuck.
God bless this spider by giving it the ability to produce oil.
God bless everything in the world. He love His creation especially human.
I will be blessed. I believe! Hallelujah!
A sermon given.
A story was given to show how God bless people.
Spider is a good and smart hunter among the series of insect.
Its web is sticky and acts as an useful weapon for spider to hunt.
I have seen a scorpion being hunted by a spider in National Geography. 1st, scorpion unwittingly got stuck in the sticky web. It tried to get away of the web but finally it's whole body got wrapped up. The spider got itself slowly closer to the scorpion and injected poison in the scorpion's body.(to paralyze the scorpion) After several minutes, spider only got extra closer to the scorpion and brought it into spider's hole.
A question given. Why doesn't the spider get stuck by its own web?
This is because the feet of sniper produce oil which helps it to walk on the web without being stuck.
God bless this spider by giving it the ability to produce oil.
God bless everything in the world. He love His creation especially human.
I will be blessed. I believe! Hallelujah!
please help, Lord!
Thank God...
I was not in high pressure while I was studying Form6. I quite enjoyed the life in HSBM.
Thank God again...I am in high pressure in my family.I have encountered a lot of problems.
1st.
I am having bad relationship with my younger brother.
This caused several serious conflicts happening in a few weeks ago. As a result, I got into a big trouble. I am being regarded like a spark which can cause a huge fire in my family. It's like a bullshit. However, I have admitted my fault of all these stuffs. I am trying my best to endure all the nonsense made by my brother in my family. It's torturing.
2nd
My parents are having communication problems. My dad, a bad-tempered man who is used to command makes my mum, a submissive woman suffering. She gets weaker and weaker everyday due to all the housework and tuition. I am trying my best to reduce her physical burdens by helping her doing some housework. However, she gets tired and upset always because of my dad's bad attitude. This is one of the things that makes me feel very helpless. I wonder if I can do anything to change the situation.
3rd
I have been told about my family's financial condition.
I need to get mature and sensible and figure out what I should do while my younger brother still enjoys his life with his gf now. this is also the problem that I can only endure and take it easy.
I feel in pressure seriously...
please help, Lord.
I was not in high pressure while I was studying Form6. I quite enjoyed the life in HSBM.
Thank God again...I am in high pressure in my family.I have encountered a lot of problems.
1st.
I am having bad relationship with my younger brother.
This caused several serious conflicts happening in a few weeks ago. As a result, I got into a big trouble. I am being regarded like a spark which can cause a huge fire in my family. It's like a bullshit. However, I have admitted my fault of all these stuffs. I am trying my best to endure all the nonsense made by my brother in my family. It's torturing.
2nd
My parents are having communication problems. My dad, a bad-tempered man who is used to command makes my mum, a submissive woman suffering. She gets weaker and weaker everyday due to all the housework and tuition. I am trying my best to reduce her physical burdens by helping her doing some housework. However, she gets tired and upset always because of my dad's bad attitude. This is one of the things that makes me feel very helpless. I wonder if I can do anything to change the situation.
3rd
I have been told about my family's financial condition.
I need to get mature and sensible and figure out what I should do while my younger brother still enjoys his life with his gf now. this is also the problem that I can only endure and take it easy.
I feel in pressure seriously...
please help, Lord.
Saturday, December 18, 2010
感恩
过了很长的一段日子，我现在才终于打开这个blogger，更新更新。
由于小弟的英文不是很好，所以我想尽量用我熟悉的语言-华语来表达我这感恩的心情。
神，我很感恩。
对于那些认识我近况的朋友，我相信你们都挺了解我走过了的路。
无论如何，我想跟大家分享。分享那奇妙的恩典。
我原是一个没有责任感的男孩，我有着可爱的天真和可怜的无知。在中学，学业与家人好像没在我心里占不到50%的位置。（我相信很多少年人都是这样，我只是其中一个=P）
一直以来都没有方向，很多时后我问自己到底为什么会在这边。
缺乏成就感的我，在球场上建立自信心，在童军活动培养傲气。缺乏爱的我，到处寻人欢欣，寻人的认同。这种少年普通得不得了。
在寻求爱的路途中，我遇到了许许多多的问题，做了很多鸟事情，带给朋友很多粪问题。
那时的我很低落，很不自由。不自由可能是因为大头里面有很多的歪理，背上有很多负担。
东西就一直这样不停地循环发生。
过不久，我对这些事觉得累了。于是，转移方向去依靠神。依靠一个我只认识不久的神。从那时候开始，一切奇妙的变化开始了。
在F5的最后黄金时期，我善用时间，夺取我最满意的成绩。当了一整子的兵，认识各样的人，让我在心灵上何思想上成长了不少。之后，我自己不知不觉找到了方向，得到了引领，就企图想读KDU。虽然如此，那时的环境非常不鼓励我在那儿求学。
过后奇妙的得知有HSBM的存在，就毫不犹豫的转到哪儿上学。那时，我住宿在我的亲戚家。那儿有特别的优待。那就是免费的午餐和晚餐。（因为亲戚是开经济饭店的。）因此，我的生活费就这样减少很多。
哈哈！其实我在几天以内做了转校的决定。虽然那时我不知道前面会有什么问题在等着我去面对，但是我有那种莫名其妙的感觉说：别怕，不会有事的。那种莫名其妙的平安说服我就这样懵懵懂懂地转校，换了环境。过后我才察觉，我的路...就像是被铺平了似的，像是被策划一样，顺利得不像话。我那时候非常感恩，非常感动。神竟然为我这么普通，又败类的黄麒俊安排好去路，照亮了整片路。
在亲戚家呆足了十个月，我就因为某些缘故从亲戚家搬了出来自己住。于是，搬到了朋友家附近的一间房子住宿。感谢神，我受到朋友家人的帮助和恩惠，让我的生活变得比较轻松，比较快乐。他们的存在也让我的生活不会变的很乏味，反而非常非常的精彩。^^在途中，我父亲得了大病。让我非常的担忧和烦恼。由于我不是医生，唯有祷告祈求才能让我觉得没那么无助与不安。感谢神，在医学上来看，我爸的病情还在控制下。^^相信很快就会好起来。
我对我现在所拥有的一切，对神献上无法形容的感谢。以前的我根本没想到会有这样的一天，没想到我会变成这样的一个‘麒哥’^^。感恩，愿你继续赐福！=D
由于小弟的英文不是很好，所以我想尽量用我熟悉的语言-华语来表达我这感恩的心情。
神，我很感恩。
对于那些认识我近况的朋友，我相信你们都挺了解我走过了的路。
无论如何，我想跟大家分享。分享那奇妙的恩典。
我原是一个没有责任感的男孩，我有着可爱的天真和可怜的无知。在中学，学业与家人好像没在我心里占不到50%的位置。（我相信很多少年人都是这样，我只是其中一个=P）
一直以来都没有方向，很多时后我问自己到底为什么会在这边。
缺乏成就感的我，在球场上建立自信心，在童军活动培养傲气。缺乏爱的我，到处寻人欢欣，寻人的认同。这种少年普通得不得了。
在寻求爱的路途中，我遇到了许许多多的问题，做了很多鸟事情，带给朋友很多粪问题。
那时的我很低落，很不自由。不自由可能是因为大头里面有很多的歪理，背上有很多负担。
东西就一直这样不停地循环发生。
过不久，我对这些事觉得累了。于是，转移方向去依靠神。依靠一个我只认识不久的神。从那时候开始，一切奇妙的变化开始了。
在F5的最后黄金时期，我善用时间，夺取我最满意的成绩。当了一整子的兵，认识各样的人，让我在心灵上何思想上成长了不少。之后，我自己不知不觉找到了方向，得到了引领，就企图想读KDU。虽然如此，那时的环境非常不鼓励我在那儿求学。
过后奇妙的得知有HSBM的存在，就毫不犹豫的转到哪儿上学。那时，我住宿在我的亲戚家。那儿有特别的优待。那就是免费的午餐和晚餐。（因为亲戚是开经济饭店的。）因此，我的生活费就这样减少很多。
哈哈！其实我在几天以内做了转校的决定。虽然那时我不知道前面会有什么问题在等着我去面对，但是我有那种莫名其妙的感觉说：别怕，不会有事的。那种莫名其妙的平安说服我就这样懵懵懂懂地转校，换了环境。过后我才察觉，我的路...就像是被铺平了似的，像是被策划一样，顺利得不像话。我那时候非常感恩，非常感动。神竟然为我这么普通，又败类的黄麒俊安排好去路，照亮了整片路。
在亲戚家呆足了十个月，我就因为某些缘故从亲戚家搬了出来自己住。于是，搬到了朋友家附近的一间房子住宿。感谢神，我受到朋友家人的帮助和恩惠，让我的生活变得比较轻松，比较快乐。他们的存在也让我的生活不会变的很乏味，反而非常非常的精彩。^^在途中，我父亲得了大病。让我非常的担忧和烦恼。由于我不是医生，唯有祷告祈求才能让我觉得没那么无助与不安。感谢神，在医学上来看，我爸的病情还在控制下。^^相信很快就会好起来。
我对我现在所拥有的一切，对神献上无法形容的感谢。以前的我根本没想到会有这样的一天，没想到我会变成这样的一个‘麒哥’^^。感恩，愿你继续赐福！=D
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Don't you give up now.
Now, I am very confused.I'm confused of what perspective I should look my life in?
optimistic or pessimistic?
I don't have the idea of why we prefer to be sentimental and hopeless. Like to set ourselves in an "emo" status. However, I definitely find it uncomfortable and harmful to ourselves. Telling myself try not to be EMO but to cheer and be joyful in any situation. Thank God. He has changed me successfully. I find life joyful, peaceful and hopeful though I have encountered a lot of unpleasant problems recently.
I have searched a song 'What faith can do'. It actually inspires me more than I can imagine. It is like saying about the feeling of the helpless&hopeless people today. I am one of them of course.
I believe that we can get the helping hands to rise ourselves if we ask for it.
I believe that we can find the way of hope to go on our tough journey if we seek for it.
I believe our sincere prayers will be heard and answered even praying seems ridiculous and foolish to others.
I believe the broken heart can be renewed if we are willing to unlock the door in our heart and ask for the comfort from our Lord.
I believe our spirit will be purified if we repent and ask for the excuse from God.
So? There is nothing I should have to be afraid of for nothing can separate me from Him.
Let's keep believing and don't ever say "GIVE OFF"!
optimistic or pessimistic?
I don't have the idea of why we prefer to be sentimental and hopeless. Like to set ourselves in an "emo" status. However, I definitely find it uncomfortable and harmful to ourselves. Telling myself try not to be EMO but to cheer and be joyful in any situation. Thank God. He has changed me successfully. I find life joyful, peaceful and hopeful though I have encountered a lot of unpleasant problems recently.
I have searched a song 'What faith can do'. It actually inspires me more than I can imagine. It is like saying about the feeling of the helpless&hopeless people today. I am one of them of course.
I believe that we can get the helping hands to rise ourselves if we ask for it.
I believe that we can find the way of hope to go on our tough journey if we seek for it.
I believe our sincere prayers will be heard and answered even praying seems ridiculous and foolish to others.
I believe the broken heart can be renewed if we are willing to unlock the door in our heart and ask for the comfort from our Lord.
I believe our spirit will be purified if we repent and ask for the excuse from God.
So? There is nothing I should have to be afraid of for nothing can separate me from Him.
Let's keep believing and don't ever say "GIVE OFF"!
What faith can do
It's a nice song with an inspiring lyrics.Have a look.
What Faith Can Do Lyrics
Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you're stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
What Faith Can Do Lyrics
Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you're stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
Friday, September 3, 2010
sigh
Unwittingly, blogging becomes one of my habits. I think that should be a healthy one.
Thank God that I have been transformed greatly into another kind of guy. I am blessed enough for having such an amazing change in my life. Recalling the moment I was in my secondary school's life, I am seriously shocked of God's miracle. Thank God!
Few weeks ago, my class has been the most cheerful, noisy and clever among the Form 6 classes. I am quite proud of being one of them. Yet, some of them become so ....I don't know how to describe.They take the result too seriously. They all the time get themselves busy of doing homework and exercise. They prefer to be isolated instead of getting into laughter. They look ugly and unpleasant.And they even like to skip their meal during recess time for having more time to do what they wish to do. Well..It is not my business. But somehow I feel very uncomfortable and unhappy because of them. Perhaps, I feel sick of that. Maybe, I refuse to accept the change and start to put the blame on them. However, I know it is totally not good to have such negative thinking.
Now, they merely care about the paper- back and white result paper! Relationship. Behavior. Memory. Entertainment. They never care! What the hell! Is the paper so important? More important than your joy, peace, health and soul?! I have no idea on that.
I have a lot to comment but I have no right to comment so much on that. I wish to help them by setting them free from bondage. Now I only can keep quiet...sigh....Wait for the good change patiently...
Thank God that I have been transformed greatly into another kind of guy. I am blessed enough for having such an amazing change in my life. Recalling the moment I was in my secondary school's life, I am seriously shocked of God's miracle. Thank God!
Few weeks ago, my class has been the most cheerful, noisy and clever among the Form 6 classes. I am quite proud of being one of them. Yet, some of them become so ....I don't know how to describe.They take the result too seriously. They all the time get themselves busy of doing homework and exercise. They prefer to be isolated instead of getting into laughter. They look ugly and unpleasant.And they even like to skip their meal during recess time for having more time to do what they wish to do. Well..It is not my business. But somehow I feel very uncomfortable and unhappy because of them. Perhaps, I feel sick of that. Maybe, I refuse to accept the change and start to put the blame on them. However, I know it is totally not good to have such negative thinking.
Now, they merely care about the paper- back and white result paper! Relationship. Behavior. Memory. Entertainment. They never care! What the hell! Is the paper so important? More important than your joy, peace, health and soul?! I have no idea on that.
I have a lot to comment but I have no right to comment so much on that. I wish to help them by setting them free from bondage. Now I only can keep quiet...sigh....Wait for the good change patiently...
Saturday, August 21, 2010
update
Sorry for my inactivity on Blogger, I haven't tried my best to share what is happening in my life recently.
I terribly met an accident. I found it terrible to happen. It was not my fault totally, but I know it was my bad luck to fill the fuel tank with merely RM10 of fuel in Desa Damai Petronus. There was a old lady driving and she was the one who foolishly brought her light green Kancil to butt the bottom of my Wira. At the same time, I was witnessing throughout the action.Walao~ If I were superman...I would like to stop all the messy things.
I was shocked after the crash, but I got seriously stunned and speechless after the second crash. She reversed her car rapidly and banged a brand-new motorcycle behind her. She just stopped driving after the second crash. Bullshit...==
The scene which I don't know how to describe is still revolving in my memory. It is my first. Thank God. I was the victim not the factor of this accident.
After the mess, I had waited for one and a half hour for the coming of the cops. By the way, the old woman asked me to bring to her house for taking her IC. On the way, she kept on chattering until I got irritated and impatient. Hu~ Since, she is alone and pitiful, I chose to be sympathetic instead of bitter. She made me realizing that loneliness is more torturing than how I have ever expected. She has no one to rely besides herself. I find no point to be bitter. Instead, I have to be thankful and grateful of the people I have around me.
Thank God. After that, the low-class cops came followed by the important traffic cops. They captured several photos for proofs and asked me to state all the process thoroughly. Hu~After that, I had to make a report in BM Balai Polis. Wa~I hate the traffic jam in BM the most. It is a waste of time! It took about half of my day to settle all the stuff. Honestly, I have learned a lot of things during the lesson.Thank God....^^I should face it with gratitude.^^ That's all my update.
I terribly met an accident. I found it terrible to happen. It was not my fault totally, but I know it was my bad luck to fill the fuel tank with merely RM10 of fuel in Desa Damai Petronus. There was a old lady driving and she was the one who foolishly brought her light green Kancil to butt the bottom of my Wira. At the same time, I was witnessing throughout the action.Walao~ If I were superman...I would like to stop all the messy things.
I was shocked after the crash, but I got seriously stunned and speechless after the second crash. She reversed her car rapidly and banged a brand-new motorcycle behind her. She just stopped driving after the second crash. Bullshit...==
The scene which I don't know how to describe is still revolving in my memory. It is my first. Thank God. I was the victim not the factor of this accident.
After the mess, I had waited for one and a half hour for the coming of the cops. By the way, the old woman asked me to bring to her house for taking her IC. On the way, she kept on chattering until I got irritated and impatient. Hu~ Since, she is alone and pitiful, I chose to be sympathetic instead of bitter. She made me realizing that loneliness is more torturing than how I have ever expected. She has no one to rely besides herself. I find no point to be bitter. Instead, I have to be thankful and grateful of the people I have around me.
Thank God. After that, the low-class cops came followed by the important traffic cops. They captured several photos for proofs and asked me to state all the process thoroughly. Hu~After that, I had to make a report in BM Balai Polis. Wa~I hate the traffic jam in BM the most. It is a waste of time! It took about half of my day to settle all the stuff. Honestly, I have learned a lot of things during the lesson.Thank God....^^I should face it with gratitude.^^ That's all my update.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Need helps
Everyone needs compassion,
Love that's never failing;
Let mercy fall on me.
Everyone needs forgiveness,
The kindness of a Saviour;
The Hope of nations.
Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.
So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again.
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.
My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.
Shine your light and let the whole world see,
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus (x2)
Christian lyrics - MIGHTY TO SAVE LYRICS - HILLSONG AUSTRALIA
It's one of the songs that has inspired me well.)
It is true...Everyone need compassion and love that is never failing.
We are vulnerable and weak. We can't do anything on something that you can never help.
We have a lot of burdens to bear in daily life. No one can get rid of all the responsibilities in this world. Unwittingly, we may be pressed, emotional and consequently depressed and even hopeless.
Why? Because we find that only we ourselves are having problems in this world. Why again? It is because everybody is not willing to reveal their own negative feelings in front of other persons. We hide them all the time and gather them together without awareness. It becomes BURDEN at the end.
More considerate and caring friends and mates we have in our live can make our life easy.^^ BURDEN is an invisible and spiritual load that we always bear. It gets more serious as life goes on. It is actually more heavy than we can withstand indeed. Can you imagine how terrible a person bearing heavy bag at all time and in all places? It is dreadfully torturing.You can't throw it! Because the only way to get rid of it is to stop the beating of your heart-die. We have to bear it!
How can we bear it?
Guys...
We need more hands to minimize burden.
A hand that pats our back when we are crying.
We need a pair of ears to minimize burden.
A pair of ears that listens to our pitiful scream.
We need comfort that can never be self-produced.
As we gather and inspire each other, the physical and spiritual strength will gain stronger!
It provides me a relation.
[The physical and spiritual strength is directly proportional to the number of considerate friends you have around you]
Keep it in mind. Whenever you are worrying and agitated, find someone to express what you feel. It will amazingly lighten your burden. +U!
Love that's never failing;
Let mercy fall on me.
Everyone needs forgiveness,
The kindness of a Saviour;
The Hope of nations.
Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.
So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again.
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.
My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.
Shine your light and let the whole world see,
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus (x2)
Christian lyrics - MIGHTY TO SAVE LYRICS - HILLSONG AUSTRALIA
It's one of the songs that has inspired me well.)
It is true...Everyone need compassion and love that is never failing.
We are vulnerable and weak. We can't do anything on something that you can never help.
We have a lot of burdens to bear in daily life. No one can get rid of all the responsibilities in this world. Unwittingly, we may be pressed, emotional and consequently depressed and even hopeless.
Why? Because we find that only we ourselves are having problems in this world. Why again? It is because everybody is not willing to reveal their own negative feelings in front of other persons. We hide them all the time and gather them together without awareness. It becomes BURDEN at the end.
More considerate and caring friends and mates we have in our live can make our life easy.^^ BURDEN is an invisible and spiritual load that we always bear. It gets more serious as life goes on. It is actually more heavy than we can withstand indeed. Can you imagine how terrible a person bearing heavy bag at all time and in all places? It is dreadfully torturing.You can't throw it! Because the only way to get rid of it is to stop the beating of your heart-die. We have to bear it!
How can we bear it?
Guys...
We need more hands to minimize burden.
A hand that pats our back when we are crying.
We need a pair of ears to minimize burden.
A pair of ears that listens to our pitiful scream.
We need comfort that can never be self-produced.
As we gather and inspire each other, the physical and spiritual strength will gain stronger!
It provides me a relation.
[The physical and spiritual strength is directly proportional to the number of considerate friends you have around you]
Keep it in mind. Whenever you are worrying and agitated, find someone to express what you feel. It will amazingly lighten your burden. +U!
Friday, August 13, 2010
Spot Check year 2
I have post a blog about spot check last year. Today, we have one spot check also.
By the way, I would like to share what happened on Wednesday.
In HSBM we have Perhimpunan every Wednesday and most of the Wednesday prefects take chances to check students' hair and fingernails.
One of my friends had been caught to a corner waiting for discipline teacher to cut his hair. After awhile, he escaped from being caught by saying that he wanted to go to washroom. However his name had been recorded down, he was called by discipline teacher. Once he came in class, his hair had been partially cut.==pity nia...
Today, prefects entered our class and had a spot check and body check. He kena again!
His hair kena cut again!His face immediately turned green.==
Last year, his hand phone had been confiscated. Now, hair being cut.hu~will be seriously agitated. Hope that he is alright now..
By the way, I would like to share what happened on Wednesday.
In HSBM we have Perhimpunan every Wednesday and most of the Wednesday prefects take chances to check students' hair and fingernails.
One of my friends had been caught to a corner waiting for discipline teacher to cut his hair. After awhile, he escaped from being caught by saying that he wanted to go to washroom. However his name had been recorded down, he was called by discipline teacher. Once he came in class, his hair had been partially cut.==pity nia...
Today, prefects entered our class and had a spot check and body check. He kena again!
His hair kena cut again!His face immediately turned green.==
Last year, his hand phone had been confiscated. Now, hair being cut.hu~will be seriously agitated. Hope that he is alright now..
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Update
Wow~The form 6 monthly exam in HSBM has been over.haha...It doesn't make me feel really relieved. Perhaps I have been already got used of it. Once I got the paper, I just figured out the answers and filled the questions up as soon as possible. We will be nervous during examination but I told myself that it is totally useless for me to panic at that important moment. I must finish it without fears and hesitations. Thank God....I don't have bad feeling after the exam even after the announcement of the results.^^
I have asked many classmates around about the change of their life after taking form 6. They all are really moody when talking about that. But I know that they need someone for them to express their dissatisfaction. It is actually good to see my friends changing their life for their future's sake. I believe that they will be blessed in future. In contrast, those stubborn people will deserve a tragedy at the end.
People need comfort...sufficient and consistent comfort. We feel lonely once we are having problems. The sense of helplessness may overwhelm us completely whenever we are getting into a big trouble. We need helps...
My friends...They are having relationship problem and most of the time they are emotionally unstable. One of them has been absent to school about 3 weeks after breaking with her bf. She seemingly likes to be isolated but in fact she searches for helps in secret all the time. Some of them are having disordered time management due to various distractions in their daily life. It often makes them struggling and suffering. Even those people who got 11 As in SPM admitted that they are not able to carry on the F6's life well alone. We are merely human with a vulnerable flesh. In order to gain power and strength, we need to undergo the tough trial together.
Besides that, I believe friends in other places may be having their tough moment. Wish you all the best my friends...Fight for your future...^^+U!!!
I have asked many classmates around about the change of their life after taking form 6. They all are really moody when talking about that. But I know that they need someone for them to express their dissatisfaction. It is actually good to see my friends changing their life for their future's sake. I believe that they will be blessed in future. In contrast, those stubborn people will deserve a tragedy at the end.
People need comfort...sufficient and consistent comfort. We feel lonely once we are having problems. The sense of helplessness may overwhelm us completely whenever we are getting into a big trouble. We need helps...
My friends...They are having relationship problem and most of the time they are emotionally unstable. One of them has been absent to school about 3 weeks after breaking with her bf. She seemingly likes to be isolated but in fact she searches for helps in secret all the time. Some of them are having disordered time management due to various distractions in their daily life. It often makes them struggling and suffering. Even those people who got 11 As in SPM admitted that they are not able to carry on the F6's life well alone. We are merely human with a vulnerable flesh. In order to gain power and strength, we need to undergo the tough trial together.
Besides that, I believe friends in other places may be having their tough moment. Wish you all the best my friends...Fight for your future...^^+U!!!
Friday, July 16, 2010
Thirst
We eat for satisfying our appetite and the stomach as well.
We drink because we are thirsty and we need something to satisfy the terrible thirst.
Now, we can find drinks of many kinds anywhere. This happens due to a variety of earthly demands.
However, you know our spirit will get thirsty, do you? What should be the thing needed to pour on it in order to solve the thirst?
Don't pour the wrong thing on it....otherwise you will get more thirsty than how you ever imagine.
We drink because we are thirsty and we need something to satisfy the terrible thirst.
Now, we can find drinks of many kinds anywhere. This happens due to a variety of earthly demands.
However, you know our spirit will get thirsty, do you? What should be the thing needed to pour on it in order to solve the thirst?
Don't pour the wrong thing on it....otherwise you will get more thirsty than how you ever imagine.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Your health
Today, I have watched "Eclipse" at Sunway Carnival GSC. I heard other people said that it will contain more fighting and action. I found no idea how fantastic they can fight in this romantic and unique love story. I left no expectation before I watched it.
There are many 'body contact' instead of 'beautiful physical motion'.Er em...What we should expect should be kissing, hugging and whispering in the movie.^^ Because it is 'Eclipse' ok?
There are many sentences of script which are very touching and romantic. However, some people may find them very ark...nauseating...=(
I find a sentence...The vampire, Edward told Bella while he found that Victoria was approaching her. He explained to her and said :" Your safety is everything to me."
Ya...here it is. I am going to say almost the same thing to my dad.But it has to be modified before I say.hehe...
My parents have told me that they will give me whatever I wish which is obtainable if I got a good STPM result.erm...Studying is just for my own....and it is my duty in fact..I don't really need any award or what...The result is the award for me.
If they really can fulfill whatever I wish, I wish they can be peaceful, healthy and joyful in future.
Dad...Your health is the thing I am regarding the most now. Be healthy and strong!
sorry...I can do nothing but to pray for you patiently and sincerely.sorry...
There are many 'body contact' instead of 'beautiful physical motion'.Er em...What we should expect should be kissing, hugging and whispering in the movie.^^ Because it is 'Eclipse' ok?
There are many sentences of script which are very touching and romantic. However, some people may find them very ark...nauseating...=(
I find a sentence...The vampire, Edward told Bella while he found that Victoria was approaching her. He explained to her and said :" Your safety is everything to me."
Ya...here it is. I am going to say almost the same thing to my dad.But it has to be modified before I say.hehe...
My parents have told me that they will give me whatever I wish which is obtainable if I got a good STPM result.erm...Studying is just for my own....and it is my duty in fact..I don't really need any award or what...The result is the award for me.
If they really can fulfill whatever I wish, I wish they can be peaceful, healthy and joyful in future.
Dad...Your health is the thing I am regarding the most now. Be healthy and strong!
sorry...I can do nothing but to pray for you patiently and sincerely.sorry...
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Are you feeling ashamed of me?
Having a good talk with a friend.He is my younger brother's friend actually. He asked me a very good question that I have to helplessly admit my failure."The relationship between you and your brother is bad, isn't it?". I replied, yes.
In the conversation, he told me my bro wanted to be different from me.
I have analyzed it before. I know there have been many people comparing me with him before. It should be very unsatisfactory and unfair to him. Since, his spirit to strive for victory is weak...he chose to be different from me so that other people are not able to compare him with me and he could give himself a seemingly acceptable excuse as well.Such a self-approving...
He himself got problem...I am just one of the factor I think...It is helpless for me to just look at him going down the dangerous hill.
My brother,
You have done what stupid things your second brother did. You made yourself a fashionable hair style and have bought yourself a huge lady bag. However, your elder brother has become more steady and honest. His hair style now is simple and good-looking. He is a real man now. Are you going to be like him in future also?
In the conversation, he told me my bro wanted to be different from me.
I have analyzed it before. I know there have been many people comparing me with him before. It should be very unsatisfactory and unfair to him. Since, his spirit to strive for victory is weak...he chose to be different from me so that other people are not able to compare him with me and he could give himself a seemingly acceptable excuse as well.Such a self-approving...
He himself got problem...I am just one of the factor I think...It is helpless for me to just look at him going down the dangerous hill.
My brother,
You have done what stupid things your second brother did. You made yourself a fashionable hair style and have bought yourself a huge lady bag. However, your elder brother has become more steady and honest. His hair style now is simple and good-looking. He is a real man now. Are you going to be like him in future also?
Friday, July 2, 2010
Melody in our life
We all are actually musicians! We have composed our own kind of melody in our life. And we have changed it several time before.^^
You may not understand what I said over here, so let me clear your doubts here.
Melody...There are many kinds of melody with different rhythms.
The melody in our life greatly represents the contain of our daily life.
In order to make the melody in our life be appreciated, it cannot be insipid but be unique and rhythmic. It cannot be too rhythmic otherwise it will be disordered and irritating. However, a melodious music without theme sounds meaningless.
Most of us haven't been a good musicians. For we haven't really knew how to compose a good melody we wish to have in our life. What kind of life you wanted to have? The thing you can do to get it is to change your melody in your life.and please...set a gorgeous theme for your melody...
You may not understand what I said over here, so let me clear your doubts here.
Melody...There are many kinds of melody with different rhythms.
The melody in our life greatly represents the contain of our daily life.
In order to make the melody in our life be appreciated, it cannot be insipid but be unique and rhythmic. It cannot be too rhythmic otherwise it will be disordered and irritating. However, a melodious music without theme sounds meaningless.
Most of us haven't been a good musicians. For we haven't really knew how to compose a good melody we wish to have in our life. What kind of life you wanted to have? The thing you can do to get it is to change your melody in your life.and please...set a gorgeous theme for your melody...
Thursday, June 24, 2010
I am angry!
I am here having my school day. As usual, the duty to bring our ass out of the bed and make our way to school before 725 am has to be fulfilled during weekdays. ^^ What a lame routine It should be? But I enjoy it seriously...^^ really..
I had the midyear test before the June Holidays...I was quite confident actually.. Cus I have prepared for that quite enough...hehe...
Well~Today, all the score of results have been known and I am very thankful of what I am having...^^For I know...I won't have such honor if I still live for me.
The higher score of academic subjects,the more honor to the students now. It proves how intellegrent and brilliant they are. However, somehow they will never feel satisfied of that for they keep comparing with one anothers.
Now what? There has been a long time I didnt get agitated by anyone or anything. I am kind as how people around me know that. But somehow I find my kindness is just a weakness.
I was having my lesson in my school as usual. During chemistry lesson, I noticed my friend hasn't made his homework done. I just teased the guy by saying something about his uncompleted work. At the moment,I joked, there was another guy interrupting the conversation. That was very offensive...
I have totally no idea of why he could say such offensive words to me. It is not hurt...but agitative enough!! He said :" shut up la you~! What for you did a lot of homeworks? You are still losing us!" I was like what?! After that, I immediately
turned my face greenish black..Meanwhile, all the students turn their face to me and wonder what response I would give.Silent~~I just kept silent and added a joke to end the conversation.
At that time, my mind was blank but filled by those offensive words he has uttered in front of me. Bullshit!! I was regret of having my kindness! Should I just stand up and scream aloud in front of him? Should I just ...I have no idea of what BIG and drastic reaction an angry people would take an that situation.haha...so ...sad...==
Just very angry...very very ANGRY! If I didn't keep the case in mind, I think I will be alright. But once, it appears in my little mind, It will be a boom...an atom boom...a nuclear boom also!!!
well~ However, I find no regret on my cool reaction.I didn't make any conflict happen..I am not going to show him how strong and intellegent I am. I am going to show him that the humility will raise a person up to a climax. God will bless those who is humble and hard-working not those who is boasful and prideful. Wait and see, man.
I had the midyear test before the June Holidays...I was quite confident actually.. Cus I have prepared for that quite enough...hehe...
Well~Today, all the score of results have been known and I am very thankful of what I am having...^^For I know...I won't have such honor if I still live for me.
The higher score of academic subjects,the more honor to the students now. It proves how intellegrent and brilliant they are. However, somehow they will never feel satisfied of that for they keep comparing with one anothers.
Now what? There has been a long time I didnt get agitated by anyone or anything. I am kind as how people around me know that. But somehow I find my kindness is just a weakness.
I was having my lesson in my school as usual. During chemistry lesson, I noticed my friend hasn't made his homework done. I just teased the guy by saying something about his uncompleted work. At the moment,I joked, there was another guy interrupting the conversation. That was very offensive...
I have totally no idea of why he could say such offensive words to me. It is not hurt...but agitative enough!! He said :" shut up la you~! What for you did a lot of homeworks? You are still losing us!" I was like what?! After that, I immediately
turned my face greenish black..Meanwhile, all the students turn their face to me and wonder what response I would give.Silent~~I just kept silent and added a joke to end the conversation.
At that time, my mind was blank but filled by those offensive words he has uttered in front of me. Bullshit!! I was regret of having my kindness! Should I just stand up and scream aloud in front of him? Should I just ...I have no idea of what BIG and drastic reaction an angry people would take an that situation.haha...so ...sad...==
Just very angry...very very ANGRY! If I didn't keep the case in mind, I think I will be alright. But once, it appears in my little mind, It will be a boom...an atom boom...a nuclear boom also!!!
well~ However, I find no regret on my cool reaction.I didn't make any conflict happen..I am not going to show him how strong and intellegent I am. I am going to show him that the humility will raise a person up to a climax. God will bless those who is humble and hard-working not those who is boasful and prideful. Wait and see, man.
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