back...sad...

packed my things and took my key...got into my car and drove...
I have to attend a Chemistry tuition before I can go back to NT.
Smth happened and made me feel unsatisfied...suak suak...well~jus straight away turned my way to NT..
reached NT and called Niel out for a dinner..we shared about many things...erm..actually they shared alot...I was trying to share...but not much more things that I can share...erm...I got no special thing...==''anyway...I was willing to listen...^^
after d dinner,I went home...opened the gate and noticed that my mom was doing her works...
It was odd for her to ignore me...I found it weird and I was pretty sure that something happened before...
I asked my mom that anything happened before...what she look so angry?at the same time,I was playing with my dogs^^
Actually,I got the answer before she answered me.She got angry because of my younger brother...same case same problem...Generally,I am not able to find him out....because he is such a popular guy in the school now...many programs are waiting for him.I hard to see him at home.==''and at the same time,It means that I wont be able to control him or even interrupt into his living life.I expected that there will be a problem like now.
She cried while she was explaining her anger to me...the only thing I could do was to confort her...and encourage her...so that she won't give up and despair of the boy.
At that moment,I was pretty angry...I was just like to punch him seriously!!!!
what can I do?really punch him 99?i don't think that is a good solution...
I wonder...what is the time that he realised his naive?

Jesus's Eyes

Scripture
[God] told me,"My grace is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness." Once I heard that,I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap andbegan appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness...And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.
- 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 -
A story~"[Melha] went right uo to her nearly blink father and pointed to one picture on the wall---one of the Lord calling little child to Him--and said,'Look at Jesus'
" 'have no eyes,O my daughter--I cannot see,' was the answer.[The girl] lifted her head and eyes to the picture and said, 'O Jesus,look at father!' "
Had Melha shown the pride of adulthood, she might ahve agreed with her father that it was useless to try to see God.But in joyful humility, she simply acknowledged that her father was weak and God was strong. She knew that God sees us before we can even look at Him. He longs for us to acknowledge how dependent we are on him.
In our ambition we believe that we must get our lives together before we can turn to God. But in our humility we realize that only through God will we find the completeness we need to love him,see him, and care for others.

Prayer
God, I am weak today...Help me to be strong in you...

(Garp Chapman & Elisa Stanford; The Love As A Way Of Life)
DEVOTIONAL~

Saturday~

Satuday and Sunday are both the bustling days for me.I recalled my memories that happened before I tranferred to BM High school.Actually, my Saturday is supposed to be peaceful and meaningless.Somehow, I would rather to sit infront of the computer for nothing than of a book during the lame Saturday.But for now,it changes to be the most bustling day in a week.
Generally, many family likes to have a outing during the weekend,especially mt family.They used to go for dinner at Saturday night,because they are free during the weekend.
Now,I just can get back to my hometown NT about 430pm something, due to my tiring chemistry tuition.It is merely a rush!After that,I am not allowed to take my own time,but to spend the time with my family.Em~I think nothing is bad...everything is good actually...but I am not satisfied about the schedule...It is pretty short...to spend tiem with my family and even friends...==
well~my parents drove and picked up my grandparents for dinner.I don't really know why they often call them out for dinner recently, but anyway it is a good behaviour.I have no comment.
On the way to restaurant-Tambun,I picked up my mobile phoneand viewed the photo I have taken before.
At the same time,I got an idea~to take photo with my grandparent...kakaka!!
Reached the restaurant,we got out of the car.I stood straigthly and looked around for nothing.My grandfather stuck with me closely and straightened his body=='''I was wondering what he was going to do for me...He stared at me,grined and said that I am getting talled,grown up much more..haha!I just responsed by laughing.He turned his body and started to move away toward the restaurant.I grasped his shoulder politely from his back and asked him taking a photo.Ki cha!settle!At the ame time,I asked my grandmother to take a photo also.
Actually, I am not a person who likes to take photo anywhere and anytime..I just know that it is necessary for me to have their photos,even they may be old and unsightly now or they may not be good on grininng in the face of the camera.
After dinner,we reached home about 830pm.Alright~my parents got their own entertainments and it seemed that they didn't encourage me to join them.Then,I just lep on the bicycle and rushe ahead MY church delightfully.There ahs been a long time that I didn't come to church~
Always geelfs extremely joy and peaceful whenever I paced into the church.. like my second comfortable home~The topic was about "love"
we were separated into 4 groups and discussed about the things we didn't achieve the scripture.I shared about something with my brothers and sisters in Christ.Always keeps reminding myself that without spirit I am merely a Dust~there is no reason for me to boast!
After that,I had supper with Daniel and Man Yen...we shared about the experiences that we gained in our lives with each others.At the same time,I found it lametable if we harbored he jealousy and hatred among our friends..sorry...I am just only a dust,I am weak without God...I am nothing without spirit..so I may despair of anyone of you~pai se..forgive me...
went to Daniel's hjouse and chatted with his parents...then finished my tiring and meaningful -Saturday...(we got a plan,that I have never expected before...)=P!!

One week?or one second?

there are many differences between 1 week and 1 second.
The magnitude is one of the differences...1 week is actually 7 days and we convert it into second that should be (7x24x3600)second.
There is about 604800 second within a week.erm~big difference~
A week is just like a spark(happen within a second).haha!crapping lar~erm...
I am now at my comfortable home in NT.What happened in this week?Sorry...I just can roughly share with you all~
Monday~in the beginning, every thing was fine as usual~But in the Physic class,I kena~
When the teacher Mr Lew was teaching,I whispered again...walao~and immediately my guilt was discovered by his eyes.He pointed me with his finger and at the same time all the students were staring at me...oh no~at that particular time,I felt extremely remorseful of my stupid,useless and unnecessary whispering.you know what?Actually,I whisper to no one.I just pretended nothing happened.stayed cool,baby~
"you !five push up." Do you still remember...?last time Mr Lew called me"you, shut up!".I just realized that was a warn.After that,5 push up~instead of shut up!
well~just obeyed his order and gave him five push up rapidly~because I scared that something more terrible will happen...
He is a good teacher.haha!Eventhough,he punished me~because he didn't scold you after the punishment.I like this kind of teacher...I really respect him but I was sorry that I am not enabled to adapt myself in such special and fresh way of study so far.(silent totally and just listen)
After that,was chemistry period.She gave us many and many homeworks...damn~and I am also owing her the chapter 1's homeworks.LLB!!!nothing to say...
I transferred my friday PA tuition to Monday.
Actually I didn't concentrate my attention well in the beginning because I just finished a rush~
Besides that,there were some Jit Sin students around.The one who sat by me was a talkative guy.He was joking with a girl whose is my classmate and was one of the Jit Sin students before.
They talked about me I could hear that....They asd that I look like thier friend...who is it?
O~Huang Jun Wei~yeah!I know that...we both have a similar face.They made noise in the class...walao~really a crazy group....
I changed my seat and sat beside a girl "Che Huo Gui" while we were waiting for the ohter teacher.haha!The group joked again by saying that she is my GF...=='''
well~speechless..I dislike nonsense.what lar~handsome guy must have a girl friend?lol!
Then,a friend that I encountered in NS-JPJ...I noticed her and greeted...
She pointed the girl and saying something...I didn't really know what she said or asked....but I can ensure that she was questioning me whether the girl is my GF or not?lame~
I was lazy to explain more during such embarrassed situation.sianz~
At last the talkative guy asked for my HP no and now chat with me frequently.sweat~=='''

七十二变?不好料。不变才好料。

“这个世界上唯一不变的东西就是变”
这句话，是我在去年的时候，在我的亲戚家里头的一本心灵大师所写的心灵论读到的。我相信那本书应该蛮著名的。
对。他写的理论听起来确实头头是道。我也很相信，他说的理论，大家听了都会点点头。
我一面看，一面点着我的大头。看到了那一句，我就迟疑了一会儿。
“这个世界上唯一不变的东西就是变”
对。很多东西都在变，我们对这些改变真的作不出细毫的影响甚至控制.当然，我们也只能白白接受。可是，他是否是完全正确的呢？他是谁？他是心灵大师！我知道～出了很多有名书籍～我也知道～无论如何，我知道，他也是人。就算他会飞也好！他还是一个会飞的人。哈哈！
我读到这里的时候，我的大头里冒出了一个念头－可以说是答案吧？
我认为他对一大半，只错了一点。可惜，错一点，还是错，没有同情分。
这世界有个千年不变的道理，那就是耶稣爱你～
这就是我脑海里那时突然所冒出来的念头。
神使世界一直在不停的变换中，从这里就已经衬托了他那伟大又永恒的爱。因他的爱不被时间影响，永无止尽。阿门。

pek check!!!!

yeah~the end of the holidays,but some1 is just about to begin his (Danny) holidays...haha!!
My holidays were good enough...I was so satisfied...haha!
well~this morning I went out for breakfast with my family.At that time, I was worried about the tuition time.sweat~
when we were eating, my brother suggested to go to Econsave...why?because he planed to make a cake for his girl friend...=.='''oh no~
By the way, my dad and mom sapu the things they need in the Econsave...lol!!!bought many fruits and mineral water...=.='''sianz...I was pushing the damn heavy trolley and walking there like an clumsy idiot...just discovered the principle of Newton's first law and inertia...haha!!!
Then,I was late to be at home...and allowed my friends and teacher waiting for me outside my home...=.=so sorry~unexpected case...=P!
After the tuition,I found myself in trouble.I knew that 1 of my friends received a letter from JPN..and er application was approved...
and Delvinson sadly failed to apply his tukar sekolah!!haha!!tease him!!!I t should be bad to him.
and now...I sakit kepala~i didnt get ANY letter from what damn or shit JPN!!I got nothing!It is worse!!!sianzz...my mind was blank...and I was just sitting in the hall for no purpose.
walao~~sianz!!!I am yearning to change my study circumstance cus i needed that to help me on my study.
well~it's okay for them to disapprove my application.But~at least tell me ma!!!turtoring me!!I have no answer..and I don really know what to do for the next.=.=AH!!!!LinLaoBuA!
I asked Daniel's family for help...they adviced me going to JPN and inquire them.
well~that should be the only way to solve my worry...

AhKuNaMaTaTa~what a wonderful day~

oh~thank God for giving me a wonderful holidays...I really enjoyed the whole holidays~
recall back~that can be considered as 2 weeks busy and meaningful holidays...
terribly tired during the holidays but at the same time I felt satisfied...
we planed to have many trips...and by the ways, unconsciously I found us in several conflicts.
haha~well~finally, thank God for humbling us to tolerate each other whenever we discuss together.
and then we all had a good discussion and made a decision.Everything is fine then.
I learned something during my holidays.Simple is good~simple is great~I cherished something that we can do in NT but not in other country.I started to like it...and stopped my annoyed sense.
Hallelujah!!!I have nothing to say but praise the Lord~that is all~