Friday, July 31, 2009

back...sad...

packed my things and took my key...got into my car and drove...
I have to attend a Chemistry tuition before I can go back to NT.
Smth happened and made me feel unsatisfied...suak suak...well~jus straight away turned my way to NT..
reached NT and called Niel out for a dinner..we shared about many things...erm..actually they shared alot...I was trying to share...but not much more things that I can share...erm...I got no special thing...==''anyway...I was willing to listen...^^
after d dinner,I went home...opened the gate and noticed that my mom was doing her works...
It was odd for her to ignore me...I found it weird and I was pretty sure that something happened before...
I asked my mom that anything happened before...what she look so angry?at the same time,I was playing with my dogs^^
Actually,I got the answer before she answered me.She got angry because of my younger brother...same case same problem...Generally,I am not able to find him out....because he is such a popular guy in the school now...many programs are waiting for him.I hard to see him at home.==''and at the same time,It means that I wont be able to control him or even interrupt into his living life.I expected that there will be a problem like now.
She cried while she was explaining her anger to me...the only thing I could do was to confort her...and encourage her...so that she won't give up and despair of the boy.
At that moment,I was pretty angry...I was just like to punch him seriously!!!!
what can I do?really punch him 99?i don't think that is a good solution...
I wonder...what is the time that he realised his naive?

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Jesus's Eyes

Scripture
[God] told me,"My grace is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness." Once I heard that,I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap andbegan appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness...And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.
- 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 -
A story~"[Melha] went right uo to her nearly blink father and pointed to one picture on the wall---one of the Lord calling little child to Him--and said,'Look at Jesus'
" 'have no eyes,O my daughter--I cannot see,' was the answer.[The girl] lifted her head and eyes to the picture and said, 'O Jesus,look at father!' "
Had Melha shown the pride of adulthood, she might ahve agreed with her father that it was useless to try to see God.But in joyful humility, she simply acknowledged that her father was weak and God was strong. She knew that God sees us before we can even look at Him. He longs for us to acknowledge how dependent we are on him.
In our ambition we believe that we must get our lives together before we can turn to God. But in our humility we realize that only through God will we find the completeness we need to love him,see him, and care for others.

Prayer
God, I am weak today...Help me to be strong in you...

(Garp Chapman & Elisa Stanford; The Love As A Way Of Life)
DEVOTIONAL~

Monday, July 6, 2009

Saturday~

Satuday and Sunday are both the bustling days for me.I recalled my memories that happened before I tranferred to BM High school.Actually, my Saturday is supposed to be peaceful and meaningless.Somehow, I would rather to sit infront of the computer for nothing than of a book during the lame Saturday.But for now,it changes to be the most bustling day in a week.
Generally, many family likes to have a outing during the weekend,especially mt family.They used to go for dinner at Saturday night,because they are free during the weekend.
Now,I just can get back to my hometown NT about 430pm something, due to my tiring chemistry tuition.It is merely a rush!After that,I am not allowed to take my own time,but to spend the time with my family.Em~I think nothing is bad...everything is good actually...but I am not satisfied about the schedule...It is pretty short...to spend tiem with my family and even friends...==
well~my parents drove and picked up my grandparents for dinner.I don't really know why they often call them out for dinner recently, but anyway it is a good behaviour.I have no comment.
On the way to restaurant-Tambun,I picked up my mobile phoneand viewed the photo I have taken before.
At the same time,I got an idea~to take photo with my grandparent...kakaka!!
Reached the restaurant,we got out of the car.I stood straigthly and looked around for nothing.My grandfather stuck with me closely and straightened his body=='''I was wondering what he was going to do for me...He stared at me,grined and said that I am getting talled,grown up much more..haha!I just responsed by laughing.He turned his body and started to move away toward the restaurant.I grasped his shoulder politely from his back and asked him taking a photo.Ki cha!settle!At the ame time,I asked my grandmother to take a photo also.
Actually, I am not a person who likes to take photo anywhere and anytime..I just know that it is necessary for me to have their photos,even they may be old and unsightly now or they may not be good on grininng in the face of the camera.
After dinner,we reached home about 830pm.Alright~my parents got their own entertainments and it seemed that they didn't encourage me to join them.Then,I just lep on the bicycle and rushe ahead MY church delightfully.There ahs been a long time that I didn't come to church~
Always geelfs extremely joy and peaceful whenever I paced into the church.. like my second comfortable home~The topic was about "love"
we were separated into 4 groups and discussed about the things we didn't achieve the scripture.I shared about something with my brothers and sisters in Christ.Always keeps reminding myself that without spirit I am merely a Dust~there is no reason for me to boast!
After that,I had supper with Daniel and Man Yen...we shared about the experiences that we gained in our lives with each others.At the same time,I found it lametable if we harbored he jealousy and hatred among our friends..sorry...I am just only a dust,I am weak without God...I am nothing without spirit..so I may despair of anyone of you~pai se..forgive me...
went to Daniel's hjouse and chatted with his parents...then finished my tiring and meaningful -Saturday...(we got a plan,that I have never expected before...)=P!!