感恩

过了很长的一段日子，我现在才终于打开这个blogger，更新更新。
由于小弟的英文不是很好，所以我想尽量用我熟悉的语言-华语来表达我这感恩的心情。
神，我很感恩。

对于那些认识我近况的朋友，我相信你们都挺了解我走过了的路。
无论如何，我想跟大家分享。分享那奇妙的恩典。

我原是一个没有责任感的男孩，我有着可爱的天真和可怜的无知。在中学，学业与家人好像没在我心里占不到50%的位置。（我相信很多少年人都是这样，我只是其中一个=P）
一直以来都没有方向，很多时后我问自己到底为什么会在这边。
缺乏成就感的我，在球场上建立自信心，在童军活动培养傲气。缺乏爱的我，到处寻人欢欣，寻人的认同。这种少年普通得不得了。
在寻求爱的路途中，我遇到了许许多多的问题，做了很多鸟事情，带给朋友很多粪问题。
那时的我很低落，很不自由。不自由可能是因为大头里面有很多的歪理，背上有很多负担。
东西就一直这样不停地循环发生。
过不久，我对这些事觉得累了。于是，转移方向去依靠神。依靠一个我只认识不久的神。从那时候开始，一切奇妙的变化开始了。

在F5的最后黄金时期，我善用时间，夺取我最满意的成绩。当了一整子的兵，认识各样的人，让我在心灵上何思想上成长了不少。之后，我自己不知不觉找到了方向，得到了引领，就企图想读KDU。虽然如此，那时的环境非常不鼓励我在那儿求学。
过后奇妙的得知有HSBM的存在，就毫不犹豫的转到哪儿上学。那时，我住宿在我的亲戚家。那儿有特别的优待。那就是免费的午餐和晚餐。（因为亲戚是开经济饭店的。）因此，我的生活费就这样减少很多。
哈哈！其实我在几天以内做了转校的决定。虽然那时我不知道前面会有什么问题在等着我去面对，但是我有那种莫名其妙的感觉说：别怕，不会有事的。那种莫名其妙的平安说服我就这样懵懵懂懂地转校，换了环境。过后我才察觉，我的路...就像是被铺平了似的，像是被策划一样，顺利得不像话。我那时候非常感恩，非常感动。神竟然为我这么普通，又败类的黄麒俊安排好去路，照亮了整片路。

在亲戚家呆足了十个月，我就因为某些缘故从亲戚家搬了出来自己住。于是，搬到了朋友家附近的一间房子住宿。感谢神，我受到朋友家人的帮助和恩惠，让我的生活变得比较轻松，比较快乐。他们的存在也让我的生活不会变的很乏味，反而非常非常的精彩。^^在途中，我父亲得了大病。让我非常的担忧和烦恼。由于我不是医生，唯有祷告祈求才能让我觉得没那么无助与不安。感谢神，在医学上来看，我爸的病情还在控制下。^^相信很快就会好起来。

我对我现在所拥有的一切，对神献上无法形容的感谢。以前的我根本没想到会有这样的一天，没想到我会变成这样的一个‘麒哥’^^。感恩，愿你继续赐福！=D

Don't you give up now.

Now, I am very confused.I'm confused of what perspective I should look my life in?
optimistic or pessimistic?
I don't have the idea of why we prefer to be sentimental and hopeless. Like to set ourselves in an "emo" status. However, I definitely find it uncomfortable and harmful to ourselves. Telling myself try not to be EMO but to cheer and be joyful in any situation. Thank God. He has changed me successfully. I find life joyful, peaceful and hopeful though I have encountered a lot of unpleasant problems recently.
I have searched a song 'What faith can do'. It actually inspires me more than I can imagine. It is like saying about the feeling of the helpless&hopeless people today. I am one of them of course.
I believe that we can get the helping hands to rise ourselves if we ask for it.
I believe that we can find the way of hope to go on our tough journey if we seek for it.
I believe our sincere prayers will be heard and answered even praying seems ridiculous and foolish to others.
I believe the broken heart can be renewed if we are willing to unlock the door in our heart and ask for the comfort from our Lord.
I believe our spirit will be purified if we repent and ask for the excuse from God.
So? There is nothing I should have to be afraid of for nothing can separate me from Him.

Let's keep believing and don't ever say "GIVE OFF"!

What faith can do

It's a nice song with an inspiring lyrics.Have a look.

What Faith Can Do Lyrics

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you're stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

sigh

Unwittingly, blogging becomes one of my habits. I think that should be a healthy one.
Thank God that I have been transformed greatly into another kind of guy. I am blessed enough for having such an amazing change in my life. Recalling the moment I was in my secondary school's life, I am seriously shocked of God's miracle. Thank God!

Few weeks ago, my class has been the most cheerful, noisy and clever among the Form 6 classes. I am quite proud of being one of them. Yet, some of them become so ....I don't know how to describe.They take the result too seriously. They all the time get themselves busy of doing homework and exercise. They prefer to be isolated instead of getting into laughter. They look ugly and unpleasant.And they even like to skip their meal during recess time for having more time to do what they wish to do. Well..It is not my business. But somehow I feel very uncomfortable and unhappy because of them. Perhaps, I feel sick of that. Maybe, I refuse to accept the change and start to put the blame on them. However, I know it is totally not good to have such negative thinking.
Now, they merely care about the paper- back and white result paper! Relationship. Behavior. Memory. Entertainment. They never care! What the hell! Is the paper so important? More important than your joy, peace, health and soul?! I have no idea on that.
I have a lot to comment but I have no right to comment so much on that. I wish to help them by setting them free from bondage. Now I only can keep quiet...sigh....Wait for the good change patiently...

update

Sorry for my inactivity on Blogger, I haven't tried my best to share what is happening in my life recently.
I terribly met an accident. I found it terrible to happen. It was not my fault totally, but I know it was my bad luck to fill the fuel tank with merely RM10 of fuel in Desa Damai Petronus. There was a old lady driving and she was the one who foolishly brought her light green Kancil to butt the bottom of my Wira. At the same time, I was witnessing throughout the action.Walao~ If I were superman...I would like to stop all the messy things.
I was shocked after the crash, but I got seriously stunned and speechless after the second crash. She reversed her car rapidly and banged a brand-new motorcycle behind her. She just stopped driving after the second crash. Bullshit...==
The scene which I don't know how to describe is still revolving in my memory. It is my first. Thank God. I was the victim not the factor of this accident.
After the mess, I had waited for one and a half hour for the coming of the cops. By the way, the old woman asked me to bring to her house for taking her IC. On the way, she kept on chattering until I got irritated and impatient. Hu~ Since, she is alone and pitiful, I chose to be sympathetic instead of bitter. She made me realizing that loneliness is more torturing than how I have ever expected. She has no one to rely besides herself. I find no point to be bitter. Instead, I have to be thankful and grateful of the people I have around me.
Thank God. After that, the low-class cops came followed by the important traffic cops. They captured several photos for proofs and asked me to state all the process thoroughly. Hu~After that, I had to make a report in BM Balai Polis. Wa~I hate the traffic jam in BM the most. It is a waste of time! It took about half of my day to settle all the stuff. Honestly, I have learned a lot of things during the lesson.Thank God....^^I should face it with gratitude.^^ That's all my update.

Need helps

Everyone needs compassion,
Love that's never failing;
Let mercy fall on me.

Everyone needs forgiveness,
The kindness of a Saviour;
The Hope of nations.

Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.

Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again.

I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.

My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

Shine your light and let the whole world see,
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus (x2)

Christian lyrics - MIGHTY TO SAVE LYRICS - HILLSONG AUSTRALIA

It's one of the songs that has inspired me well.)
It is true...Everyone need compassion and love that is never failing.
We are vulnerable and weak. We can't do anything on something that you can never help.
We have a lot of burdens to bear in daily life. No one can get rid of all the responsibilities in this world. Unwittingly, we may be pressed, emotional and consequently depressed and even hopeless.
Why? Because we find that only we ourselves are having problems in this world. Why again? It is because everybody is not willing to reveal their own negative feelings in front of other persons. We hide them all the time and gather them together without awareness. It becomes BURDEN at the end.
More considerate and caring friends and mates we have in our live can make our life easy.^^ BURDEN is an invisible and spiritual load that we always bear. It gets more serious as life goes on. It is actually more heavy than we can withstand indeed. Can you imagine how terrible a person bearing heavy bag at all time and in all places? It is dreadfully torturing.You can't throw it! Because the only way to get rid of it is to stop the beating of your heart-die. We have to bear it!
How can we bear it?
Guys...
We need more hands to minimize burden.
A hand that pats our back when we are crying.
We need a pair of ears to minimize burden.
A pair of ears that listens to our pitiful scream.
We need comfort that can never be self-produced.
As we gather and inspire each other, the physical and spiritual strength will gain stronger!
It provides me a relation.
[The physical and spiritual strength is directly proportional to the number of considerate friends you have around you]
Keep it in mind. Whenever you are worrying and agitated, find someone to express what you feel. It will amazingly lighten your burden. +U!

Spot Check year 2

I have post a blog about spot check last year. Today, we have one spot check also.
By the way, I would like to share what happened on Wednesday.
In HSBM we have Perhimpunan every Wednesday and most of the Wednesday prefects take chances to check students' hair and fingernails.
One of my friends had been caught to a corner waiting for discipline teacher to cut his hair. After awhile, he escaped from being caught by saying that he wanted to go to washroom. However his name had been recorded down, he was called by discipline teacher. Once he came in class, his hair had been partially cut.==pity nia...
Today, prefects entered our class and had a spot check and body check. He kena again!
His hair kena cut again!His face immediately turned green.==
Last year, his hand phone had been confiscated. Now, hair being cut.hu~will be seriously agitated. Hope that he is alright now..