What actually we have to appreciate?

There are something that we are supposed to know how they can happen, but indeed we have no idea of solving them or dealing with them.
For those who came out with me today are able to know what I am talking about.

I have been trying to convince myself since many years ago. Besides, I also encouraged myself to be more gentle and active. I have tried my best. ya!My BEST. However, I am usually and mostly refused by their CRUEL answers with some terrible chillers. I don't know what happen to them. Or is it something wrong with me?

Maybe my thought has been modified either negatively or positively.
At the same time, their thoughts have not be changed or even improved so far.
Very down, very sad...I don't think that I have any motivation to be active. Instead, I have to change my mind not to bother them.

Is it impossible for us to change someone mind, but it is always possible for us to change our mind and behavior. That should be the only way that can set me free from that emptiness ans sadness. Forgive me...I don't know what else I can do...I am exhausted almost by these such nonsense and stupid matters.
There might be something else that requires my help. There might be somebody else who requires my care.
Leaping out of the small and boring box, looking around and finding out what is actually we have to appreciate.
(the message here is confusing, you are not encouraged to understand the content, even the writer also ain't sure what he wrote.)