Will be blessed.

Few days ago, I have watched GoodTV which has successfully inspired several times when I was in bad mood.

A sermon given.
A story was given to show how God bless people.
Spider is a good and smart hunter among the series of insect.
Its web is sticky and acts as an useful weapon for spider to hunt.
I have seen a scorpion being hunted by a spider in National Geography. 1st, scorpion unwittingly got stuck in the sticky web. It tried to get away of the web but finally it's whole body got wrapped up. The spider got itself slowly closer to the scorpion and injected poison in the scorpion's body.(to paralyze the scorpion) After several minutes, spider only got extra closer to the scorpion and brought it into spider's hole.

A question given. Why doesn't the spider get stuck by its own web?
This is because the feet of sniper produce oil which helps it to walk on the web without being stuck.
God bless this spider by giving it the ability to produce oil.

God bless everything in the world. He love His creation especially human.
I will be blessed. I believe! Hallelujah!

please help, Lord!

Thank God...
I was not in high pressure while I was studying Form6. I quite enjoyed the life in HSBM.
Thank God again...I am in high pressure in my family.I have encountered a lot of problems.

1st.
I am having bad relationship with my younger brother.
This caused several serious conflicts happening in a few weeks ago. As a result, I got into a big trouble. I am being regarded like a spark which can cause a huge fire in my family. It's like a bullshit. However, I have admitted my fault of all these stuffs. I am trying my best to endure all the nonsense made by my brother in my family. It's torturing.

2nd
My parents are having communication problems. My dad, a bad-tempered man who is used to command makes my mum, a submissive woman suffering. She gets weaker and weaker everyday due to all the housework and tuition. I am trying my best to reduce her physical burdens by helping her doing some housework. However, she gets tired and upset always because of my dad's bad attitude. This is one of the things that makes me feel very helpless. I wonder if I can do anything to change the situation.

3rd
I have been told about my family's financial condition.
I need to get mature and sensible and figure out what I should do while my younger brother still enjoys his life with his gf now. this is also the problem that I can only endure and take it easy.

I feel in pressure seriously...
please help, Lord.

感恩

过了很长的一段日子，我现在才终于打开这个blogger，更新更新。
由于小弟的英文不是很好，所以我想尽量用我熟悉的语言-华语来表达我这感恩的心情。
神，我很感恩。

对于那些认识我近况的朋友，我相信你们都挺了解我走过了的路。
无论如何，我想跟大家分享。分享那奇妙的恩典。

我原是一个没有责任感的男孩，我有着可爱的天真和可怜的无知。在中学，学业与家人好像没在我心里占不到50%的位置。（我相信很多少年人都是这样，我只是其中一个=P）
一直以来都没有方向，很多时后我问自己到底为什么会在这边。
缺乏成就感的我，在球场上建立自信心，在童军活动培养傲气。缺乏爱的我，到处寻人欢欣，寻人的认同。这种少年普通得不得了。
在寻求爱的路途中，我遇到了许许多多的问题，做了很多鸟事情，带给朋友很多粪问题。
那时的我很低落，很不自由。不自由可能是因为大头里面有很多的歪理，背上有很多负担。
东西就一直这样不停地循环发生。
过不久，我对这些事觉得累了。于是，转移方向去依靠神。依靠一个我只认识不久的神。从那时候开始，一切奇妙的变化开始了。

在F5的最后黄金时期，我善用时间，夺取我最满意的成绩。当了一整子的兵，认识各样的人，让我在心灵上何思想上成长了不少。之后，我自己不知不觉找到了方向，得到了引领，就企图想读KDU。虽然如此，那时的环境非常不鼓励我在那儿求学。
过后奇妙的得知有HSBM的存在，就毫不犹豫的转到哪儿上学。那时，我住宿在我的亲戚家。那儿有特别的优待。那就是免费的午餐和晚餐。（因为亲戚是开经济饭店的。）因此，我的生活费就这样减少很多。
哈哈！其实我在几天以内做了转校的决定。虽然那时我不知道前面会有什么问题在等着我去面对，但是我有那种莫名其妙的感觉说：别怕，不会有事的。那种莫名其妙的平安说服我就这样懵懵懂懂地转校，换了环境。过后我才察觉，我的路...就像是被铺平了似的，像是被策划一样，顺利得不像话。我那时候非常感恩，非常感动。神竟然为我这么普通，又败类的黄麒俊安排好去路，照亮了整片路。

在亲戚家呆足了十个月，我就因为某些缘故从亲戚家搬了出来自己住。于是，搬到了朋友家附近的一间房子住宿。感谢神，我受到朋友家人的帮助和恩惠，让我的生活变得比较轻松，比较快乐。他们的存在也让我的生活不会变的很乏味，反而非常非常的精彩。^^在途中，我父亲得了大病。让我非常的担忧和烦恼。由于我不是医生，唯有祷告祈求才能让我觉得没那么无助与不安。感谢神，在医学上来看，我爸的病情还在控制下。^^相信很快就会好起来。

我对我现在所拥有的一切，对神献上无法形容的感谢。以前的我根本没想到会有这样的一天，没想到我会变成这样的一个‘麒哥’^^。感恩，愿你继续赐福！=D

Don't you give up now.

Now, I am very confused.I'm confused of what perspective I should look my life in?
optimistic or pessimistic?
I don't have the idea of why we prefer to be sentimental and hopeless. Like to set ourselves in an "emo" status. However, I definitely find it uncomfortable and harmful to ourselves. Telling myself try not to be EMO but to cheer and be joyful in any situation. Thank God. He has changed me successfully. I find life joyful, peaceful and hopeful though I have encountered a lot of unpleasant problems recently.
I have searched a song 'What faith can do'. It actually inspires me more than I can imagine. It is like saying about the feeling of the helpless&hopeless people today. I am one of them of course.
I believe that we can get the helping hands to rise ourselves if we ask for it.
I believe that we can find the way of hope to go on our tough journey if we seek for it.
I believe our sincere prayers will be heard and answered even praying seems ridiculous and foolish to others.
I believe the broken heart can be renewed if we are willing to unlock the door in our heart and ask for the comfort from our Lord.
I believe our spirit will be purified if we repent and ask for the excuse from God.
So? There is nothing I should have to be afraid of for nothing can separate me from Him.

Let's keep believing and don't ever say "GIVE OFF"!

What faith can do

It's a nice song with an inspiring lyrics.Have a look.

What Faith Can Do Lyrics

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you're stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

sigh

Unwittingly, blogging becomes one of my habits. I think that should be a healthy one.
Thank God that I have been transformed greatly into another kind of guy. I am blessed enough for having such an amazing change in my life. Recalling the moment I was in my secondary school's life, I am seriously shocked of God's miracle. Thank God!

Few weeks ago, my class has been the most cheerful, noisy and clever among the Form 6 classes. I am quite proud of being one of them. Yet, some of them become so ....I don't know how to describe.They take the result too seriously. They all the time get themselves busy of doing homework and exercise. They prefer to be isolated instead of getting into laughter. They look ugly and unpleasant.And they even like to skip their meal during recess time for having more time to do what they wish to do. Well..It is not my business. But somehow I feel very uncomfortable and unhappy because of them. Perhaps, I feel sick of that. Maybe, I refuse to accept the change and start to put the blame on them. However, I know it is totally not good to have such negative thinking.
Now, they merely care about the paper- back and white result paper! Relationship. Behavior. Memory. Entertainment. They never care! What the hell! Is the paper so important? More important than your joy, peace, health and soul?! I have no idea on that.
I have a lot to comment but I have no right to comment so much on that. I wish to help them by setting them free from bondage. Now I only can keep quiet...sigh....Wait for the good change patiently...

update

Sorry for my inactivity on Blogger, I haven't tried my best to share what is happening in my life recently.
I terribly met an accident. I found it terrible to happen. It was not my fault totally, but I know it was my bad luck to fill the fuel tank with merely RM10 of fuel in Desa Damai Petronus. There was a old lady driving and she was the one who foolishly brought her light green Kancil to butt the bottom of my Wira. At the same time, I was witnessing throughout the action.Walao~ If I were superman...I would like to stop all the messy things.
I was shocked after the crash, but I got seriously stunned and speechless after the second crash. She reversed her car rapidly and banged a brand-new motorcycle behind her. She just stopped driving after the second crash. Bullshit...==
The scene which I don't know how to describe is still revolving in my memory. It is my first. Thank God. I was the victim not the factor of this accident.
After the mess, I had waited for one and a half hour for the coming of the cops. By the way, the old woman asked me to bring to her house for taking her IC. On the way, she kept on chattering until I got irritated and impatient. Hu~ Since, she is alone and pitiful, I chose to be sympathetic instead of bitter. She made me realizing that loneliness is more torturing than how I have ever expected. She has no one to rely besides herself. I find no point to be bitter. Instead, I have to be thankful and grateful of the people I have around me.
Thank God. After that, the low-class cops came followed by the important traffic cops. They captured several photos for proofs and asked me to state all the process thoroughly. Hu~After that, I had to make a report in BM Balai Polis. Wa~I hate the traffic jam in BM the most. It is a waste of time! It took about half of my day to settle all the stuff. Honestly, I have learned a lot of things during the lesson.Thank God....^^I should face it with gratitude.^^ That's all my update.

Need helps

Everyone needs compassion,
Love that's never failing;
Let mercy fall on me.

Everyone needs forgiveness,
The kindness of a Saviour;
The Hope of nations.

Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.

Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again.

I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.

My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

Shine your light and let the whole world see,
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus (x2)

Christian lyrics - MIGHTY TO SAVE LYRICS - HILLSONG AUSTRALIA

It's one of the songs that has inspired me well.)
It is true...Everyone need compassion and love that is never failing.
We are vulnerable and weak. We can't do anything on something that you can never help.
We have a lot of burdens to bear in daily life. No one can get rid of all the responsibilities in this world. Unwittingly, we may be pressed, emotional and consequently depressed and even hopeless.
Why? Because we find that only we ourselves are having problems in this world. Why again? It is because everybody is not willing to reveal their own negative feelings in front of other persons. We hide them all the time and gather them together without awareness. It becomes BURDEN at the end.
More considerate and caring friends and mates we have in our live can make our life easy.^^ BURDEN is an invisible and spiritual load that we always bear. It gets more serious as life goes on. It is actually more heavy than we can withstand indeed. Can you imagine how terrible a person bearing heavy bag at all time and in all places? It is dreadfully torturing.You can't throw it! Because the only way to get rid of it is to stop the beating of your heart-die. We have to bear it!
How can we bear it?
Guys...
We need more hands to minimize burden.
A hand that pats our back when we are crying.
We need a pair of ears to minimize burden.
A pair of ears that listens to our pitiful scream.
We need comfort that can never be self-produced.
As we gather and inspire each other, the physical and spiritual strength will gain stronger!
It provides me a relation.
[The physical and spiritual strength is directly proportional to the number of considerate friends you have around you]
Keep it in mind. Whenever you are worrying and agitated, find someone to express what you feel. It will amazingly lighten your burden. +U!

Spot Check year 2

I have post a blog about spot check last year. Today, we have one spot check also.
By the way, I would like to share what happened on Wednesday.
In HSBM we have Perhimpunan every Wednesday and most of the Wednesday prefects take chances to check students' hair and fingernails.
One of my friends had been caught to a corner waiting for discipline teacher to cut his hair. After awhile, he escaped from being caught by saying that he wanted to go to washroom. However his name had been recorded down, he was called by discipline teacher. Once he came in class, his hair had been partially cut.==pity nia...
Today, prefects entered our class and had a spot check and body check. He kena again!
His hair kena cut again!His face immediately turned green.==
Last year, his hand phone had been confiscated. Now, hair being cut.hu~will be seriously agitated. Hope that he is alright now..

Update

Wow~The form 6 monthly exam in HSBM has been over.haha...It doesn't make me feel really relieved. Perhaps I have been already got used of it. Once I got the paper, I just figured out the answers and filled the questions up as soon as possible. We will be nervous during examination but I told myself that it is totally useless for me to panic at that important moment. I must finish it without fears and hesitations. Thank God....I don't have bad feeling after the exam even after the announcement of the results.^^
I have asked many classmates around about the change of their life after taking form 6. They all are really moody when talking about that. But I know that they need someone for them to express their dissatisfaction. It is actually good to see my friends changing their life for their future's sake. I believe that they will be blessed in future. In contrast, those stubborn people will deserve a tragedy at the end.
People need comfort...sufficient and consistent comfort. We feel lonely once we are having problems. The sense of helplessness may overwhelm us completely whenever we are getting into a big trouble. We need helps...
My friends...They are having relationship problem and most of the time they are emotionally unstable. One of them has been absent to school about 3 weeks after breaking with her bf. She seemingly likes to be isolated but in fact she searches for helps in secret all the time. Some of them are having disordered time management due to various distractions in their daily life. It often makes them struggling and suffering. Even those people who got 11 As in SPM admitted that they are not able to carry on the F6's life well alone. We are merely human with a vulnerable flesh. In order to gain power and strength, we need to undergo the tough trial together.
Besides that, I believe friends in other places may be having their tough moment. Wish you all the best my friends...Fight for your future...^^+U!!!

Thirst

We eat for satisfying our appetite and the stomach as well.
We drink because we are thirsty and we need something to satisfy the terrible thirst.
Now, we can find drinks of many kinds anywhere. This happens due to a variety of earthly demands.
However, you know our spirit will get thirsty, do you? What should be the thing needed to pour on it in order to solve the thirst?
Don't pour the wrong thing on it....otherwise you will get more thirsty than how you ever imagine.

Your health

Today, I have watched "Eclipse" at Sunway Carnival GSC. I heard other people said that it will contain more fighting and action. I found no idea how fantastic they can fight in this romantic and unique love story. I left no expectation before I watched it.
There are many 'body contact' instead of 'beautiful physical motion'.Er em...What we should expect should be kissing, hugging and whispering in the movie.^^ Because it is 'Eclipse' ok?
There are many sentences of script which are very touching and romantic. However, some people may find them very ark...nauseating...=(
I find a sentence...The vampire, Edward told Bella while he found that Victoria was approaching her. He explained to her and said :" Your safety is everything to me."
Ya...here it is. I am going to say almost the same thing to my dad.But it has to be modified before I say.hehe...
My parents have told me that they will give me whatever I wish which is obtainable if I got a good STPM result.erm...Studying is just for my own....and it is my duty in fact..I don't really need any award or what...The result is the award for me.
If they really can fulfill whatever I wish, I wish they can be peaceful, healthy and joyful in future.
Dad...Your health is the thing I am regarding the most now. Be healthy and strong!
sorry...I can do nothing but to pray for you patiently and sincerely.sorry...

Are you feeling ashamed of me?

Having a good talk with a friend.He is my younger brother's friend actually. He asked me a very good question that I have to helplessly admit my failure."The relationship between you and your brother is bad, isn't it?". I replied, yes.
In the conversation, he told me my bro wanted to be different from me.
I have analyzed it before. I know there have been many people comparing me with him before. It should be very unsatisfactory and unfair to him. Since, his spirit to strive for victory is weak...he chose to be different from me so that other people are not able to compare him with me and he could give himself a seemingly acceptable excuse as well.Such a self-approving...
He himself got problem...I am just one of the factor I think...It is helpless for me to just look at him going down the dangerous hill.
My brother,
You have done what stupid things your second brother did. You made yourself a fashionable hair style and have bought yourself a huge lady bag. However, your elder brother has become more steady and honest. His hair style now is simple and good-looking. He is a real man now. Are you going to be like him in future also?

Melody in our life

We all are actually musicians! We have composed our own kind of melody in our life. And we have changed it several time before.^^
You may not understand what I said over here, so let me clear your doubts here.
Melody...There are many kinds of melody with different rhythms.
The melody in our life greatly represents the contain of our daily life.
In order to make the melody in our life be appreciated, it cannot be insipid but be unique and rhythmic. It cannot be too rhythmic otherwise it will be disordered and irritating. However, a melodious music without theme sounds meaningless.
Most of us haven't been a good musicians. For we haven't really knew how to compose a good melody we wish to have in our life. What kind of life you wanted to have? The thing you can do to get it is to change your melody in your life.and please...set a gorgeous theme for your melody...

I am angry!

I am here having my school day. As usual, the duty to bring our ass out of the bed and make our way to school before 725 am has to be fulfilled during weekdays. ^^ What a lame routine It should be? But I enjoy it seriously...^^ really..
I had the midyear test before the June Holidays...I was quite confident actually.. Cus I have prepared for that quite enough...hehe...
Well~Today, all the score of results have been known and I am very thankful of what I am having...^^For I know...I won't have such honor if I still live for me.
The higher score of academic subjects,the more honor to the students now. It proves how intellegrent and brilliant they are. However, somehow they will never feel satisfied of that for they keep comparing with one anothers.
Now what? There has been a long time I didnt get agitated by anyone or anything. I am kind as how people around me know that. But somehow I find my kindness is just a weakness.
I was having my lesson in my school as usual. During chemistry lesson, I noticed my friend hasn't made his homework done. I just teased the guy by saying something about his uncompleted work. At the moment,I joked, there was another guy interrupting the conversation. That was very offensive...
I have totally no idea of why he could say such offensive words to me. It is not hurt...but agitative enough!! He said :" shut up la you~! What for you did a lot of homeworks? You are still losing us!" I was like what?! After that, I immediately
turned my face greenish black..Meanwhile, all the students turn their face to me and wonder what response I would give.Silent~~I just kept silent and added a joke to end the conversation.
At that time, my mind was blank but filled by those offensive words he has uttered in front of me. Bullshit!! I was regret of having my kindness! Should I just stand up and scream aloud in front of him? Should I just ...I have no idea of what BIG and drastic reaction an angry people would take an that situation.haha...so ...sad...==
Just very angry...very very ANGRY! If I didn't keep the case in mind, I think I will be alright. But once, it appears in my little mind, It will be a boom...an atom boom...a nuclear boom also!!!
well~ However, I find no regret on my cool reaction.I didn't make any conflict happen..I am not going to show him how strong and intellegent I am. I am going to show him that the humility will raise a person up to a climax. God will bless those who is humble and hard-working not those who is boasful and prideful. Wait and see, man.

What is playing the role?

There are four main nouns that we usually use to describe directions. They are south, east west and north. However, the people on the earth are generally separated into two groups, that are western and eastern. The people live in east and west are almost different. They have different life style, culture, belief,color of skin and eyes, thought, history and on and on. However, they are human.
So far, eastern people is trying to be western people. They listen to English song of many kinds. It is not wrong to listen to the English songs but they just imitate what western people used to do foolishly with no reason. I wonder why.
lets' talk about song^^
Normally, we find pop, hip hop, R&B song interesting. Those styles of song are mostly from west. The agitating bass produced by the rhythmic drumbeat is background music of the western song that attract us the most. We will be steamed up if we listen to a song with such agitating background music. Even though the lyrics there have no meaning, the music will still play the role.^^ We may like the music but not the song. Since, we like them ,so we search for them. That is why I find many friends started listening to the western songs..I mean English songs.
One fine day, my friend and I were going to a place by my car. We listen to radio and a song was playing. My friend said that the music is good, but the lyric doesn't bring any meaning to him. He was not even satisfied about the singing skill of the singer. However, the song is the famous song recently. What is playing the role? The music or the song? It shows that most people don't really care about the contain but the atmosphere the music could bring to them.
I like the song 甜蜜蜜 by 邓丽君. simple but meaningful...LOL!who appreciate the song as well?

So Lucky....==

haha! I don't want to laugh actually..But I just want...tease myself as much as possible. It is just fuuny...haha!Guess what?
Have you ever seen a guy encountering an accident just 1 minute after?
I have just encountered a terrible accident.=)
Since my brother now is having problem...at the same time, my mother is worrying.As a son, I would like to accompany her doing something so that she can just put the problem aside for awhile. I asked my mom swimming with me this evening.
It seems like a wonderful moment for us to swim in this...how to describe the weather...haha...a nice evening...
My mom and I reached the pool (in a taman around Pai Teik School).
We entered and put the thing aside. Before swimming, it is advisable to warm up our body so that our tendon will be flexible. After finishing the warming up, I went to bath and wash my body. Afterward, something terrible is going to arise. I was very eager to get myself into the pool. haha! I walked toward the pool by making several big paces. There are several iron branches on the ground. It is to let people open the huge brick by holding the iron branches. Within the paces, my right feet was swum and side-way struck on a iron branch which is not covered by soft rubber. Since the flesh is vulnerable, the iron penetrate. It caused an injury.
It seems like a little bit complicated...
let me summarize! I have just got injured! BULLSHIT!!!!!! DAMN!!!!!
I don't want to continue saying the matter...I find it terrible! oh...meanwhile, I am speechless...totally speechless... Now just setting in the room...with a wrapped-up right leg....EMO MAX=(

The sea~

I am here-Nibong Tebal,officially having my 2 weeks holidays.

I am very upset to know that the streamyx network supply has been cancelled.Since my stupid brother applied a new package which is just available for university students, the network supply will be cancelled for a while…erm a week (DAMN LAME!!!!)

Having fun in Penang Island before coming back to my hometown.hehe…It is fair enough cus I have been nerdy for a long time…It is time to play around and relax…^^

Just came back from island, entering the smelly hall of my house…
My mom stopped my pace and started to talk with me…(time to gossip…)There are several things happened recently….walao eh!BGR problems...

The youngest and eldest among my brothers are having problems in their relationship.==I don’t care what the ending will be…I just concern about my parents’ feeling. My dear parents have been emotionally influenced. Haiz~ It is just torturing for them to see their sons suffering in relationship. I was told that both of them cream aloud during night…== Is it worthwhile for them to do so?

The case about my youngest one is not worth to be mentioned. Such a waste of time….=P I might be teasing while I am talking about that..haha! He will be alright soon by getting another one after this pair is broken. ^^

The case for the eldest one is just a little bit serious.==
My father has advised my brother getting ready to look for a new one.^^ For he thinks that the same problem will happen in future as long as the girl’s nature still remains. What is the problem? There is a third person interrupting their relationship.

Well~ If I am not mistaken, elder pair has been together for almost five years. How could it last so long? And why would such problem arise? Theoretically, they are considered as a stable pair which is supposed to…erm….get married soon. ^^ ya…supposed..keke… It is shocking for such problem arising. Nobody has ever expected. ==

Many people could make their journal further and even more brilliant if they can make a change whenever a chance is given. But most of them could not make it, because they have sacrificed the chances to get what they should not get early. ^^ they spend their time to keep something which is temporary. Meanwhile, the chance is being sacrificed.

My parents and I are all outsiders. We can never interrupt and do anything for helping that.
On the way going to Sunway Carnival today, they have told me a lot. My father suggested me to seek for a girl who is polite. =D I ask: Like mummy? He laughed. =)

Brothers… A lot of girls appreciate such a man like you…always remember there are plenty of fishes in the sea. ^^ the sea~~~~~~

No need to be like that~

I am having my mid-year exam. Teacher said this should be a test which is able to see whether we can score well in STPM or not. The words tense most of the PAB students up. I can feel that.
Since the syllabuses are terribly wide,it seems like an impossible mission to score very very well in this mid-year exam. There have been many students falling into depression and despair since they have started the journey of STPM. During such trial of frustration, what is the thing or attitude we should lean on to complete the journey with joy and peace? Some of them choose to lean on their own determination...some just give up every thing...some of them just don't even take it as a big deal.
Trial is like a chance for me to glorify the name of God.so? Do we have to merely depend on our own ability and effort to score well during exam?Take other people as your target to chase after in term of academia?honor him with our effort?
All the time hiding yourself from the society, making sure that nobody is going to disturb you?
All the time look at the book without making any joke with friends during class?
Asking your friends whether they have started preparing for the exam?(so that you will find it more comfortable when they said they haven't?or more competitive when they said they have well prepared.)
Looking around your friends studying?to see what they are studying and see whether you have read through it or not?
All the ways above are not healthy...and will never give glory to the Lord.
I think the only way to gloryify God's name is to putting down all our pride...purely follow him with the humble spirit to the kingdom of God.
He love us so much...hope us to Just lay all the thing to him...leave no worries in our life...
It is not easy to do what I have uttered.I find it very hard to do so, since the surrounding people and the peer pressure will unwittingly keep you from doing that. You may get involved into this academical battle without any sense of awareness.
I feel very lost among them...

calming down myself in my silent room...
persuading myself with the words of bible..
figuring out the truth...
knowing that peace and joy....
is the precious jewel that God long to give us...
Jumping out of the box and seek for them!
Thank God....thank you...

Happy Mother's Day

Wish all the mothers having good health and a peaceful life.
Happy Mother's Day...^^

I noticed one of my friends was worried of figuring out a gift for her mother recently.
She asked me what I am going to present to my mother in this week.erm...That is a good question which I don't ever bother.I was speechless that time.
Last night, I made a call to my eldest brother and discussed with him about the celebration.
Finally, we decided to buy a cake for our last-minute planning.
I found myself very thoughtless and I wonder how my friend could be that worried of the gift.
I thought maybe it is due to the fact that I am a guy...But that never be a reasonable factor.
Over here, there is a question. How can we express our love to someone we really love? By giving a valuable present or just a kiss?
Gift somehow is necessary for us to built up a good relationship with our parents, relatives, friends and even life partner.
However, love them with our sincere heart....with no purpose...
I love you...Mum...^^since you love me 1st...

Time to wake up....

Time to wake up..is the time to get conscious and ready to continue the boring routine in our life.
ya.The routine will be boring and not interesting anymore if you keep on doing something almost the same. Sometime, we choose to take something or someone to be our reason for living. Maybe you regard that as a hope in your life, the source. It is sad to say that you deserve depression in the end when the thing you look for no longer exists. However, you should make up your mind when you are getting into such problem. Figure out what is the reason to live, to keep on breathing.^^There is a tip here.
A film here. CITY OF ANGLE
The actor inside is Nicolas Cage, a well-known actor.^^
He acts as an angle-a Messenger of God.
.In the beginning, he found living is such a wonderful thing in the world. Human can eat and feel the taste of the food using tongue. The most special and precious thing is....LOVE. They can love each other and the feeling of being loved and loving is really indescribable. He longs to experience such wonderful feeling. After that, he fell in love with a beautiful woman. Since his willingness to live with her was very strong. he finally decided to become a human.
At the end, the girl he loves was dead. It made him got extremely depressed and regretful of his decision. He rather not to smell her fair...not to touch her face...but....the sense of depression is just intense. After that, he is like having no hope of living. However, after awhile, he noticed that there are thousand of things he can cherish....can give thanks to the God.
What a good ending to encourage us...It is inspiring...^^
There are many educational messages could be brought in the story if you watch the film seriously.

Home

At home,
you would feel comfortable at every single corner of it.
You would have either a cup of tea or milo that is prepared by a woman.
You would be forced to have your meal though you don't really feel like to eat.
You would appreciate the meal and wonder how difficult and long it is for her to prepare.
You would read your own news paper and chill out at the hall as if you have nothing to bother with.
You would also have no tendency to hide yourself from anyone at home. .
You would feel like to go home when you are away.
You would be pleasant to be there...^^

unforgetable memories

Someone is leaving.For his future and studies...
The message to invite him playing basketball is no longer necessary to be sent.
Meanwhile, I realized that there have been so many friends whom don't really contact with me as if they have left away from me so long.^^But they are not really too far from me...Maybe we are in the same country, hometown and even garden.But somehow I feel that they have left me away for a long while.
I wish them all the best over here. Hope that I will be the one they occasionally miss.
Of course, they are leaving...But something has been conserved-they are unforgetable memories.^^

The court

The court of basketball-the place where we used to have fun with friends.
In order to keep myself healthy, exercise is required of course.
I find it interesting playing basketball...I have learnt alot of things from that.
Exercise makes people get more emotionally stable and conscious. That is what we need. Anyhow, people nowadays underestimate it.
One day, I lost a game and were forced to set aside cooling down the temperature of my big ass.
There was a man setting beside me. To be sociable, I took initiative and started our conversation. A simple question, I asked. How come the court look so empty? No people meh?
He answered, oh...they all are working.haha...
I see...haha!What? I thought we-the youth should be the one who have the responsibility to fill up the basketball court instead of the Court of Law.==
It is sad to say that...but truly I can give nothing to deny my own statement.
Boys!Where are you all?Stop flirting with girls or playing with the stupid and lifeless computer! Come on! Get rid of the manacles of BGR and the chains of vanity!Get in the court of BOYS!!^^This should be the real and healthy way to spend the autumn of youth.
I am looking for the day's coming, the day that the court-land of boys would be filled with cheerful laughter and the healthy sweat greatly wet the ground.^^

say Hi or Bye

say 'Hi' or 'Bye'? Which one I prefer. None of them.
Why? Normally people may prefer to say 'Hi' rather than 'Bye'.
Saying 'Hi' represents a beginning, while saying 'Bye' represent an end. Is it?
However, 'Hi' and 'Bye' both are one. Without 'hi', saying 'bye' will no longer has its own meaning and vice versa. ^^
Having no sorrow to say 'Bye'. Instead, having hope to long for the moment for us to say 'Hi'.^^

Sad case

Straight to the point
This essay has no offense to any people and anything.
I am merely willing to share.
I have an aunt who has got married many years. She has a good-looking, smart, tolerant and hardworking husband. Both of them have 3 healthy children who are in primary school. Theoretically, they both should be quite a happy family.^^
She has been supported to learn English and become a promoter something like that. It should be a very nice plan. That is why our big family has no comment on it.
Well~Online learning is such an effective way to learn English. I am now also learning English in fact. Likewise, we have no comment about how she learns.
However, she knew a guy, a man from the internet. She encountered him occasionally or deliberately? I have no idea.==
And somehow she is just falling love with the man that she has never seen before.
She merely knew that the man is a professor and staying at a foreign country around Australia.In their conversation, the man promised that he will give her a brand-new well-being.
Damn Shit!How could the promise be real? He can give nothing to prove the reality of the promise. Somehow, she believed...She is now still believing....
Many doubts appear.
Has she looked for a brand-new marriage for a long time? and WHY?
What is the thing that is truly unsatisfactory in her life?
Is the husband a gamble who sells all the property to pawnshop?
Is their children all handicapped and bad-looking?
I don't think so.
The man will just flirt with her and regard it as an entertainment. An entertainment with no commitment. He will just tease her in front of the computer while he is writing something romantic and tempting. He will never take any real action to make her stupid dream come true.
Her willingness of having illusive extramartial relation has been announced and discovered.==
Now, she is not staying with her husband. She seems to have no regret of making such decision even though all the members are counseling her. How could it be like that? It is seriously disappointing. God bless and forgive them...
In this case, I realized people would do something extremely terrible when their eagerness overwhelms their rationality.
My dear friends...Don't get desperate of something. You will definitely regret at last.

Vanity

Date: 15-3-2010
Time: 2:09 p.m.
Moment: When I am supposed to work in my dad's company
Mode: ponteng kerja

I know I am just a wretch who finds working in company is terribly boring. Just sorry for being such a wretch.==
Before several years, our big family's company had no much business customers. That time, my parents and relatives were worried about the business. The problem always made them to knit their own brows throughout the years.
Now, they have already made the business stable and besides there are several permanent customers dealing with them. The demand of high quantity becomes the problem. The demand is now high, however the workers are not that sufficient and efficient.==Now, they are still worrying.
How come...? Vanity of vanity.
Last night, my dad took initiative to ask me working during this holidays. That was 1st time he asked me to help. I couldn't imagine how serious the problem is.
Sad for having a terribly tiring match last night. It made me suffer and physically exhausted. Now resting...==

Lame ma!

Since the MUET is coming soon, I suggested a plan of having speaking practice after school in library.. There are several friends who can stay back after school would be invited to carry out the plan with me. I am quite glad of having 5ppl in a speaking practice, it is quite a big number to a normal and formal speaking. Perhaps it seems a little bit informal, but I strongly believe that we started to get the function.
Well~The purpose of having this kind of practice is to make us more comfortable and confident when we speak in English. Overcome the fear and raise the maturity. I like the plan^^
Yesterday, I were having speaking practice with my friends. We had finished talking about the topic after that we seemed to be unsatisfied. Finally, I still kept chatting about other informal topic, what title that made them excited was about "my ass".==
I am actually quite down and unhappy of being commented in that embarrassed way. How could the ass became the topic of speaking? I tried to change the topic by suggesting a new topic, but I failed. At last, we talked about that for 30minutes. Lame ma....It was just embarrassed.
This morning I was quite late to be in school. I packed my car and after that went into the school with a girl.^^ It was just wonderful morning for me to have a walk with an opposite sex no matter who it is ,I would also appreciate well. The rising sun and the Bukit at one created an aura of hope and romance. The steadfast and honest mountain with the back ground of golden sun makes people to get hopeful for the whole day.
However, a long and tiring way between the gate and my class upset those students who enter by feet instead of bike.==
Once I entered my classroom, I was so shocked that my friends all became extremely friendly. they greeted me with powerful voice and somehow they were like observing my body. What was going on, I wondered. It made me totally uncomfortable.
After a while, I just stood outside the class and intended to interrupt their conversation. They turned to me and started laughing and called me :"hey! Ka Cheng Kia!". At that moment, I just noticed that they were staring at my ass.Speechless=='''

A time for sentimentality, a time for motivation.

Ecclesiastes 3: 1. To every [thing there is] a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: 4. A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance
Aaaahhh!!I have just come back from Penang Island..An education fair...I was the driver who drive throughout the way and thats why I feel mentally exhausted. People say that the silent time and lonely period are actually good for Devil.Who knows? I drove silently and kept thinking so much things. Thinking is just good but worrying is just unnecessary at all. Erm..I am actually having no idea of why I behaved in that unusual way.^^
I believe that Jerry Ng would reject the invitation to Education fair without hesitation.^^Because that time he was really naive enough. But this time I talked with me and argued. finally I have made a sensible response to my friend.
The mood I had was actually not that good...ya...I chose to be like that. I still can't forgive myself about the last exam result. It was just merely caused by the unforgivable pride. I thank god for giving me such a nice and wonderful place to pursue my studies cheerfully. I got the grace! The amazing grace... I really appreciate.. But people used to forget and take it for granted. I am the one.
Through this exam, I just know that it is just a beginning. I thought that the Devil is allowed to attack my confidence. But my view is totally wrong. I just unconsciously stand with the evil one and feel prideful as what they always do in anywhere.
Go back to the education fair.There are many colleges and U which offer a variety of courses. the main things we pay attention on are the fees, the location and the entry requirement. The unwillingness makes me feel annoying to ask about the details of all the colleges. I am now trying to convince myself to take it as easy as possible. I know the willingness has been actually stolen by my parents. The longer I got around there, the longer I felt unpleasant. I felt that! The pressure...not the pleasure...I know. The pressure has been getting more and more intense after the last monthly exam. It is so sad. I know what to do know.
Now, I know...I never be alone at all since the time I born. The Lord guides me...The Lord knows me..Eventh I said nothing.
Sorry for those who have been worried about me. I feel sorry of your worry and grateful of your caring. I will promise nothing but to merely depend on God's wisdom and guidance. For I know that He has a plan on me for the world. Amen..

Who am I by Casting Crowns

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

You Stand Alone - Hillsong

I will lay me down
At Your feet in worship
And listen to the sweetest sound of all

Oh God You are my God
How my heart it longs for You
I'm thirsty for Your presence in my world
I cry out night and day for more
To hold the majesty of You

My God You stand alone
And I worship at Your throne
I will look to see Your power and glory
Jesus Lord of all

Make sense...But...

Before I pose this passage, I am actually having no idea of how to express.==
People say that the educational system in Malaysia is very bad. haha! BAD? That means low efficiency, low quality and even old-fashioned. Ya..I am not sure of that, therefore I just listen and most of the time I choose to accept. Well~No matter how bad it is, we all have got to idea of how to better it, but we just can follow. If you don't want to follow, then you better choose to study oversea university if your parents can afford the high quantity fees. Otherwise, you just shut your mouth up and follow the system over here.
I have found out a guy, he feels very unsatisfied toward the lousy educational system in Malaysia.We understand his feeling actually. But he doesn't really enjoy his school life. He has serious problem on his view.
Ya.We all know, school is the place of learning. But what can we lean from that? Is there just to help you to get a certificate of a particular subject or profession? A degree certificate? Then, there is really meaningless for us to be there. Several hundred years ago, the educational system is really old-fashion and stern. However, it has educated so many people, and most of them became mighty persons at the end. The Confucianism is one of the good example. The theory is actually more worth compared to any Sciences theory. Mankind should actually learn how to be a real man before you have done something mighty.
People now aim for the papers,ya! The papers that show the certification and the triumphs they achieved. But what actually they get at the end are just the papers, the lifeless things which would eventually decompose. Are they really important? Think about that.
If the black and white certificate and the excellent result are all the purpose in your life. Then, I will feel absolutely sad and sympathetic of that, because you are actually wasting your life.
Appreciate the moment you get among your friends, the laughter they make, the jokes they say and the love and care they give to you.
(we can actually learn how to be a nice and sociable person in the school. Don't merely think that school just help you academically.)

I am in charge on my emotion

If you said that you are in charge of something, that means you can take control of sth.
Well~In fact, there are very few things or matters that we can take control of. But certainly, we can take control of ourselves. On any aspect such as emotional control, body control, thinking and speaking, we are actually in charge of all these things.
We often hear people say that someone dominates their lives or perhaps we occasionally say that people make our lives suffer. We may say :"They ruined our day", since they have done something bad to us. Is everything really like what you said? You are actually saying that people are in charge of your emotional control. Are they? I don't think so. You are the only one who is actually in charge of it. But you choose to give others your remote control of your emotion or something else which belong to you completely. You are the fool, don't keep on blaming other people. It is nothing to do with them.
I was quite actually seriously influenced by the NERDY's aura. I started to a nerd. That is actually a sad case. I almost allowed the stupid and useless aura influence me to get moody on something that is actually healthy and beneficial. Since when I get that chilly and unsociable?
However, I stood in front of a mirror and self-questioned. I know that is something wrong.... Now I am willing to congratulate myself that I have succeeded to persuade myself.^^Congratulation, jerry NCC. Nice job.

Learning is like boating against the water current. There is either improvement or retrogression.

Learning is like boating against the water current. There is either improvement or retrogression. I agree this statement fully.^^
Recently, I seldom write post in my blogger. Actually,here is my secret training room. haha! I attempt to learn writing from here. But there is a Mandarin proverb saying that there is no such thing like maintenance in learning. That is why Bible tells us not to get lazy on any aspect.
Besides that , there have been several friends saying that my posts contain too many words. It makes them feel lazy to read and even give comment. Then, I have chosen to make my post short and cute. Now, I perceived that I have abandoned a reader that is me.== I feel bored to pose a meaningless post. That is really a sad case. I noticed that I have forgotten many vocabularies. haiz~Since, MUET is coming soon, thus I have to get more hard-working.
So, from now on, I will write a post as long as possible.^^

STPM 4 flat

Last night, I was told that STPM result would be announced today, 24Feb2010. Most people say that it is earlier than the year before.^^It's actually has no effect on everything.

Well~ There was nothing went wrong, the sun still shines as bright as usual, the birds still chirp as sweet as usual and we study in our white color classroom as usual.

In our Math lesson, our M2 teacher looked great and energetic. Before she left the class, she took out her mobile phone and asked for the results. haha! Obviously, she is the most three-eight teacher that I have ever seen. I have ever compared her with the aunties in Sri Rambai Market. There is almost no difference between them.==She asked and we are able to know the results indirectly.

Of course, we all were looking for nothing but the news of 4flat that time. Ya! There are two.^^
Congratulation.haha! Two science students got their 4 flats in STPM. That is just excellent.haha!
They are guys whom have been expected to get such excellent result.haha! Cus they often score 4 in their school test. I know them. One is Wai Keat,a Bio student and one is Bala, a huge and smart Indian who is small genius in Physics. I respect them really because they not only obtain the best STPM results, they also look smart and mature. Totally, I am pretty sure that they are not a nerd. Instead they are mature and humorous sometime.

This year, our honorable physics teacher just expects us to get 3flats.Lame enough==
At about 11 o'clock, the door of the hall has been filled with many seniors. They all look mature in their own unique ways. Some dyed their hair in what color they prefer. Some wear as how sexy as they wish and some look no change.haha!

Seriously, the big big girls there are mostly good-looking, it was the thing that has made my school life colorful. LOL! Since there are colorful flowers in the garden, everything look comfortable and wonderful inside the garden. =P I think we have our right to appreciate their beauty. That is one of the wonderful God's creation that mankind appreciates well in the world. haha! At the same time, I realized that why people like to look for long-legged sister or mature girl to be their partner.Right? Kaemin =P
However,thank God for creating girls for boys to cherish and love them.^^

Ops..I got a lit bit out of my topic, get back!
Regarding the seniors, they sat inside the hall. Some was asking teachers for suggestion or just forming a circle and chit-chatting around with friends. At that moment, I tell myself that there is a time for us to get back over here again. With smile or regret when I obtain the result is utterly up to me now.^^ I believe that I will have no regret so far.

Getting STPM 4 flat is not really my purpose. My purpose is to give glory to your name, Lord.^^ Hope I can glorify your name 99 in my life.

Happy CNY!

Ya...CNY holidays are about to finish. What have you done during the holidays? Is it really a happy CNY? Haha! I will answer yes without any hesitation.
I enjoyed well with my relatives, my friends and even several honorable teachers.
Ya..Really this should be a nice moment for me to meet my old friends and relatives.
I had a good time to talk, eat, drink, and laugh with them. The moment is precious and worth to be cherished.
Last night, my house got a party. That is a big model party but my house isn't really that big enough to accommodate all of them. Sorry for that.
I appreciate their willingness to attend the party. Normally, people would feel embarrassed or what and finally refuse my invitation.^^However, the distance between us indirectly tells me that they are totally willing to visit me, my hometown and my home.(maybe my doggies)
Guys, I really give thank to you for your coming. ^^thank Niel for helping, my burner was being reduced that time.
Sorry also, if I had unconsciously neglected anyone of you during the party.
See you tomorrow, my friends.

Bond

Before I started my sharing, I always make my mind clear of what I am going to say.
But now I am like having no idea.ya...got it!

I have no right to comment so much on something, especially that is not my business.
Recently, I noticed many friends have changed their status from single to.pla pla pla.ya.Without any mention, we all also understand. Nothing is bad, at least It show that they have got a people to love them. Utterly, that should be wonderful and admirable. I inwardly wish them being in a good and healthy relationship. Instead, I don't expect to hear any bond breaking among every relationship.
There are several types of chemical bonding in the world. Some are strong and arranged in order. Inversely, some are fragile and arranged messily.

Simple covalent bonds no longer link the particles together firmly. For instance, hydrogen gas molecule is merely made up by two small hydrogen ions. Both two H atoms share an electron with each other in order to achieve stable electron arrangement. However, they just share e' among two of them selfishly, without third person involving. The bond will no longer be firm, and even be destroyed seriously when a trouble arises.

What I want to tell you is to link many people in your bonding of relationship. For instance, Giant covalent bonding among diamond is a very strong bond and very high temperature is required to melt it. It can endure any stress or heat supply on it without breaking any bond.
Its structure is awesome!

All of them bond with one another by sharing electrons.^^
Ya...We can do likewise in term of relationship by sharing our experiences and advices.
Erm...No matter what kind of relationship you have with a particular person, there is necessary for you to introduce him or her to other friends. They can help you to analyse and figure out who can be your good partner for the rest of your life. Mostly, we are not smart enough on this aspect, we need helps honestly.
Have you ever done the same thing? If you think that it makes sense, then I happily encourage you to fulfill it.
If you feel that it isn't necessary, then I hope that it will never bother you at all.^^

What actually we have to appreciate?

There are something that we are supposed to know how they can happen, but indeed we have no idea of solving them or dealing with them.
For those who came out with me today are able to know what I am talking about.

I have been trying to convince myself since many years ago. Besides, I also encouraged myself to be more gentle and active. I have tried my best. ya!My BEST. However, I am usually and mostly refused by their CRUEL answers with some terrible chillers. I don't know what happen to them. Or is it something wrong with me?

Maybe my thought has been modified either negatively or positively.
At the same time, their thoughts have not be changed or even improved so far.
Very down, very sad...I don't think that I have any motivation to be active. Instead, I have to change my mind not to bother them.

Is it impossible for us to change someone mind, but it is always possible for us to change our mind and behavior. That should be the only way that can set me free from that emptiness ans sadness. Forgive me...I don't know what else I can do...I am exhausted almost by these such nonsense and stupid matters.
There might be something else that requires my help. There might be somebody else who requires my care.
Leaping out of the small and boring box, looking around and finding out what is actually we have to appreciate.
(the message here is confusing, you are not encouraged to understand the content, even the writer also ain't sure what he wrote.)

Chinese New Year

It is just ridiculous for people to stay at home quietly during CNY.
Don't try to be an utter nerd or a 宅男/宅女, that isn't beneficial but to make you more unsociable.

I feel totally down and disappointed toward those who are not introvert but somehow not willing to step out from their box. Lame ma!
That is how they have their CNY? Happy CNY? I can't even imagine and agree with the way they might celebrate. haiz~ Different people have different thoughts.Some are ridiculous, some are reasonable. Who can make a judgement on it? I have no idea==

During CNY, we usually will be given holidays at least for a week. What a nice opportunity for us to meet during this precious season! I won't forgive myself, if I miss the chance to keep in touch with my friends. Set together,chit chat and gossip throughout the moment we meet each other.Since we don't really have many holidays after that, this is a chance for us to make our relationship more intimate.

There is no offense in this passage, I just want to share my point of view, no matter you do agree or not. The symbol of CNY is always the laughter, instead of silence.^^
Wish all of you have a noisy CNY.

Mandarin Orange

Since the Chinese New Year is coming, Leo club in HSBM was doing business dealing before that.
I received a Mandarin Orange, It is presented by a younger boy who is now Form 2.
I don't really know about him, we jus greet each other whenever we meet.
We have played a basketball game. Maybe since that time, the game is impressive to him.
haha! Anyway, I try to find him out in the school, so far I haven't succeeded. i need to say a "thank" to him. It is just a nice gift. Indeed, I appreciate.

Setting Sun

Setting Sun...It was hiding itself behind the mountain, as a shy girl . I want to take picture of it, but when I made a turn and intend to capture it, it totallyhad ran away.==

It should be a pretty Sun, if "she" didn't hide herself~But it has to set and go to the other side of the earth.What a reject It give to me? It prefers to show itself to other rather than me!?I asked~Why so shy? I am Man, not Moon!

It was merely a joke, and a nice one. I was driving and going off the Jusco at that time. I was thinking of many things whenever I see a EMO scene~ ya~It is totally good for a man, a mankind to think and ponder.What can it represent? Time~It never waits~and It waits for no man~Cheirsh the moment you are getting along with your parents, friends, relatives and God.



Walao A~sad case nia....However, there is a moon there to replace it~A moon which reflects the warm sunlight and shines upon us~The light is not that intense, but comfortable. The heat transferred is not that harmful but consoling~

Sometime you will feel that the sun is loving~But sometime you will agree that the mon is caring~

Down

down...Misunderstanding causes down...
down...Mistake causes down...
down..down..down..
It just lasts for awhile, but I never expected that I would be that down.
What I have done doesn't match with what my teacher ordered. Haiz~I am trying to explain, but I know I won't be allowed since the limiting time. I am sorry...I am sorry...What I have to do is to apologize.. Forgive me? No answer.But it is just a research what? You all may not take it serious, but I do. I try to do more and learn from it, but I jsut left 1 step to complete it. That was the step I have forgotten.
Whatever~I have done it. Hope that it won't be any problem arise anymore.^^

Take a chance, make a change and break away.

Take a chance, make a change and break away.
This is what I want to share over here.
ya~It is good to make a change instead of standing at your regular spot.
How could we stand at a regular spot as others try to walk as far as they can?
Before there is an improvement in your life, you have take a chance for making a change.
Ong Zhang has made a good and sensible decision in his life. Over High School, he realized that there are many things he can learn and improve. I am glad to know that. But life in high school for him is just tough. He is naive and having a naughty nature. However, i believe that it wouldn't be appreciated by the teachers.
There is no point to feel sympathetic toward him as he was being scolded by the teachers. What they do is all for our own good, they want to train us to become a smart, educated and obedient student.
But it is just bad and unfair for him to be ignored and discriminated. I felt deeply sympathetic toward him, and what have happened recently are what I expected.
He will learn...learn how to react accordingly in any circumstance. He will get wise and tactful in future.He will, because he has made this choice.^^

Take a chance, make a change and break away.

Take a chance, make a change and break away.
This is what I want to share over here.
ya~It is good to make a change instead of standing at your regular spot.
How could we stand at a regular spot as others try to walk as far as they can?
Before there is an improvement in your life, you have take a chance for making a change.
Ong Zhang has made a good and sensible decision in his life. Over High School, he realized that there are many things he can learn and improve. I am glad to know that. But life in high school for him is just tough. He is naive and having a naughty nature. However, I fully believe that it wouldn't be appreciated by the teachers.
There was no point to feel sympathetic toward him as he was being scolded by the teachers. What they do is all for our own good, they want to train us to become a smart, educated and obedient student.
But it is just bad and unfair for him to be ignored and discriminated. I felt deeply sympathetic toward him, and what have happened recently are what I expected.
He will learn...learn how to react accordingly in any circumstance. He will get wise and tactful in future.He will, because he has made this choice.^^

Being famous~

A nice week~I ain't weak, but my nose likes to get wet during the silent night as if it is necessary. What I feel is unsatisfied and uncomfortable. I know! The stupid fan blows all the invisible dust up and fills the air as much as possible as it spins in high speed. What I inhale and get into my lungs should no longer be clean and pure. Hence, I decided to switch on the air conditioner.^^hehe..It doesn't blow up the dust but to filtrate the air. It is nice~I like it.=D

Yea...Before I started my High School life, I had intended to be a normal guy who merely tries to do well academically.^^I insisted even I know I will fail to do so eventually.
"BGR?haha!Sorry...not interested on that nonsense...hehe!" That is what I used to talk to myself. It is all to prevent me from getting into a complicated relationship. But listen, I am still that talkative and humorous in the class. I keep the pure and beneficial relationship with other girls naturally. Indeed, they are friendly and "flirtable".LOL.

As usual, we have our serious physics lesson. Girls were talking nonsense as they were recording down some data.
"Sir~the physics questions are very difficult..I cant finish it that soon~" a short girl said with her sweet voice.
"easy la! Ask Chyi Chun la!" a talkative girl quickly answered and smiled then.
In that instant, I was concerning on recording down the data, since we had been given several minutes to do that only.Thus, I would not be able to get what they said.
I asked curiously:"what?hami?"
They were teasing at each other and glaring at me occasionally. I don't appreciate that scene, it is uncomfortable. =='''
After that, my Sir who had just finished his writing turned to us. He grinned and moved her ear close toward us, as if someone whispered to him before him, and said :" what?Chyi Chun~o~ I see...". He was staring at me as I was doing likewise innocently.
He continued:" Chyi Chun, you are very famous among the girls ar~". Then, he turned to the white board again.=='''
lame~yea...I wonder how famous I am. It may be good to be famous. But sometime it is peaceful to be just normal.^^

Remember that I won't forget you.

Instead of doing nothing here, I have chosen to write something while I am waiting for a stupid car which is blocking me from coming out of my house. I can do nothing but to wait.=='''
Last night, I had a good outing with my friends. haha!ya...I prayed for that of course. Over here, I want to thank God at the same time.
They are still funny and friendly. They are still funny in their unique ways.
haha!Most of them have changed their status. However, it is not my business. I wish all the best to them and I will miss them all the time. Since we have passed through all the ordeals inside the camp, sleep and chat together at midnight,therefore there is no reason for me to forget them.^^

I was wondering whether I should give my wish by sending a simple msg writing " Happy Birthday" to a special girl. It no longer bothered me. I made a decision at once, for I know that she won't be grateful of that, cus I recalled something that she doesn't want to recall. ^^However, I wished her inwardly by praying for her all the night.

Another one...

As usual,all the students walk and enter the school which is located on hill.
It takes us some time to get used of the morning walk.
I often look around me as I am on my way to my class.See whether there is anyone I can greet.
haha!Today,Ong Zhang told me in the early morning that his friend succeed to enter our school.Good..not bad i think.It's a good news and we expect that he would transfer to 1st physics class.
Erm..Bell rand~~ling ling ling...
There is a person with a familiar face appeared by the door.
All of us stared at him and he said:"teacher,I am new student."
Just a simple sentence,it made all the class screamed.==
Not that serious, but we were wondering why he changed into our class but not other.
haih~"welcome" is the only thing we can say to him now.
I didn't say anything but to invite him to sit beside me.
Set up the chair and table properly for his sake.
He is Lip Yong.His name has just been used to form a joke.But it doesn't sound funny in fact.
At the beginning, my sir called him as Ip Men.==''Very funny~After a while, it back to normal.
In our class, teachers want to inspire all the students to speak and give their own comments on something. They want us to make a stand on something,to know how to communicate with others, to know how to behave in all the aspect.
So...the teachers don't really expect their selves to speak.Instead they want to listen to us no matter any nonsense we will utter.
But at the same time,this is what the students nowadays don't like to do-public speaking.
I received that it is rare to have a student who can speak in public well nowadays.
1st thing, they used to speak in other languages instead of international language-English.
2nd thing,they seldom think to make any decision.Most of them just follow the commands but seldom ponder.That is why we always can hear some1 say: "Never mind la".It sounds funny,as the time passed by,it will turn to be foolish.^^
3nd thing, they are confident enough to their selves.They used to mumble and keep silent so that others will just ignore them and set them free from trouble.

It is good to be in 6PAB.haha!You may be able to speak instead of being a mute.^^
Hope that they can enjoy to be in 6PAB.

The 1st day

I am now typing my post in a noisy and dim ciber cafe.The first day of my school life,it's just nothing but normal.
My classmates' patterns stiil remain unchanged.They are still friendly and funnny.
Today,I was talking with two girls.I noticed that my blog is just boring to them.What can I do to change it?Is it life have to be so colorful and exciting?I prefer to have a simple and meaningful life.^^
In my opinion,blog is used to share your things with your sincere friends.
It is used to tell them what is happening in your life.
They are caring you and wondering how you are all the time.Viewing their blogs means that you are caring them.It is just touching if they know that.It isn't used to amuse those who view your blog.^^

Today,there is a new student entering our class-Ong Zhang.
He is now officially becoming my classmate.It almost got me into trouble today.How to say?
He came into our class.Of course, my dear Miss Ooi started to ask him sth.It's actually nothing to do with me.Since he kept mumbling in the conversation,the situation has been changed.
She asked:"okay~now..Is there Nibong Tebal friend?"
Since that time,I know that I got into a trouble innocently.
She suspected that I suggested him to transfer to High School.Guys~I am innocent!
I tried my best to explain for escaping the trouble using my persuasion.Thank God for setting me free from inquiry.==

well~At the same time,there were some question marks appearing above my head.What made him to decide to study here?
After school,I talked with him and roughly intriduced all the teachers to him.I noticed that we are thinking of the same thing and finally we made the same decision.^^

Then, we took our lunch together and I fetched him back to his hostel.Took a look inside his hostel,it's just....plain and unadornable.I am blessed enough by my Lord. T.T
Grateful is only the expression I can feel for him.