Home

At home,
you would feel comfortable at every single corner of it.
You would have either a cup of tea or milo that is prepared by a woman.
You would be forced to have your meal though you don't really feel like to eat.
You would appreciate the meal and wonder how difficult and long it is for her to prepare.
You would read your own news paper and chill out at the hall as if you have nothing to bother with.
You would also have no tendency to hide yourself from anyone at home. .
You would feel like to go home when you are away.
You would be pleasant to be there...^^

unforgetable memories

Someone is leaving.For his future and studies...
The message to invite him playing basketball is no longer necessary to be sent.
Meanwhile, I realized that there have been so many friends whom don't really contact with me as if they have left away from me so long.^^But they are not really too far from me...Maybe we are in the same country, hometown and even garden.But somehow I feel that they have left me away for a long while.
I wish them all the best over here. Hope that I will be the one they occasionally miss.
Of course, they are leaving...But something has been conserved-they are unforgetable memories.^^

The court

The court of basketball-the place where we used to have fun with friends.
In order to keep myself healthy, exercise is required of course.
I find it interesting playing basketball...I have learnt alot of things from that.
Exercise makes people get more emotionally stable and conscious. That is what we need. Anyhow, people nowadays underestimate it.
One day, I lost a game and were forced to set aside cooling down the temperature of my big ass.
There was a man setting beside me. To be sociable, I took initiative and started our conversation. A simple question, I asked. How come the court look so empty? No people meh?
He answered, oh...they all are working.haha...
I see...haha!What? I thought we-the youth should be the one who have the responsibility to fill up the basketball court instead of the Court of Law.==
It is sad to say that...but truly I can give nothing to deny my own statement.
Boys!Where are you all?Stop flirting with girls or playing with the stupid and lifeless computer! Come on! Get rid of the manacles of BGR and the chains of vanity!Get in the court of BOYS!!^^This should be the real and healthy way to spend the autumn of youth.
I am looking for the day's coming, the day that the court-land of boys would be filled with cheerful laughter and the healthy sweat greatly wet the ground.^^

say Hi or Bye

say 'Hi' or 'Bye'? Which one I prefer. None of them.
Why? Normally people may prefer to say 'Hi' rather than 'Bye'.
Saying 'Hi' represents a beginning, while saying 'Bye' represent an end. Is it?
However, 'Hi' and 'Bye' both are one. Without 'hi', saying 'bye' will no longer has its own meaning and vice versa. ^^
Having no sorrow to say 'Bye'. Instead, having hope to long for the moment for us to say 'Hi'.^^

Sad case

Straight to the point
This essay has no offense to any people and anything.
I am merely willing to share.
I have an aunt who has got married many years. She has a good-looking, smart, tolerant and hardworking husband. Both of them have 3 healthy children who are in primary school. Theoretically, they both should be quite a happy family.^^
She has been supported to learn English and become a promoter something like that. It should be a very nice plan. That is why our big family has no comment on it.
Well~Online learning is such an effective way to learn English. I am now also learning English in fact. Likewise, we have no comment about how she learns.
However, she knew a guy, a man from the internet. She encountered him occasionally or deliberately? I have no idea.==
And somehow she is just falling love with the man that she has never seen before.
She merely knew that the man is a professor and staying at a foreign country around Australia.In their conversation, the man promised that he will give her a brand-new well-being.
Damn Shit!How could the promise be real? He can give nothing to prove the reality of the promise. Somehow, she believed...She is now still believing....
Many doubts appear.
Has she looked for a brand-new marriage for a long time? and WHY?
What is the thing that is truly unsatisfactory in her life?
Is the husband a gamble who sells all the property to pawnshop?
Is their children all handicapped and bad-looking?
I don't think so.
The man will just flirt with her and regard it as an entertainment. An entertainment with no commitment. He will just tease her in front of the computer while he is writing something romantic and tempting. He will never take any real action to make her stupid dream come true.
Her willingness of having illusive extramartial relation has been announced and discovered.==
Now, she is not staying with her husband. She seems to have no regret of making such decision even though all the members are counseling her. How could it be like that? It is seriously disappointing. God bless and forgive them...
In this case, I realized people would do something extremely terrible when their eagerness overwhelms their rationality.
My dear friends...Don't get desperate of something. You will definitely regret at last.

Vanity

Date: 15-3-2010
Time: 2:09 p.m.
Moment: When I am supposed to work in my dad's company
Mode: ponteng kerja

I know I am just a wretch who finds working in company is terribly boring. Just sorry for being such a wretch.==
Before several years, our big family's company had no much business customers. That time, my parents and relatives were worried about the business. The problem always made them to knit their own brows throughout the years.
Now, they have already made the business stable and besides there are several permanent customers dealing with them. The demand of high quantity becomes the problem. The demand is now high, however the workers are not that sufficient and efficient.==Now, they are still worrying.
How come...? Vanity of vanity.
Last night, my dad took initiative to ask me working during this holidays. That was 1st time he asked me to help. I couldn't imagine how serious the problem is.
Sad for having a terribly tiring match last night. It made me suffer and physically exhausted. Now resting...==

Lame ma!

Since the MUET is coming soon, I suggested a plan of having speaking practice after school in library.. There are several friends who can stay back after school would be invited to carry out the plan with me. I am quite glad of having 5ppl in a speaking practice, it is quite a big number to a normal and formal speaking. Perhaps it seems a little bit informal, but I strongly believe that we started to get the function.
Well~The purpose of having this kind of practice is to make us more comfortable and confident when we speak in English. Overcome the fear and raise the maturity. I like the plan^^
Yesterday, I were having speaking practice with my friends. We had finished talking about the topic after that we seemed to be unsatisfied. Finally, I still kept chatting about other informal topic, what title that made them excited was about "my ass".==
I am actually quite down and unhappy of being commented in that embarrassed way. How could the ass became the topic of speaking? I tried to change the topic by suggesting a new topic, but I failed. At last, we talked about that for 30minutes. Lame ma....It was just embarrassed.
This morning I was quite late to be in school. I packed my car and after that went into the school with a girl.^^ It was just wonderful morning for me to have a walk with an opposite sex no matter who it is ,I would also appreciate well. The rising sun and the Bukit at one created an aura of hope and romance. The steadfast and honest mountain with the back ground of golden sun makes people to get hopeful for the whole day.
However, a long and tiring way between the gate and my class upset those students who enter by feet instead of bike.==
Once I entered my classroom, I was so shocked that my friends all became extremely friendly. they greeted me with powerful voice and somehow they were like observing my body. What was going on, I wondered. It made me totally uncomfortable.
After a while, I just stood outside the class and intended to interrupt their conversation. They turned to me and started laughing and called me :"hey! Ka Cheng Kia!". At that moment, I just noticed that they were staring at my ass.Speechless=='''

A time for sentimentality, a time for motivation.

Ecclesiastes 3: 1. To every [thing there is] a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: 4. A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance
Aaaahhh!!I have just come back from Penang Island..An education fair...I was the driver who drive throughout the way and thats why I feel mentally exhausted. People say that the silent time and lonely period are actually good for Devil.Who knows? I drove silently and kept thinking so much things. Thinking is just good but worrying is just unnecessary at all. Erm..I am actually having no idea of why I behaved in that unusual way.^^
I believe that Jerry Ng would reject the invitation to Education fair without hesitation.^^Because that time he was really naive enough. But this time I talked with me and argued. finally I have made a sensible response to my friend.
The mood I had was actually not that good...ya...I chose to be like that. I still can't forgive myself about the last exam result. It was just merely caused by the unforgivable pride. I thank god for giving me such a nice and wonderful place to pursue my studies cheerfully. I got the grace! The amazing grace... I really appreciate.. But people used to forget and take it for granted. I am the one.
Through this exam, I just know that it is just a beginning. I thought that the Devil is allowed to attack my confidence. But my view is totally wrong. I just unconsciously stand with the evil one and feel prideful as what they always do in anywhere.
Go back to the education fair.There are many colleges and U which offer a variety of courses. the main things we pay attention on are the fees, the location and the entry requirement. The unwillingness makes me feel annoying to ask about the details of all the colleges. I am now trying to convince myself to take it as easy as possible. I know the willingness has been actually stolen by my parents. The longer I got around there, the longer I felt unpleasant. I felt that! The pressure...not the pleasure...I know. The pressure has been getting more and more intense after the last monthly exam. It is so sad. I know what to do know.
Now, I know...I never be alone at all since the time I born. The Lord guides me...The Lord knows me..Eventh I said nothing.
Sorry for those who have been worried about me. I feel sorry of your worry and grateful of your caring. I will promise nothing but to merely depend on God's wisdom and guidance. For I know that He has a plan on me for the world. Amen..

Who am I by Casting Crowns

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

You Stand Alone - Hillsong

I will lay me down
At Your feet in worship
And listen to the sweetest sound of all

Oh God You are my God
How my heart it longs for You
I'm thirsty for Your presence in my world
I cry out night and day for more
To hold the majesty of You

My God You stand alone
And I worship at Your throne
I will look to see Your power and glory
Jesus Lord of all