Jerry Ng

To be different

2011-06-01T09:19:00.000-07:00

I have stopped working as a part-time helper in CS Computer Technology after May.
It is because of my laziness but I feel like I have other things more meaningful to do. That may be more beneficial to me. But I don't really have a clear planning for my June. I think I should figure out my aim before I could think of the plan.
Before Form 6, I had a revolution in my mind-set. Self-improvement had been replaced my self-inferior in my mind for that period. Thank God for changing me little by little. The sand has been gathered to form a small massif.
Now I am in my hometown. My attitude doesn't seem like previous. It has changed somehow negatively. The passion to find the possibility of improvement is fading slowly and silently. I feel really sad and helpless of that. I get back to the nest - safety zone which greatly discourages me to search for challenges. Sometimes, I would think having my normal and peaceful life, making no special changes do not seem like a mistake. But, time flies, I would ask myself - What have I done?.Nothing.
I have watched a tv program - good tv just now. The sermons given really inspired me to improve and get myself different from others. The pastor said:' The situation somehow may influence your passion..passion of job and other things else. ' I asked my self, is it impossible for me to make changes in my hometown? Can't I just overcome the surrounding influence to just get improved?
Nick Vujicic is an inspiring man without arms and legs. However, his life is terribly good. He has inspired thousand of people with his story, experience and attitude. In fact logically he should be the one who needs encouragement. But he overcomes the physical limits to live a life without limit. I know! I read his book. I got inspired seriously while I was reading his book. However, the effect got faded with time. I just realized I am still the same after a long time I have read about his story - his book. Feel dreadfully ashamed.
Well..it's time to cool down and think what I can do to help others or improve myself. May God bless me..I need another change in my life.

with everything we have

2011-05-27T20:15:00.000-07:00

My blogger has been blank for several months. I feel nothing but a little bit shameful of myself.Finally, I take initiative to fill something over here.It's ridiculous to say that I have no time to write blogger during my long-term holidays as I could keep on posting before holidays.
Life is full of contradiction in fact. You would be willing to earn money, but at the same time, you are not happy to spend your time greatly for that. You wish to have more time for your own self.
Now, I feel like having no time to play after I started to work. Therefore I tell myself to cherish my youth by doing what I like and ought to do. By the way, money does matter this time.==

Back to the topic, I have heard a story about a man and a wife.
I am pretty sure that is a real story.^^
Most of the days, both of them quarrel with each other. The man expects the wife to do housework properly. He urged his wife to keep this and that. But the wife doesn't really have time to do everything. She has other things else to do. She feels burdened and stressful with her husband behavior. Most of the night, she cries sadly in secret while the man feels unsatisfied. This unwittingly becomes the unhealthy routine in their life.

Then man did nothing wrong. He just wants to have a comfortable home. That's why he urged his wife to fix up the mess. But the wife is unable to fulfill.
The wife did nothing wrong. She just looks for rest of mind and physics. But the man keeps on commanding.Why don't the man fixes the mess up? Let the wife feels free. Why don't the wife try to change her mind and not to magnify her sight to the problem?
Please try to do goods to others with everything we have.

Feel Good!

2011-02-28T21:58:00.000-08:00

The days seem very shiny and hopeful after 21 Feb 2011 where my STPM result came out.
I am teaching Form 4 students mathematics every Monday night in Sri Nibong Tuition Center. Some of the them used not to pay attention somehow in my class. Perhaps I look like a student rather than a teacher.haha~
However, I still help them by guiding them how to solve the math problems which are very annoying and boring to them. This became my job.
Last night, as usual I teach them at Monday night. The air conditioner, old marker pan and dirty white board were still playing their instrumental roles in the small class. But there were something different. They all turned up in my lesson without being late.
It was what really shocked me first. I was pretty sure that they knew I have got a good STPM result cus I know Mr and Mrs Teoh would spread the good news to the students.
Teach..teach..teach..No one sounded disrespectful.
Before I finished teaching, one of the students voiced out something like : 'teacher, how could you improve your language?'.
I turned to him curiously,wondering how much he knows about me.
I held the marker pen with both of my hands and started to talk to them informally.
I realized that Sir has ever shared with them something about me before.
At the end of my lesson, the students shared about their problems that influence them from being hardworking in the class. Some of them wanted to have a change in their life. It sounded great indeed.
In order to get them ready for the examination, we decided to have revision tomorrow night.
I liked the way they talked to me and listened to me last night because it made me to feel greatly respected. The feeling was great and indescribable. I liked the way they dismissed last night, they joked to each other before leaving by saying :'ei..change change!'. Even thought that might seem like a joke rather than a encouragement, but I sincerely hope they really help themselves to improve.
Wish them all the best in future^^

( for those who have ever helped me to improve myself, I give thanks to each of everyone of you sincerely! )

Thanks giving

2011-02-24T06:59:00.000-08:00

Time flies as usual, neither speeds up nor slows down.
And here I am, writing my post after a few days I received my STPM result.
Seriously, I give thank to God wholeheartedly. He is really...awesome!
Bible said : God use ordinary person to do his extraordinary plan.
I think I have done an extraordinary thing just a few days before. I got an excellent STPM result which has made my parents being proud of his son-me.
I hope the Lord in heaven would also feel being glorified.^^
I have never thought that one day I will achieve something big like this. Maybe, other people may find it reasonable, but ...it is a really big change in me just in these several years. I just can give thanks to him and praise him.
21/2 was the day I received my STPM result and also the last day for my dad to do radiotherapy. I wish that he will never get into the stupid radiotherapy room and being scanned by the stupid X-ray machine after that.
Thank God.For everything I have now, I give thanks to you!^^

Be still

2011-01-25T03:10:00.000-08:00

It has taken me quite a long time to get rid of the habit of getting upset.

I have been involved in a complicated problem happened among my classmates last year. There was a classmate knowing nothing about the problem. For some purposes, I intended to talk with them. But they rejected me by saying that "sometime it is good to know nothing instead of everything." I was speechless of his opinion. Now, I could understand fully what he wanted at that time. He wanted to be irresponsible and free of the trouble. He wanted to live out of burden.
Sometime, being responsible is not an enjoyable stuff for a normal person. I have frequently got into the state of weariness in such situation I am having now. why? Because I am now responsible of this situation. The more I get responsible, the more I get worried and burdened. At the time, I couldn't withstand the pressure, I would blame in secret and I have ever thought to escape from that. I blame God! What on earth asked me to be responsible of such suffering situation! I was unsatisfied of the change that He gave me after F6 indeed. Why?
I kept thinking why everyday since I got responsible of that. Harboring the dissatisfaction especially at night time. The school days were nice and wonderful. I never felt in pressure on studying actually. I read bible and praise the Lord almost every night at the period. But somehow I feel in high pressure at home, I had stopped praying and even singing praises to Him in my bathroom. Cus I don't understand why.
I kept asking even though I know that knowing why couldn't really help me to get this situation better. I just wanted to blame showing that it is unfair.
Time flies. I got the answer...no...It's inspiration.
I read the book written by Nick Vujicic. I realized and believe that there must be a purpose for this problem happening though I don't really know about that.
Whatever problem happens, you just pray and praise.(believe that God has his own almighty plan beyond our expectation to show his mighty power and love.)

With this beautiful reason,I will Go with FAITH,PEACE,JOY,HOPE and LOVE^^
cus Bible says, Be Still and know that I am God.

Will be blessed.

2010-12-29T01:10:00.000-08:00

Few days ago, I have watched GoodTV which has successfully inspired several times when I was in bad mood.

A sermon given.
A story was given to show how God bless people.
Spider is a good and smart hunter among the series of insect.
Its web is sticky and acted as a weapon for spider to hunt.
I have seen a scorpion being hunted by a spider in National Geography. 1st, scorpion unwittingly got stuck in the sticky web. It tried to get away of the web but finally it's whole body got wrapped up. The spider got itself slowly closer to the scorpion and injected poison in the scorpion's body.(to paralyze the scorpion) After several minutes, spider only got extra closer to the scorpion and brought it into spider's hole.

A question given. Why doesn't the spider get stuck by its own web?
This is because the feet of sniper produce oil which helps it to walk on the web without being stuck.
God bless this spider by giving it the ability to produce oil.

God bless everything in the world. He love His creation especially human.
I will be blessed. I believe! Hallelujah!

please help, Lord!

2010-12-29T00:43:00.000-08:00

Thank God...
I was not in high pressure while I was studying Form6. I quite enjoyed the life in HSBM.
Thank God again...I am in high pressure in my family.I have encountered a lot of problems.

1st.
I am having bad relationship with my younger brother.
This caused several serious conflicts happening in a few weeks ago. As a result, I got into a big trouble. I am being regarded like a spark which can cause a huge fire in my family. It's like a bullshit. However, I have admitted my fault of all these stuffs. I am trying my best to endure all the nonsense made by my brother in my family. It's torturing.

2nd
My parents are having communication problems. My dad, a bad-tempered man who is used to command makes my mum, a submissive woman suffering. She gets weaker and weaker everyday due to all the housework and tuition. I am trying my best to reduce her physical burdens by helping her doing some housework. However, she gets tired and upset always because of my dad's bad attitude. This is one of the things that makes me feel very helpless. I wonder if I can do anything to change the situation.

3rd
I have been told about my family's financial condition.
I need to get mature and sensible and figure out what I should do while my younger brother still enjoys his life with his gf now. this is also the problem that I can only endure and take it easy.

I feel in pressure seriously...
please help, Lord.

感恩

2010-12-18T20:31:00.000-08:00

过了很长的一段日子，我现在才终于打开这个blogger，更新更新。
由于小弟的英文不是很好，所以我想尽量用我熟悉的语言-华语来表达我这感恩的心情。
神，我很感恩。

对于那些认识我近况的朋友，我相信你们都挺了解我走过了的路。
无论如何，我想跟大家分享。分享那奇妙的恩典。

我原是一个没有责任感的男孩，我有着可爱的天真和可怜的无知。在中学，学业与家人好像没在我心里占不到50%的位置。（我相信很多少年人都是这样，我只是其中一个=P）
一直以来都没有方向，很多时后我问自己到底为什么会在这边。
缺乏成就感的我，在球场上建立自信心，在童军活动培养傲气。缺乏爱的我，到处寻人欢欣，寻人的认同。这种少年普通得不得了。
在寻求爱的路途中，我遇到了许许多多的问题，做了很多鸟事情，带给朋友很多粪问题。
那时的我很低落，很不自由。不自由可能是因为大头里面有很多的歪理，背上有很多负担。
东西就一直这样不停地循环发生。
过不久，我对这些事觉得累了。于是，转移方向去依靠神。依靠一个我只认识不久的神。从那时候开始，一切奇妙的变化开始了。

在F5的最后黄金时期，我善用时间，夺取我最满意的成绩。当了一整子的兵，认识各样的人，让我在心灵上何思想上成长了不少。之后，我自己不知不觉找到了方向，得到了引领，就企图想读KDU。虽然如此，那时的环境非常不鼓励我在那儿求学。
过后奇妙的得知有HSBM的存在，就毫不犹豫的转到哪儿上学。那时，我住宿在我的亲戚家。那儿有特别的优待。那就是免费的午餐和晚餐。（因为亲戚是开经济饭店的。）因此，我的生活费就这样减少很多。
哈哈！其实我在几天以内做了转校的决定。虽然那时我不知道前面会有什么问题在等着我去面对，但是我有那种莫名其妙的感觉说：别怕，不会有事的。那种莫名其妙的平安说服我就这样懵懵懂懂地转校，换了环境。过后我才察觉，我的路...就像是被铺平了似的，像是被策划一样，顺利得不像话。我那时候非常感恩，非常感动。神竟然为我这么普通，又败类的黄麒俊安排好去路，照亮了整片路。

在亲戚家呆足了十个月，我就因为某些缘故从亲戚家搬了出来自己住。于是，搬到了朋友家附近的一间房子住宿。感谢神，我受到朋友家人的帮助和恩惠，让我的生活变得比较轻松，比较快乐。他们的存在也让我的生活不会变的很乏味，反而非常非常的精彩。^^在途中，我父亲得了大病。让我非常的担忧和烦恼。由于我不是医生，唯有祷告祈求才能让我觉得没那么无助与不安。感谢神，在医学上来看，我爸的病情还在控制下。^^相信很快就会好起来。

我对我现在所拥有的一切，对神献上无法形容的感谢。以前的我根本没想到会有这样的一天，没想到我会变成这样的一个‘麒哥’^^。感恩，愿你继续赐福！=D

Don't you give up now.

2010-09-26T01:08:00.000-07:00

Now, I am very confused.I'm confused of what perspective I should look my life in?
optimistic or pessimistic?
I don't have the idea of why we prefer to be sentimental and hopeless. Like to set ourselves in an "emo" status. However, I definitely find it uncomfortable and harmful to ourselves. Telling myself try not to be EMO but to cheer and be joyful in any situation. Thank God. He has changed me successfully. I find life joyful, peaceful and hopeful though I have encountered a lot of unpleasant problems recently.
I have searched a song 'What faith can do'. It actually inspires me more than I can imagine. It is like saying about the feeling of the helpless&hopeless people today. I am one of them of course.
I believe that we can get the helping hands to rise ourselves if we ask for it.
I believe that we can find the way of hope to go on our tough journey if we seek for it.
I believe our sincere prayers will be heard and answered even praying seems ridiculous and foolish to others.
I believe the broken heart can be renewed if we are willing to unlock the door in our heart and ask for the comfort from our Lord.
I believe our spirit will be purified if we repent and ask for the excuse from God.
So? There is nothing I should have to be afraid of for nothing can separate me from Him.

Let's keep believing and don't ever say "GIVE OFF"!

What faith can do

2010-09-26T01:05:00.000-07:00

It's a nice song with an inspiring lyrics.Have a look.

What Faith Can Do Lyrics

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you're stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

sigh

2010-09-03T20:23:00.000-07:00

Unwittingly, blogging becomes one of my habits. I think that should be a healthy one.
Thank God that I have been transformed greatly into another kind of guy. I am blessed enough for having such an amazing change in my life. Recalling the moment I was in my secondary school's life, I am seriously shocked of God's miracle. Thank God!

Few weeks ago, my class has been the most cheerful, noisy and clever among the Form 6 classes. I am quite proud of being one of them. Yet, some of them become so ....I don't know how to describe.They take the result too seriously. They all the time get themselves busy of doing homework and exercise. They prefer to be isolated instead of getting into laughter. They look ugly and unpleasant.And they even like to skip their meal during recess time for having more time to do what they wish to do. Well..It is not my business. But somehow I feel very uncomfortable and unhappy because of them. Perhaps, I feel sick of that. Maybe, I refuse to accept the change and start to put the blame on them. However, I know it is totally not good to have such negative thinking.
Now, they merely care about the paper- back and white result paper! Relationship. Behavior. Memory. Entertainment. They never care! What the hell! Is the paper so important? More important than your joy, peace, health and soul?! I have no idea on that.
I have a lot to comment but I have no right to comment so much on that. I wish to help them by setting them free from bondage. Now I only can keep quiet...sigh....Wait for the good change patiently...

update

2010-08-21T04:15:00.000-07:00

Sorry for my inactivity on Blogger, I haven't tried my best to share what is happening in my life recently.
I terribly met an accident. I found it terrible to happen. It was not my fault totally, but I know it was my bad luck to fill the fuel tank with merely RM10 of fuel in Desa Damai Petronus. There was a old lady driving and she was the one who foolishly brought her light green Kancil to butt the bottom of my Wira. At the same time, I was witnessing throughout the action.Walao~ If I were superman...I would like to stop all the messy things.
I was shocked after the crash, but I got seriously stunned and speechless after the second crash. She reversed her car rapidly and banged a brand-new motorcycle behind her. She just stopped driving after the second crash. Bullshit...==
The scene which I don't know how to describe is still revolving in my memory. It is my first. Thank God. I was the victim not the factor of this accident.
After the mess, I had waited for one and a half hour for the coming of the cops. By the way, the old woman asked me to bring to her house for taking her IC. On the way, she kept on chattering until I got irritated and impatient. Hu~ Since, she is alone and pitiful, I chose to be sympathetic instead of bitter. She made me realizing that loneliness is more torturing than how I have ever expected. She has no one to rely besides herself. I find no point to be bitter. Instead, I have to be thankful and grateful of the people I have around me.
Thank God. After that, the low-class cops came followed by the important traffic cops. They captured several photos for proofs and asked me to state all the process thoroughly. Hu~After that, I had to make a report in BM Balai Polis. Wa~I hate the traffic jam in BM the most. It is a waste of time! It took about half of my day to settle all the stuff. Honestly, I have learned a lot of things during the lesson.Thank God....^^I should face it with gratitude.^^ That's all my update.

Need helps

2010-08-14T01:53:00.000-07:00

Everyone needs compassion,
Love that's never failing;
Let mercy fall on me.

Everyone needs forgiveness,
The kindness of a Saviour;
The Hope of nations.

Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.

Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again.

I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.

My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

Shine your light and let the whole world see,
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus (x2)

Christian lyrics - MIGHTY TO SAVE LYRICS - HILLSONG AUSTRALIA

It's one of the songs that has inspired me well.)
It is true...Everyone need compassion and love that is never failing.
We are vulnerable and weak. We can't do anything on something that you can never help.
We have a lot of burdens to bear in daily life. No one can get rid of all the responsibilities in this world. Unwittingly, we may be pressed, emotional and consequently depressed and even hopeless.
Why? Because we find that only we ourselves are having problems in this world. Why again? It is because everybody is not willing to reveal their own negative feelings in front of other persons. We hide them all the time and gather them together without awareness. It becomes BURDEN at the end.
More considerate and caring friends and mates we have in our live can make our life easy.^^ BURDEN is an invisible and spiritual load that we always bear. It gets more serious as life goes on. It is actually more heavy than we can withstand indeed. Can you imagine how terrible a person bearing heavy bag at all time and in all places? It is dreadfully torturing.You can't throw it! Because the only way to get rid of it is to stop the beating of your heart-die. We have to bear it!
How can we bear it?
Guys...
We need more hands to minimize burden.
A hand that pats our back when we are crying.
We need a pair of ears to minimize burden.
A pair of ears that listens to our pitiful scream.
We need comfort that can never be self-produced.
As we gather and inspire each other, the physical and spiritual strength will gain stronger!
It provides me a relation.
[The physical and spiritual strength is directly proportional to the number of considerate friends you have around you]
Keep it in mind. Whenever you are worrying and agitated, find someone to express what you feel. It will amazingly lighten your burden. +U!

Spot Check year 2

2010-08-13T01:35:00.000-07:00

I have post a blog about spot check last year. Today, we have one spot check also.
By the way, I would like to share what happened on Wednesday.
In HSBM we have Perhimpunan every Wednesday and most of the Wednesday prefects take chances to check students' hair and fingernails.
One of my friends had been caught to a corner waiting for discipline teacher to cut his hair. After awhile, he escaped from being caught by saying that he wanted to go to washroom. However his name had been recorded down, he was called by discipline teacher. Once he came in class, his hair had been partially cut.==pity nia...
Today, prefects entered our class and had a spot check and body check. He kena again!
His hair kena cut again!His face immediately turned green.==
Last year, his hand phone had been confiscated. Now, hair being cut.hu~will be seriously agitated. Hope that he is alright now..

Update

2010-08-07T02:17:00.000-07:00

Wow~The form 6 monthly exam in HSBM has been over.haha...It doesn't make me feel really relieved. Perhaps I have been already got used of it. Once I got the paper, I just figured out the answers and filled the questions up as soon as possible. We will be nervous during examination but I told myself that it is totally useless for me to panic at that important moment. I must finish it without fears and hesitations. Thank God....I don't have bad feeling after the exam even after the announcement of the results.^^
I have asked many classmates around about the change of their life after taking form 6. They all are really moody when talking about that. But I know that they need someone for them to express their dissatisfaction. It is actually good to see my friends changing their life for their future's sake. I believe that they will be blessed in future. In contrast, those stubborn people will deserve a tragedy at the end.
People need comfort...sufficient and consistent comfort. We feel lonely once we are having problems. The sense of helplessness may overwhelm us completely whenever we are getting into a big trouble. We need helps...
My friends...They are having relationship problem and most of the time they are emotionally unstable. One of them has been absent to school about 3 weeks after breaking with her bf. She seemingly likes to be isolated but in fact she searches for helps in secret all the time. Some of them are having disordered time management due to various distractions in their daily life. It often makes them struggling and suffering. Even those people who got 11 As in SPM admitted that they are not able to carry on the F6's life well alone. We are merely human with a vulnerable flesh. In order to gain power and strength, we need to undergo the tough trial together.
Besides that, I believe friends in other places may be having their tough moment. Wish you all the best my friends...Fight for your future...^^+U!!!

Thirst

2010-07-16T07:58:00.000-07:00

We eat for satisfying our appetite and the stomach as well.
We drink because we are thirsty and we need something to satisfy the terrible thirst.
Now, we can find drinks of many kinds anywhere. This happens due to a variety of earthly demands.
However, you know our spirit will get thirsty, do you? What should be the thing needed to pour on it in order to solve the thirst?
Don't pour the wrong thing on it....otherwise you will get more thirsty than how you ever imagine.

Your health

2010-07-09T10:02:00.001-07:00

Today, I have watched "Eclipse" at Sunway Carnival GSC. I heard other people said that it will contain more fighting and action. I found no idea how fantastic they can fight in this romantic and unique love story. I left no expectation before I watched it.
There are many 'body contact' instead of 'beautiful physical motion'.Er em...What we should expect should be kissing, hugging and whispering in the movie.^^ Because it is 'Eclipse' ok?
There are many sentences of script which are very touching and romantic. However, some people may find them very ark...nauseating...=(
I find a sentence...The vampire, Edward told Bella while he found that Victoria was approaching her. He explained to her and said :" Your safety is everything to me."
Ya...here it is. I am going to say almost the same thing to my dad.But it has to be modified before I say.hehe...
My parents have told me that they will give me whatever I wish which is obtainable if I got a good STPM result.erm...Studying is just for my own....and it is my duty in fact..I don't really need any award or what...The result is the award for me.
If they really can fulfill whatever I wish, I wish they can be peaceful, healthy and joyful in future.
Dad...Your health is the thing I am regarding the most now. Be healthy and strong!
sorry...I can do nothing but to pray for you patiently and sincerely.sorry...

Are you feeling ashamed of me?

2010-07-04T02:21:00.000-07:00

Having a good talk with a friend.He is my younger brother's friend actually. He asked me a very good question that I have to helplessly admit my failure."The relationship between you and your brother is bad, isn't it?". I replied, yes.
In the conversation, he told me my bro wanted to be different from me.
I have analyzed it before. I know there have been many people comparing me with him before. It should be very unsatisfactory and unfair to him. Since, his spirit to strive for victory is weak...he chose to be different from me so that other people are not able to compare him with me and he could give himself a seemingly acceptable excuse as well.Such a self-approving...
He himself got problem...I am just one of the factor I think...It is helpless for me to just look at him going down the dangerous hill.
My brother,
You have done what stupid things your second brother did. You made yourself a fashionable hair style and have bought yourself a huge lady bag. However, your elder brother has become more steady and honest. His hair style now is simple and good-looking. He is a real man now. Are you going to be like him in future also?

Melody in our life

2010-07-02T22:52:00.000-07:00

We all are actually musicians! We have composed our own kind of melody in our life. And we have changed it several time before.^^
You may not understand what I said over here, so let me clear your doubts here.
Melody...There are many kinds of melody with different rhythms.
The melody in our life greatly represents the contain of our daily life.
In order to make the melody in our life be appreciated, it cannot be insipid but be unique and rhythmic. It cannot be too rhythmic otherwise it will be disordered and irritating. However, a melodious music without theme sounds meaningless.
Most of us haven't been a good musicians. For we haven't really knew how to compose a good melody we wish to have in our life. What kind of life you wanted to have? The thing you can do to get it is to change your melody in your life.and please...set a gorgeous theme for your melody...

I am angry!

2010-06-24T05:31:00.000-07:00

I am here having my school day. As usual, the duty to bring our ass out of the bed and make our way to school before 725 am has to be fulfilled during weekdays. ^^ What a lame routine It should be? But I enjoy it seriously...^^ really..
I had the midyear test before the June Holidays...I was quite confident actually.. Cus I have prepared for that quite enough...hehe...
Well~Today, all the score of results have been known and I am very thankful of what I am having...^^For I know...I won't have such honor if I still live for me.
The higher score of academic subjects,the more honor to the students now. It proves how intellegrent and brilliant they are. However, somehow they will never feel satisfied of that for they keep comparing with one anothers.
Now what? There has been a long time I didnt get agitated by anyone or anything. I am kind as how people around me know that. But somehow I find my kindness is just a weakness.
I was having my lesson in my school as usual. During chemistry lesson, I noticed my friend hasn't made his homework done. I just teased the guy by saying something about his uncompleted work. At the moment,I joked, there was another guy interrupting the conversation. That was very offensive...
I have totally no idea of why he could say such offensive words to me. It is not hurt...but agitative enough!! He said :" shut up la you~! What for you did a lot of homeworks? You are still losing us!" I was like what?! After that, I immediately
turned my face greenish black..Meanwhile, all the students turn their face to me and wonder what response I would give.Silent~~I just kept silent and added a joke to end the conversation.
At that time, my mind was blank but filled by those offensive words he has uttered in front of me. Bullshit!! I was regret of having my kindness! Should I just stand up and scream aloud in front of him? Should I just ...I have no idea of what BIG and drastic reaction an angry people would take an that situation.haha...so ...sad...==
Just very angry...very very ANGRY! If I didn't keep the case in mind, I think I will be alright. But once, it appears in my little mind, It will be a boom...an atom boom...a nuclear boom also!!!
well~ However, I find no regret on my cool reaction.I didn't make any conflict happen..I am not going to show him how strong and intellegent I am. I am going to show him that the humility will raise a person up to a climax. God will bless those who is humble and hard-working not those who is boasful and prideful. Wait and see, man.

What is playing the role?

2010-06-11T01:29:00.000-07:00

There are four main nouns that we usually use to describe directions. They are south, east west and north. However, the people on the earth are generally separated into two groups, that are western and eastern. The people live in east and west are almost different. They have different life style, culture, belief,color of skin and eyes, thought, history and on and on. However, they are human.
So far, eastern people is trying to be western people. They listen to English song of many kinds. It is not wrong to listen to the English songs but they just imitate what western people used to do foolishly with no reason. I wonder why.
lets' talk about song^^
Normally, we find pop, hip hop, R&B song interesting. Those styles of song are mostly from west. The agitating bass produced by the rhythmic drumbeat is background music of the western song that attract us the most. We will be steamed up if we listen to a song with such agitating background music. Even though the lyrics there have no meaning, the music will still play the role.^^ We may like the music but not the song. Since, we like them ,so we search for them. That is why I find many friends started listening to the western songs..I mean English songs.
One fine day, my friend and I were going to a place by my car. We listen to radio and a song was playing. My friend said that the music is good, but the lyric doesn't bring any meaning to him. He was not even satisfied about the singing skill of the singer. However, the song is the famous song recently. What is playing the role? The music or the song? It shows that most people don't really care about the contain but the atmosphere the music could bring to them.
I like the song 甜蜜蜜 by 邓丽君. simple but meaningful...LOL!who appreciate the song as well?

So Lucky....==

2010-06-09T03:22:00.000-07:00

haha! I don't want to laugh actually..But I just want...tease myself as much as possible. It is just fuuny...haha!Guess what?
Have you ever seen a guy encountering an accident just 1 minute after?
I have just encountered a terrible accident.=)
Since my brother now is having problem...at the same time, my mother is worrying.As a son, I would like to accompany her doing something so that she can just put the problem aside for awhile. I asked my mom swimming with me this evening.
It seems like a wonderful moment for us to swim in this...how to describe the weather...haha...a nice evening...
My mom and I reached the pool (in a taman around Pai Teik School).
We entered and put the thing aside. Before swimming, it is advisable to warm up our body so that our tendon will be flexible. After finishing the warming up, I went to bath and wash my body. Afterward, something terrible is going to arise. I was very eager to get myself into the pool. haha! I walked toward the pool by making several big paces. There are several iron branches on the ground. It is to let people open the huge brick by holding the iron branches. Within the paces, my right feet was swum and side-way struck on a iron branch which is not covered by soft rubber. Since the flesh is vulnerable, the iron penetrate. It caused an injury.
It seems like a little bit complicated...
let me summarize! I have just got injured! BULLSHIT!!!!!! DAMN!!!!!
I don't want to continue saying the matter...I find it terrible! oh...meanwhile, I am speechless...totally speechless... Now just setting in the room...with a wrapped-up right leg....EMO MAX=(

The sea~

2010-06-09T02:10:00.001-07:00

I am here-Nibong Tebal,officially having my 2 weeks holidays.

I am very upset to know that the streamyx network supply has been cancelled.Since my stupid brother applied a new package which is just available for university students, the network supply will be cancelled for a while…erm a week (DAMN LAME!!!!)

Having fun in Penang Island before coming back to my hometown.hehe…It is fair enough cus I have been nerdy for a long time…It is time to play around and relax…^^

Just came back from island, entering the smelly hall of my house…
My mom stopped my pace and started to talk with me…(time to gossip…)There are several things happened recently….walao eh!BGR problems...

The youngest and eldest among my brothers are having problems in their relationship.==I don’t care what the ending will be…I just concern about my parents’ feeling. My dear parents have been emotionally influenced. Haiz~ It is just torturing for them to see their sons suffering in relationship. I was told that both of them cream aloud during night…== Is it worthwhile for them to do so?

The case about my youngest one is not worth to be mentioned. Such a waste of time….=P I might be teasing while I am talking about that..haha! He will be alright soon by getting another one after this pair is broken. ^^

The case for the eldest one is just a little bit serious.==
My father has advised my brother getting ready to look for a new one.^^ For he thinks that the same problem will happen in future as long as the girl’s nature still remains. What is the problem? There is a third person interrupting their relationship.

Well~ If I am not mistaken, elder pair has been together for almost five years. How could it last so long? And why would such problem arise? Theoretically, they are considered as a stable pair which is supposed to…erm….get married soon. ^^ ya…supposed..keke… It is shocking for such problem arising. Nobody has ever expected. ==

Many people could make their journal further and even more brilliant if they can make a change whenever a chance is given. But most of them could not make it, because they have sacrificed the chances to get what they should not get early. ^^ they spend their time to keep something which is temporary. Meanwhile, the chance is being sacrificed.

My parents and I are all outsiders. We can never interrupt and do anything for helping that.
On the way going to Sunway Carnival today, they have told me a lot. My father suggested me to seek for a girl who is polite. =D I ask: Like mummy? He laughed. =)

Brothers… A lot of girls appreciate such a man like you…always remember there are plenty of fishes in the sea. ^^ the sea~~~~~~

No need to be like that~

2010-05-27T20:32:00.000-07:00

I am having my mid-year exam. Teacher said this should be a test which is able to see whether we can score well in STPM or not. The words tense most of the PAB students up. I can feel that.
Since the syllabuses are terribly wide,it seems like an impossible mission to score very very well in this mid-year exam. There have been many students falling into depression and despair since they have started the journey of STPM. During such trial of frustration, what is the thing or attitude we should lean on to complete the journey with joy and peace? Some of them choose to lean on their own determination...some just give up every thing...some of them just don't even take it as a big deal.
Trial is like a chance for me to glorify the name of God.so? Do we have to merely depend on our own ability and effort to score well during exam?Take other people as your target to chase after in term of academia?honor him with our effort?
All the time hiding yourself from the society, making sure that nobody is going to disturb you?
All the time look at the book without making any joke with friends during class?
Asking your friends whether they have started preparing for the exam?(so that you will find it more comfortable when they said they haven't?or more competitive when they said they have well prepared.)
Looking around your friends studying?to see what they are studying and see whether you have read through it or not?
All the ways above are not healthy...and will never give glory to the Lord.
I think the only way to gloryify God's name is to putting down all our pride...purely follow him with the humble spirit to the kingdom of God.
He love us so much...hope us to Just lay all the thing to him...leave no worries in our life...
It is not easy to do what I have uttered.I find it very hard to do so, since the surrounding people and the peer pressure will unwittingly keep you from doing that. You may get involved into this academical battle without any sense of awareness.
I feel very lost among them...

calming down myself in my silent room...
persuading myself with the words of bible..
figuring out the truth...
knowing that peace and joy....
is the precious jewel that God long to give us...
Jumping out of the box and seek for them!
Thank God....thank you...

Happy Mother's Day

2010-05-08T04:36:00.000-07:00

Wish all the mothers having good health and a peaceful life.
Happy Mother's Day...^^

I noticed one of my friends was worried of figuring out a gift for her mother recently.
She asked me what I am going to present to my mother in this week.erm...That is a good question which I don't ever bother.I was speechless that time.
Last night, I made a call to my eldest brother and discussed with him about the celebration.
Finally, we decided to buy a cake for our last-minute planning.
I found myself very thoughtless and I wonder how my friend could be that worried of the gift.
I thought maybe it is due to the fact that I am a guy...But that never be a reasonable factor.
Over here, there is a question. How can we express our love to someone we really love? By giving a valuable present or just a kiss?
Gift somehow is necessary for us to built up a good relationship with our parents, relatives, friends and even life partner.
However, love them with our sincere heart....with no purpose...
I love you...Mum...^^since you love me 1st...

Time to wake up....

2010-04-24T18:49:00.000-07:00

Time to wake up..is the time to get conscious and ready to continue the boring routine in our life.
ya.The routine will be boring and not interesting anymore if you keep on doing something almost the same. Sometime, we choose to take something or someone to be our reason for living. Maybe you regard that as a hope in your life, the source. It is sad to say that you deserve depression in the end when the thing you look for no longer exists. However, you should make up your mind when you are getting into such problem. Figure out what is the reason to live, to keep on breathing.^^There is a tip here.
A film here. CITY OF ANGLE
The actor inside is Nicolas Cage, a well-known actor.^^
He acts as an angle-a Messenger of God.
.In the beginning, he found living is such a wonderful thing in the world. Human can eat and feel the taste of the food using tongue. The most special and precious thing is....LOVE. They can love each other and the feeling of being loved and loving is really indescribable. He longs to experience such wonderful feeling. After that, he fell in love with a beautiful woman. Since his willingness to live with her was very strong. he finally decided to become a human.
At the end, the girl he loves was dead. It made him got extremely depressed and regretful of his decision. He rather not to smell her fair...not to touch her face...but....the sense of depression is just intense. After that, he is like having no hope of living. However, after awhile, he noticed that there are thousand of things he can cherish....can give thanks to the God.
What a good ending to encourage us...It is inspiring...^^
There are many educational messages could be brought in the story if you watch the film seriously.

Home

2010-03-30T08:58:00.000-07:00

At home,
you would feel comfortable at every single corner of it.
You would have either a cup of tea or milo that is prepared by a woman.
You would be forced to have your meal though you don't really feel like to eat.
You would appreciate the meal and wonder how difficult and long it is for her to prepare.
You would read your own news paper and chill out at the hall as if you have nothing to bother with.
You would also have no tendency to hide yourself from anyone at home. .
You would feel like to go home when you are away.
You would be pleasant to be there...^^

unforgetable memories

2010-03-30T08:44:00.000-07:00

Someone is leaving.For his future and studies...
The message to invite him playing basketball is no longer necessary to be sent.
Meanwhile, I realized that there have been so many friends whom don't really contact with me as if they have left away from me so long.^^But they are not really too far from me...Maybe we are in the same country, hometown and even garden.But somehow I feel that they have left me away for a long while.
I wish them all the best over here. Hope that I will be the one they occasionally miss.
Of course, they are leaving...But something has been conserved-they are unforgetable memories.^^

The court

2010-03-25T05:16:00.000-07:00

The court of basketball-the place where we used to have fun with friends.
In order to keep myself healthy, exercise is required of course.
I find it interesting playing basketball...I have learnt alot of things from that.
Exercise makes people get more emotionally stable and conscious. That is what we need. Anyhow, people nowadays underestimate it.
One day, I lost a game and were forced to set aside cooling down the temperature of my big ass.
There was a man setting beside me. To be sociable, I took initiative and started our conversation. A simple question, I asked. How come the court look so empty? No people meh?
He answered, oh...they all are working.haha...
I see...haha!What? I thought we-the youth should be the one who have the responsibility to fill up the basketball court instead of the Court of Law.==
It is sad to say that...but truly I can give nothing to deny my own statement.
Boys!Where are you all?Stop flirting with girls or playing with the stupid and lifeless computer! Come on! Get rid of the manacles of BGR and the chains of vanity!Get in the court of BOYS!!^^This should be the real and healthy way to spend the autumn of youth.
I am looking for the day's coming, the day that the court-land of boys would be filled with cheerful laughter and the healthy sweat greatly wet the ground.^^

say Hi or Bye

2010-03-21T05:18:00.000-07:00

say 'Hi' or 'Bye'? Which one I prefer. None of them.
Why? Normally people may prefer to say 'Hi' rather than 'Bye'.
Saying 'Hi' represents a beginning, while saying 'Bye' represent an end. Is it?
However, 'Hi' and 'Bye' both are one. Without 'hi', saying 'bye' will no longer has its own meaning and vice versa. ^^
Having no sorrow to say 'Bye'. Instead, having hope to long for the moment for us to say 'Hi'.^^

Sad case

2010-03-15T02:11:00.000-07:00

Straight to the point
This essay has no offense to any people and anything.
I am merely willing to share.
I have an aunt who has got married many years. She has a good-looking, smart, tolerant and hardworking husband. Both of them have 3 healthy children who are in primary school. Theoretically, they both should be quite a happy family.^^
She has been supported to learn English and become a promoter something like that. It should be a very nice plan. That is why our big family has no comment on it.
Well~Online learning is such an effective way to learn English. I am now also learning English in fact. Likewise, we have no comment about how she learns.
However, she knew a guy, a man from the internet. She encountered him occasionally or deliberately? I have no idea.==
And somehow she is just falling love with the man that she has never seen before.
She merely knew that the man is a professor and staying at a foreign country around Australia.In their conversation, the man promised that he will give her a brand-new well-being.
Damn Shit!How could the promise be real? He can give nothing to prove the reality of the promise. Somehow, she believed...She is now still believing....
Many doubts appear.
Has she looked for a brand-new marriage for a long time? and WHY?
What is the thing that is truly unsatisfactory in her life?
Is the husband a gamble who sells all the property to pawnshop?
Is their children all handicapped and bad-looking?
I don't think so.
The man will just flirt with her and regard it as an entertainment. An entertainment with no commitment. He will just tease her in front of the computer while he is writing something romantic and tempting. He will never take any real action to make her stupid dream come true.
Her willingness of having illusive extramartial relation has been announced and discovered.==
Now, she is not staying with her husband. She seems to have no regret of making such decision even though all the members are counseling her. How could it be like that? It is seriously disappointing. God bless and forgive them...
In this case, I realized people would do something extremely terrible when their eagerness overwhelms their rationality.
My dear friends...Don't get desperate of something. You will definitely regret at last.

Vanity

2010-03-14T23:06:00.000-07:00

Date: 15-3-2010
Time: 2:09 p.m.
Moment: When I am supposed to work in my dad's company
Mode: ponteng kerja

I know I am just a wretch who finds working in company is terribly boring. Just sorry for being such a wretch.==
Before several years, our big family's company had no much business customers. That time, my parents and relatives were worried about the business. The problem always made them to knit their own brows throughout the years.
Now, they have already made the business stable and besides there are several permanent customers dealing with them. The demand of high quantity becomes the problem. The demand is now high, however the workers are not that sufficient and efficient.==Now, they are still worrying.
How come...? Vanity of vanity.
Last night, my dad took initiative to ask me working during this holidays. That was 1st time he asked me to help. I couldn't imagine how serious the problem is.
Sad for having a terribly tiring match last night. It made me suffer and physically exhausted. Now resting...==

Lame ma!

2010-03-12T05:27:00.001-08:00

Since the MUET is coming soon, I suggested a plan of having speaking practice after school in library.. There are several friends who can stay back after school would be invited to carry out the plan with me. I am quite glad of having 5ppl in a speaking practice, it is quite a big number to a normal and formal speaking. Perhaps it seems a little bit informal, but I strongly believe that we started to get the function.
Well~The purpose of having this kind of practice is to make us more comfortable and confident when we speak in English. Overcome the fear and raise the maturity. I like the plan^^
Yesterday, I were having speaking practice with my friends. We had finished talking about the topic after that we seemed to be unsatisfied. Finally, I still kept chatting about other informal topic, what title that made them excited was about "my ass".==
I am actually quite down and unhappy of being commented in that embarrassed way. How could the ass became the topic of speaking? I tried to change the topic by suggesting a new topic, but I failed. At last, we talked about that for 30minutes. Lame ma....It was just embarrassed.
This morning I was quite late to be in school. I packed my car and after that went into the school with a girl.^^ It was just wonderful morning for me to have a walk with an opposite sex no matter who it is ,I would also appreciate well. The rising sun and the Bukit at one created an aura of hope and romance. The steadfast and honest mountain with the back ground of golden sun makes people to get hopeful for the whole day.
However, a long and tiring way between the gate and my class upset those students who enter by feet instead of bike.==
Once I entered my classroom, I was so shocked that my friends all became extremely friendly. they greeted me with powerful voice and somehow they were like observing my body. What was going on, I wondered. It made me totally uncomfortable.
After a while, I just stood outside the class and intended to interrupt their conversation. They turned to me and started laughing and called me :"hey! Ka Cheng Kia!". At that moment, I just noticed that they were staring at my ass.Speechless=='''

A time for sentimentality, a time for motivation.

2010-03-07T05:14:00.000-08:00

Ecclesiastes 3: 1. To every [thing there is] a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: 4. A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance
Aaaahhh!!I have just come back from Penang Island..An education fair...I was the driver who drive throughout the way and thats why I feel mentally exhausted. People say that the silent time and lonely period are actually good for Devil.Who knows? I drove silently and kept thinking so much things. Thinking is just good but worrying is just unnecessary at all. Erm..I am actually having no idea of why I behaved in that unusual way.^^
I believe that Jerry Ng would reject the invitation to Education fair without hesitation.^^Because that time he was really naive enough. But this time I talked with me and argued. finally I have made a sensible response to my friend.
The mood I had was actually not that good...ya...I chose to be like that. I still can't forgive myself about the last exam result. It was just merely caused by the unforgivable pride. I thank god for giving me such a nice and wonderful place to pursue my studies cheerfully. I got the grace! The amazing grace... I really appreciate.. But people used to forget and take it for granted. I am the one.
Through this exam, I just know that it is just a beginning. I thought that the Devil is allowed to attack my confidence. But my view is totally wrong. I just unconsciously stand with the evil one and feel prideful as what they always do in anywhere.
Go back to the education fair.There are many colleges and U which offer a variety of courses. the main things we pay attention on are the fees, the location and the entry requirement. The unwillingness makes me feel annoying to ask about the details of all the colleges. I am now trying to convince myself to take it as easy as possible. I know the willingness has been actually stolen by my parents. The longer I got around there, the longer I felt unpleasant. I felt that! The pressure...not the pleasure...I know. The pressure has been getting more and more intense after the last monthly exam. It is so sad. I know what to do know.
Now, I know...I never be alone at all since the time I born. The Lord guides me...The Lord knows me..Eventh I said nothing.
Sorry for those who have been worried about me. I feel sorry of your worry and grateful of your caring. I will promise nothing but to merely depend on God's wisdom and guidance. For I know that He has a plan on me for the world. Amen..

Who am I by Casting Crowns

2010-03-06T07:21:00.000-08:00

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

You Stand Alone - Hillsong

2010-03-05T17:47:00.000-08:00

I will lay me down
At Your feet in worship
And listen to the sweetest sound of all

Oh God You are my God
How my heart it longs for You
I'm thirsty for Your presence in my world
I cry out night and day for more
To hold the majesty of You

My God You stand alone
And I worship at Your throne
I will look to see Your power and glory
Jesus Lord of all

Make sense...But...

2010-02-26T17:37:00.000-08:00

Before I pose this passage, I am actually having no idea of how to express.==
People say that the educational system in Malaysia is very bad. haha! BAD? That means low efficiency, low quality and even old-fashioned. Ya..I am not sure of that, therefore I just listen and most of the time I choose to accept. Well~No matter how bad it is, we all have got to idea of how to better it, but we just can follow. If you don't want to follow, then you better choose to study oversea university if your parents can afford the high quantity fees. Otherwise, you just shut your mouth up and follow the system over here.
I have found out a guy, he feels very unsatisfied toward the lousy educational system in Malaysia.We understand his feeling actually. But he doesn't really enjoy his school life. He has serious problem on his view.
Ya.We all know, school is the place of learning. But what can we lean from that? Is there just to help you to get a certificate of a particular subject or profession? A degree certificate? Then, there is really meaningless for us to be there. Several hundred years ago, the educational system is really old-fashion and stern. However, it has educated so many people, and most of them became mighty persons at the end. The Confucianism is one of the good example. The theory is actually more worth compared to any Sciences theory. Mankind should actually learn how to be a real man before you have done something mighty.
People now aim for the papers,ya! The papers that show the certification and the triumphs they achieved. But what actually they get at the end are just the papers, the lifeless things which would eventually decompose. Are they really important? Think about that.
If the black and white certificate and the excellent result are all the purpose in your life. Then, I will feel absolutely sad and sympathetic of that, because you are actually wasting your life.
Appreciate the moment you get among your friends, the laughter they make, the jokes they say and the love and care they give to you.
(we can actually learn how to be a nice and sociable person in the school. Don't merely think that school just help you academically.)

I am in charge on my emotion

2010-02-25T23:07:00.000-08:00

If you said that you are in charge of something, that means you can take control of sth.
Well~In fact, there are very few things or matters that we can take control of. But certainly, we can take control of ourselves. On any aspect such as emotional control, body control, thinking and speaking, we are actually in charge of all these things.
We often hear people say that someone dominates their lives or perhaps we occasionally say that people make our lives suffer. We may say :"They ruined our day", since they have done something bad to us. Is everything really like what you said? You are actually saying that people are in charge of your emotional control. Are they? I don't think so. You are the only one who is actually in charge of it. But you choose to give others your remote control of your emotion or something else which belong to you completely. You are the fool, don't keep on blaming other people. It is nothing to do with them.
I was quite actually seriously influenced by the NERDY's aura. I started to a nerd. That is actually a sad case. I almost allowed the stupid and useless aura influence me to get moody on something that is actually healthy and beneficial. Since when I get that chilly and unsociable?
However, I stood in front of a mirror and self-questioned. I know that is something wrong.... Now I am willing to congratulate myself that I have succeeded to persuade myself.^^Congratulation, jerry NCC. Nice job.

Learning is like boating against the water current. There is either improvement or retrogression.

2010-02-25T03:59:00.001-08:00

Learning is like boating against the water current. There is either improvement or retrogression. I agree this statement fully.^^
Recently, I seldom write post in my blogger. Actually,here is my secret training room. haha! I attempt to learn writing from here. But there is a Mandarin proverb saying that there is no such thing like maintenance in learning. That is why Bible tells us not to get lazy on any aspect.
Besides that , there have been several friends saying that my posts contain too many words. It makes them feel lazy to read and even give comment. Then, I have chosen to make my post short and cute. Now, I perceived that I have abandoned a reader that is me.== I feel bored to pose a meaningless post. That is really a sad case. I noticed that I have forgotten many vocabularies. haiz~Since, MUET is coming soon, thus I have to get more hard-working.
So, from now on, I will write a post as long as possible.^^

STPM 4 flat

2010-02-25T02:48:00.000-08:00

Last night, I was told that STPM result would be announced today, 24Feb2010. Most people say that it is earlier than the year before.^^It's actually has no effect on everything.

Well~ There was nothing went wrong, the sun still shines as bright as usual, the birds still chirp as sweet as usual and we study in our white color classroom as usual.

In our Math lesson, our M2 teacher looked great and energetic. Before she left the class, she took out her mobile phone and asked for the results. haha! Obviously, she is the most three-eight teacher that I have ever seen. I have ever compared her with the aunties in Sri Rambai Market. There is almost no difference between them.==She asked and we are able to know the results indirectly.

Of course, we all were looking for nothing but the news of 4flat that time. Ya! There are two.^^
Congratulation.haha! Two science students got their 4 flats in STPM. That is just excellent.haha!
They are guys whom have been expected to get such excellent result.haha! Cus they often score 4 in their school test. I know them. One is Wai Keat,a Bio student and one is Bala, a huge and smart Indian who is small genius in Physics. I respect them really because they not only obtain the best STPM results, they also look smart and mature. Totally, I am pretty sure that they are not a nerd. Instead they are mature and humorous sometime.

This year, our honorable physics teacher just expects us to get 3flats.Lame enough==
At about 11 o'clock, the door of the hall has been filled with many seniors. They all look mature in their own unique ways. Some dyed their hair in what color they prefer. Some wear as how sexy as they wish and some look no change.haha!

Seriously, the big big girls there are mostly good-looking, it was the thing that has made my school life colorful. LOL! Since there are colorful flowers in the garden, everything look comfortable and wonderful inside the garden. =P I think we have our right to appreciate their beauty. That is one of the wonderful God's creation that mankind appreciates well in the world. haha! At the same time, I realized that why people like to look for long-legged sister or mature girl to be their partner.Right? Kaemin =P
However,thank God for creating girls for boys to cherish and love them.^^

Ops..I got a lit bit out of my topic, get back!
Regarding the seniors, they sat inside the hall. Some was asking teachers for suggestion or just forming a circle and chit-chatting around with friends. At that moment, I tell myself that there is a time for us to get back over here again. With smile or regret when I obtain the result is utterly up to me now.^^ I believe that I will have no regret so far.

Getting STPM 4 flat is not really my purpose. My purpose is to give glory to your name, Lord.^^ Hope I can glorify your name 99 in my life.

Happy CNY!

2010-02-21T04:27:00.000-08:00

Ya...CNY holidays are about to finish. What have you done during the holidays? Is it really a happy CNY? Haha! I will answer yes without any hesitation.
I enjoyed well with my relatives, my friends and even several honorable teachers.
Ya..Really this should be a nice moment for me to meet my old friends and relatives.
I had a good time to talk, eat, drink, and laugh with them. The moment is precious and worth to be cherished.
Last night, my house got a party. That is a big model party but my house isn't really that big enough to accommodate all of them. Sorry for that.
I appreciate their willingness to attend the party. Normally, people would feel embarrassed or what and finally refuse my invitation.^^However, the distance between us indirectly tells me that they are totally willing to visit me, my hometown and my home.(maybe my doggies)
Guys, I really give thank to you for your coming. ^^thank Niel for helping, my burner was being reduced that time.
Sorry also, if I had unconsciously neglected anyone of you during the party.
See you tomorrow, my friends.

Bond

2010-02-17T22:00:00.001-08:00

Before I started my sharing, I always make my mind clear of what I am going to say.
But now I am like having no idea.ya...got it!

I have no right to comment so much on something, especially that is not my business.
Recently, I noticed many friends have changed their status from single to.pla pla pla.ya.Without any mention, we all also understand. Nothing is bad, at least It show that they have got a people to love them. Utterly, that should be wonderful and admirable. I inwardly wish them being in a good and healthy relationship. Instead, I don't expect to hear any bond breaking among every relationship.
There are several types of chemical bonding in the world. Some are strong and arranged in order. Inversely, some are fragile and arranged messily.

Simple covalent bonds no longer link the particles together firmly. For instance, hydrogen gas molecule is merely made up by two small hydrogen ions. Both two H atoms share an electron with each other in order to achieve stable electron arrangement. However, they just share e' among two of them selfishly, without third person involving. The bond will no longer be firm, and even be destroyed seriously when a trouble arises.

What I want to tell you is to link many people in your bonding of relationship. For instance, Giant covalent bonding among diamond is a very strong bond and very high temperature is required to melt it. It can endure any stress or heat supply on it without breaking any bond.
Its structure is awesome!

All of them bond with one another by sharing electrons.^^
Ya...We can do likewise in term of relationship by sharing our experiences and advices.
Erm...No matter what kind of relationship you have with a particular person, there is necessary for you to introduce him or her to other friends. They can help you to analyse and figure out who can be your good partner for the rest of your life. Mostly, we are not smart enough on this aspect, we need helps honestly.
Have you ever done the same thing? If you think that it makes sense, then I happily encourage you to fulfill it.
If you feel that it isn't necessary, then I hope that it will never bother you at all.^^

What actually we have to appreciate?

2010-02-17T04:43:00.000-08:00

There are something that we are supposed to know how they can happen, but indeed we have no idea of solving them or dealing with them.
For those who came out with me today are able to know what I am talking about.

I have been trying to convince myself since many years ago. Besides, I also encouraged myself to be more gentle and active. I have tried my best. ya!My BEST. However, I am usually and mostly refused by their CRUEL answers with some terrible chillers. I don't know what happen to them. Or is it something wrong with me?

Maybe my thought has been modified either negatively or positively.
At the same time, their thoughts have not be changed or even improved so far.
Very down, very sad...I don't think that I have any motivation to be active. Instead, I have to change my mind not to bother them.

Is it impossible for us to change someone mind, but it is always possible for us to change our mind and behavior. That should be the only way that can set me free from that emptiness ans sadness. Forgive me...I don't know what else I can do...I am exhausted almost by these such nonsense and stupid matters.
There might be something else that requires my help. There might be somebody else who requires my care.
Leaping out of the small and boring box, looking around and finding out what is actually we have to appreciate.
(the message here is confusing, you are not encouraged to understand the content, even the writer also ain't sure what he wrote.)

Chinese New Year

2010-02-14T01:41:00.000-08:00

It is just ridiculous for people to stay at home quietly during CNY.
Don't try to be an utter nerd or a 宅男/宅女, that isn't beneficial but to make you more unsociable.

I feel totally down and disappointed toward those who are not introvert but somehow not willing to step out from their box. Lame ma!
That is how they have their CNY? Happy CNY? I can't even imagine and agree with the way they might celebrate. haiz~ Different people have different thoughts.Some are ridiculous, some are reasonable. Who can make a judgement on it? I have no idea==

During CNY, we usually will be given holidays at least for a week. What a nice opportunity for us to meet during this precious season! I won't forgive myself, if I miss the chance to keep in touch with my friends. Set together,chit chat and gossip throughout the moment we meet each other.Since we don't really have many holidays after that, this is a chance for us to make our relationship more intimate.

There is no offense in this passage, I just want to share my point of view, no matter you do agree or not. The symbol of CNY is always the laughter, instead of silence.^^
Wish all of you have a noisy CNY.

Mandarin Orange

2010-02-05T23:39:00.000-08:00

Since the Chinese New Year is coming, Leo club in HSBM was doing business dealing before that.
I received a Mandarin Orange, It is presented by a younger boy who is now Form 2.
I don't really know about him, we jus greet each other whenever we meet.
We have played a basketball game. Maybe since that time, the game is impressive to him.
haha! Anyway, I try to find him out in the school, so far I haven't succeeded. i need to say a "thank" to him. It is just a nice gift. Indeed, I appreciate.

Setting Sun

2010-02-04T06:55:00.000-08:00

Setting Sun...It was hiding itself behind the mountain, as a shy girl . I want to take picture of it, but when I made a turn and intend to capture it, it totallyhad ran away.==

It should be a pretty Sun, if "she" didn't hide herself~But it has to set and go to the other side of the earth.What a reject It give to me? It prefers to show itself to other rather than me!?I asked~Why so shy? I am Man, not Moon!

It was merely a joke, and a nice one. I was driving and going off the Jusco at that time. I was thinking of many things whenever I see a EMO scene~ ya~It is totally good for a man, a mankind to think and ponder.What can it represent? Time~It never waits~and It waits for no man~Cheirsh the moment you are getting along with your parents, friends, relatives and God.

Walao A~sad case nia....However, there is a moon there to replace it~A moon which reflects the warm sunlight and shines upon us~The light is not that intense, but comfortable. The heat transferred is not that harmful but consoling~

Sometime you will feel that the sun is loving~But sometime you will agree that the mon is caring~

Down

2010-02-01T03:43:00.000-08:00

down...Misunderstanding causes down...
down...Mistake causes down...
down..down..down..
It just lasts for awhile, but I never expected that I would be that down.
What I have done doesn't match with what my teacher ordered. Haiz~I am trying to explain, but I know I won't be allowed since the limiting time. I am sorry...I am sorry...What I have to do is to apologize.. Forgive me? No answer.But it is just a research what? You all may not take it serious, but I do. I try to do more and learn from it, but I jsut left 1 step to complete it. That was the step I have forgotten.
Whatever~I have done it. Hope that it won't be any problem arise anymore.^^

Take a chance, make a change and break away.

2010-01-23T01:25:00.001-08:00

Take a chance, make a change and break away.
This is what I want to share over here.
ya~It is good to make a change instead of standing at your regular spot.
How could we stand at a regular spot as others try to walk as far as they can?
Before there is an improvement in your life, you have take a chance for making a change.
Ong Zhang has made a good and sensible decision in his life. Over High School, he realized that there are many things he can learn and improve. I am glad to know that. But life in high school for him is just tough. He is naive and having a naughty nature. However, i believe that it wouldn't be appreciated by the teachers.
There is no point to feel sympathetic toward him as he was being scolded by the teachers. What they do is all for our own good, they want to train us to become a smart, educated and obedient student.
But it is just bad and unfair for him to be ignored and discriminated. I felt deeply sympathetic toward him, and what have happened recently are what I expected.
He will learn...learn how to react accordingly in any circumstance. He will get wise and tactful in future.He will, because he has made this choice.^^

Take a chance, make a change and break away.

2010-01-23T01:25:00.000-08:00

Take a chance, make a change and break away.
This is what I want to share over here.
ya~It is good to make a change instead of standing at your regular spot.
How could we stand at a regular spot as others try to walk as far as they can?
Before there is an improvement in your life, you have take a chance for making a change.
Ong Zhang has made a good and sensible decision in his life. Over High School, he realized that there are many things he can learn and improve. I am glad to know that. But life in high school for him is just tough. He is naive and having a naughty nature. However, I fully believe that it wouldn't be appreciated by the teachers.
There was no point to feel sympathetic toward him as he was being scolded by the teachers. What they do is all for our own good, they want to train us to become a smart, educated and obedient student.
But it is just bad and unfair for him to be ignored and discriminated. I felt deeply sympathetic toward him, and what have happened recently are what I expected.
He will learn...learn how to react accordingly in any circumstance. He will get wise and tactful in future.He will, because he has made this choice.^^

Being famous~

2010-01-23T01:22:00.001-08:00

A nice week~I ain't weak, but my nose likes to get wet during the silent night as if it is necessary. What I feel is unsatisfied and uncomfortable. I know! The stupid fan blows all the invisible dust up and fills the air as much as possible as it spins in high speed. What I inhale and get into my lungs should no longer be clean and pure. Hence, I decided to switch on the air conditioner.^^hehe..It doesn't blow up the dust but to filtrate the air. It is nice~I like it.=D

Yea...Before I started my High School life, I had intended to be a normal guy who merely tries to do well academically.^^I insisted even I know I will fail to do so eventually.
"BGR?haha!Sorry...not interested on that nonsense...hehe!" That is what I used to talk to myself. It is all to prevent me from getting into a complicated relationship. But listen, I am still that talkative and humorous in the class. I keep the pure and beneficial relationship with other girls naturally. Indeed, they are friendly and "flirtable".LOL.

As usual, we have our serious physics lesson. Girls were talking nonsense as they were recording down some data.
"Sir~the physics questions are very difficult..I cant finish it that soon~" a short girl said with her sweet voice.
"easy la! Ask Chyi Chun la!" a talkative girl quickly answered and smiled then.
In that instant, I was concerning on recording down the data, since we had been given several minutes to do that only.Thus, I would not be able to get what they said.
I asked curiously:"what?hami?"
They were teasing at each other and glaring at me occasionally. I don't appreciate that scene, it is uncomfortable. =='''
After that, my Sir who had just finished his writing turned to us. He grinned and moved her ear close toward us, as if someone whispered to him before him, and said :" what?Chyi Chun~o~ I see...". He was staring at me as I was doing likewise innocently.
He continued:" Chyi Chun, you are very famous among the girls ar~". Then, he turned to the white board again.=='''
lame~yea...I wonder how famous I am. It may be good to be famous. But sometime it is peaceful to be just normal.^^

Remember that I won't forget you.

2010-01-17T06:11:00.000-08:00

Instead of doing nothing here, I have chosen to write something while I am waiting for a stupid car which is blocking me from coming out of my house. I can do nothing but to wait.=='''
Last night, I had a good outing with my friends. haha!ya...I prayed for that of course. Over here, I want to thank God at the same time.
They are still funny and friendly. They are still funny in their unique ways.
haha!Most of them have changed their status. However, it is not my business. I wish all the best to them and I will miss them all the time. Since we have passed through all the ordeals inside the camp, sleep and chat together at midnight,therefore there is no reason for me to forget them.^^

I was wondering whether I should give my wish by sending a simple msg writing " Happy Birthday" to a special girl. It no longer bothered me. I made a decision at once, for I know that she won't be grateful of that, cus I recalled something that she doesn't want to recall. ^^However, I wished her inwardly by praying for her all the night.

Another one...

2010-01-06T23:23:00.000-08:00

As usual,all the students walk and enter the school which is located on hill.
It takes us some time to get used of the morning walk.
I often look around me as I am on my way to my class.See whether there is anyone I can greet.
haha!Today,Ong Zhang told me in the early morning that his friend succeed to enter our school.Good..not bad i think.It's a good news and we expect that he would transfer to 1st physics class.
Erm..Bell rand~~ling ling ling...
There is a person with a familiar face appeared by the door.
All of us stared at him and he said:"teacher,I am new student."
Just a simple sentence,it made all the class screamed.==
Not that serious, but we were wondering why he changed into our class but not other.
haih~"welcome" is the only thing we can say to him now.
I didn't say anything but to invite him to sit beside me.
Set up the chair and table properly for his sake.
He is Lip Yong.His name has just been used to form a joke.But it doesn't sound funny in fact.
At the beginning, my sir called him as Ip Men.==''Very funny~After a while, it back to normal.
In our class, teachers want to inspire all the students to speak and give their own comments on something. They want us to make a stand on something,to know how to communicate with others, to know how to behave in all the aspect.
So...the teachers don't really expect their selves to speak.Instead they want to listen to us no matter any nonsense we will utter.
But at the same time,this is what the students nowadays don't like to do-public speaking.
I received that it is rare to have a student who can speak in public well nowadays.
1st thing, they used to speak in other languages instead of international language-English.
2nd thing,they seldom think to make any decision.Most of them just follow the commands but seldom ponder.That is why we always can hear some1 say: "Never mind la".It sounds funny,as the time passed by,it will turn to be foolish.^^
3nd thing, they are confident enough to their selves.They used to mumble and keep silent so that others will just ignore them and set them free from trouble.

It is good to be in 6PAB.haha!You may be able to speak instead of being a mute.^^
Hope that they can enjoy to be in 6PAB.

The 1st day

2010-01-03T23:46:00.001-08:00

I am now typing my post in a noisy and dim ciber cafe.The first day of my school life,it's just nothing but normal.
My classmates' patterns stiil remain unchanged.They are still friendly and funnny.
Today,I was talking with two girls.I noticed that my blog is just boring to them.What can I do to change it?Is it life have to be so colorful and exciting?I prefer to have a simple and meaningful life.^^
In my opinion,blog is used to share your things with your sincere friends.
It is used to tell them what is happening in your life.
They are caring you and wondering how you are all the time.Viewing their blogs means that you are caring them.It is just touching if they know that.It isn't used to amuse those who view your blog.^^

Today,there is a new student entering our class-Ong Zhang.
He is now officially becoming my classmate.It almost got me into trouble today.How to say?
He came into our class.Of course, my dear Miss Ooi started to ask him sth.It's actually nothing to do with me.Since he kept mumbling in the conversation,the situation has been changed.
She asked:"okay~now..Is there Nibong Tebal friend?"
Since that time,I know that I got into a trouble innocently.
She suspected that I suggested him to transfer to High School.Guys~I am innocent!
I tried my best to explain for escaping the trouble using my persuasion.Thank God for setting me free from inquiry.==

well~At the same time,there were some question marks appearing above my head.What made him to decide to study here?
After school,I talked with him and roughly intriduced all the teachers to him.I noticed that we are thinking of the same thing and finally we made the same decision.^^

Then, we took our lunch together and I fetched him back to his hostel.Took a look inside his hostel,it's just....plain and unadornable.I am blessed enough by my Lord. T.T
Grateful is only the expression I can feel for him.

哥哥，我爱你^^

2009-12-23T21:21:00.002-08:00

23-12-2009，12.45 pm,Wednesday
Program-Visiting in an Ipoh orphanage,celebrate Christmas with them
Mission-show our love to them and bring some joys in their life during the short period.
In the name of- Jesus Christ
Nibong Tebal Gospel Hall Youth Society was having the pleasure to visit orphans in Ipoh.
We took for about 2 hours during the journey...Finally, we were able to bring our ass down from the Inova.
The 1st thing I noticed when I entered the small and normal hall -two or three girls were hugging the orphans...They were whispering,I am pretty sure of that.^^It was sweet and nice...
4 girls about 17-19 years old came here in the name of LEO to visit the orphans.
This is the photo they took before they left.

There are about 20 sth orphans.Erm..Nope.Basically,some of them are not orphans.they were just cruelly abandoned and then adopted blessedly.
One of the boys has been abandoned by their parents 3 months before.He looked so uncomfortable and disappointed of getting in this orphanage...
He is 14 years old...the only one 14 among the orphans.
I asked but not deeply...scared that I casually recall his sad memory.This is all I know...
I tried my best to inspire...inspire him to take care of the younger one,be a strong and trustworthy brother among them.^^May God bless him.

well~let's sing!Christmas Carol!After that,we gave thanks to us gratefully and cheerfully..haha!
Then,they started to group each other and sing as they dance.wow~It's so cool!haha!
I were having a question mark on my head at the same time.Who should be the one to present and show the love?haha!It seemed that they were not willing to stop dancing ans singing!Haha!They are really like adorable angles singing and dancing around the sky.
They taught me to be innocent and pure indirectly.That is one of the characteristics which our God adores.haha!
Their behavior inspired us to get more passional.Then,we danced with them as the music was playing aloud.^^I am quite sad that I didn't take picture at that precious moment.T.T
They formed a circle in the hall and sat down tiredly.haha!Before the situation started to become chilly,I took a guitar and played at a corner...The orphans started to followed and sing with me!It warmed up all the hall...haha!It was really funny!

What happened later surprised me seriously is a girl stared at me happily and said:" 哥哥，我爱你!".It's just like tell me that my mission has been fulfilled.^^I replied and said with intense gratitude:"谢谢！".
It's touching my heart seriously.I want to thank God for giving me such chance to show my love.I am wondering why "I love you"is hard to come out from my mouth.Maybe I take it much more serious.
Somehow the people can say it aloud without any hesitation."I love you" cannot be simply used,but I am pretty sure that the orphans used it in the appropriate way.
She is Xiao Yi.She should be the most cute among the orphans.haha!She has no mental problem and physical problem.Just want to take photo with her because she has a funny face.
After a few minutes then,we had to leave the orphanage to Ipoh Jusco.^^Wish them have a unforgettable Christmas.May God bless them!

Recently

2009-12-23T21:21:00.001-08:00

My holidays are going to finish.I spent it with joys and cheers.haha!
Outing with my friends and some of my sisters in Christ.
Dating with...erm...negative...actually the word isn't appropriate for that situation.
Besides that, I brought Lucas out to Seperang Jaya for a musical competition.That was nice and he got a GOLD MEDAL.It was expected by me...haha!We are proud of having such brother.^^(I forgot about the date.)
Sisters in Christ...erm..They are Shermin and Ying Huan.Daniel and I had an outing with them...
That was also an ideal and memorable one.We learned sth after that.Ying Huan intended to leave her home and stay at a hostel with her friends next year.Erm...I was shocked...but my persuasion should be ineffective..I tried not to speak too much to her but to pray for her...
The job of being a servant of Christ is getting heavy and heavy especially before the Christmas.
haha!No matter how tiring it is I will be able to enjoy during the service.
Christmas is near...Merry Christmas to all my friends...Don't be a fool during this precious season.haha!

The content

2009-12-06T21:32:00.000-08:00

A:Hey!!Long time no see!!How are you?How is the school life there now?(give each other an embrace)

Guys:Hey~I am fine..The school life hasn't been changed...haha!But I hope that it can have a little bit change so that it won't be too boring.^^

A:yea..I agree with that.In fact,that is inspiring in mind growing and change.People may get more wise,happy and mature when they look out of the box.I meant it works to all the aspects.^^Agree with me,my friends?

Guys:yea...It makes sense.Anyway,now we have no choice but to flow with the water of destiny.

B:yea...But that surely will be a turn for you all to do what you long for.^^erm...How is Jeremy?I wonder whether the car-Wajar that passed by the dim sham restaurant is his.I saw it last morning.

A:LOL!He went there for what?I am curious of that?For the sake of Jassica?

B:Who knows?So?How are they recently?Both J.

Guys:erm...They are all fine...But seemingly Jeremy still madly clings to her.

B:o~well..I think It has lasted for a long time...I am wondering what answer she gave to him.

Guys:Answer?There will never be an answer for the noob relationship.They are willing to keep flirting like shit...such a bullshit!What can we do?!

B:erm...negative..well~ o0o i want to give them as the premature marriage gift, if possible.

A:LOL!!haha!well...then your wife will be very upset....kakaka!

Guys:haha!ya...your turn,A!Any new and fresh love story that can animate and spark up our boring life?No selfish but share fish!haha!Or you still...haha...Jassicaaaaaaaaa?!

B:haha!LOL!Don't!Jassica again pula..people now is different already.Now Melissa....haha!!!Don't argue...

A:what?That girl?I just mentioned once in front of your stupid face!!Don't...haha...kill me then...

Guys:wow~well~How is the girl?

A:B!you have the responsibility to stop the mess going worse!!

B:haha!I know I know....

A and B
The way they speak is just slightly containing some powder of sarcasm and pride.
The word is special to me among the dialog is "Jassica again pula".
Actually A has never focus on Jassica even she is not a bad girl.There are plenty of fishes in the sea that A ever knows after changing his school.He knew that there is no right for him to just admire one madly in the haphazard way.He is free and happy...try to make life easy...

Many people like to choose to stay at a particular place and do something that is the same,monotonous and even worthwhile.They may not learn anything.
Trying to jump out of the box is what many people should do in this era.

任何人都曾经是只井底蛙，问题是他有没有志愿爬出这个安全的井口，成为自由傲翔的飞鹰呢？

任何人都曾经单纯过，问题是有谁肯愿意舍弃一些不必要的单纯，为自己争取一些必要的成熟？

The content

2009-12-06T17:48:00.000-08:00

One day,a group of old friends they met together.they all were so glad to see each other.Then they started their conversation.(Actually some of them left their mother school to other,as for other still keep studying firmly at their mother school.)

A:Hey!!Long time no see!!How are you?How is the school life there now?(give each other an embrace)

Guys:Hey~I am fine..The school life hasn't been changed...haha!But I hope that it can have a little bit change so that it won't be too boring.^^

A:yea..I agree with that.In fact,that is inspiring in mind growing and change.People may get more wise,happy and mature when they look out of the box.I meant it works to all the aspects.^^Agree with me,my friends?

Guys:yea...It makes sense.Anyway,now we have no choice but to flow with the water of destiny.

B:yea...But that surely will be a turn for you all to do what you long for.^^erm...How is Jeremy?I wonder whether the car-Wajar that passed by the dim sham restaurant is his.I saw it last morning.

A:LOL!He went there for what?I am curious of that?For the sake of Jassica?

B:Who knows?So?How are they recently?Both J.

Guys:erm...They are all fine...But seemingly Jeremy still madly clings to her.

B:o~well..I think It has lasted for a long time...I am wondering what answer she gave to him.

Guys:Answer?There will never be an answer for the noob relationship.They are willing to keep flirting like shit...such a bullshit!What can we do?!

B:erm...negative..well~ o0o i want to give them as the premature marriage gift, if possible.

A:LOL!!haha!well...then your wife will be very upset....kakaka!

Guys:haha!ya...your turn,A!Any new and fresh love story that can animate and spark up our boring life?No selfish but share fish!haha!Or you still...haha...Jassicaaaaaaaaa?!

B:haha!LOL!Don't!Jassica again pula..people now is different already.Now Melissa....haha!!!Don't argue...

A:what?That girl?I just mentioned once in front of your stupid face!!Don't...haha...kill me then...

Guys:wow~well~How is the girl?

A:B!you have the responsibility to stop the mess going worse!!

B:haha!I know I know....

A and B
The way they speak is just slightly containing some powder of sarcasm and pride.
The word is special to me among the dialog is "Jassica again pula".
Actually A has never focus on Jassica even she is not a bad girl.There are plenty of fishes in the sea that A ever knows after changing his school.He knew that there is no right for him to just admire one madly in the haphazard way.He is free and happy...try to make life easy...

Many people like to choose to stay at a particular place and do something that is the same and even not worthwhile.They may not learn anything.
Trying to jump out of the box is what many people should do in this era.

任何人都曾经是只井底蛙，问题是他有没有志愿爬出这个安全的井口，成为自由傲翔的飞鹰呢？

任何人都曾经单纯过，问题是有谁肯愿意舍弃一些不必要的单纯，为自己争取一些必要的成熟？

EMO~drug~

2009-11-30T17:58:00.000-08:00

I am here to update my blog.There is a post with a title we are used to talk and joke about.^^
I have a friend from Penang, he is accustomed of calling those who emote as EMO.This is usually used to describe the feeling of depression of a person.We often exaggerate the situation.
Something that is emotional is connected with people's feeling.Love nowadays is used to replace the word "emotion".I am quite upset of watching the movie "Twilight- New Moon".I noticed that something actually corrupts public morals has been transferred to people's mind through such "romantic love story".It started to threaten our brilliant marriage as well.
Those who watched the movie,they don't really realize that they are going to become the character among the movie.They tend to behave likewise what Bella did inside the story.
"How could she simply leave her home and her caring father to a guy without any information and hesitation?Is that Love?":I asked a girl.
"She really fell in love with the guy-vampire":the girl said to me.
What kind of love they actually have?If that is love,that must be ugly one.She hurt her father emotionally by making him worried for three days.That is selfish,not love.
Whatever I said is belonging to my opinion.It got no offense.I just want to share with those who see this message..The decision of agreement is always belonging to you all.^^
Don't follow our feeling to make any decision.Beware of what is love and emotion.
Those who behave according to their emotion will get thirsty of emotional appetite like an addictive drug.
As for those who behave according to their love will get eternal joy and peace.

World record!I said: oh my God!

2009-11-20T17:57:00.000-08:00

As what I noticed recently,most of the Bananas like to call God's name out aloud when they get shocked or surprised!Especially female...I am annoyed whenever they do it frequently without any hesitation.Nope...they didn't insult my name, but God's.His name is worthy,please don't make fool of God but to fear him!
A question here...(think that carefully if you believe in God...whatever God that you believe...I don't have to specify it.)
What are you going to do when God came from Heaven after you called his name carelessly?What will you answer when He asked you for the reason of calling his name?For your sake,don't do it again please.The day He comes is the end of the day.Don't learn imitate this kind of worldly behavior.Perhaps,you may feel comfortable or motivated after calling his name.But Lord will not be glad but wrathful for being called casually and simply.

Now back to the topic of this post.There are not much of amazing things I have seen.But in BM here, my aunt's house,I have seen a lot of that.
haha!over here...

Perhaps you may find that it is a simple photo..A boy with a thin epidermis and damn thick fat layer is lying on a bed in the dim living room.All the thing you see is that...For me?That is totally different.This ain't a simple and innocent photo.It is a world record that I haven't seen before!And hope that it won't happen to me.

That day..I don't ever remember the date.Forget about the date.Usually,I wake up early in the morning...and having the responsibility to wake my cousin brother up from his dreamland.
Indeed this is annoying.Why?I called his name out, he gave me the exasperating response by giving the stupid voice(orh~~~).If you are animated that day,you will be dismayed immediately after that.==
I kept quiet then.(there was a case that he got angry with me cus I woke him up much early)After 5 minutes something I tried again by calling out his name.Then I heard.(Ooooooor~~~~~)The fist was ready at that moment but my nature isn't that violent.Having the motivation but the nature.==

K...He got out from the bed finally, and we went off to school as usual.
345 we reached home together.
I straight away made my way to my living room and did what I should do for the sake of my studies.The moment I went out from the room was about 5oclck.I went out for sth then I passed by an immobile and huge MEAT "which" was set in the middle of the hall under the spinning fan.
My conscience held my pace and turned myself to the MEAT.I tried to "revive" him.But it didn't work at all cus the MEAT didn't move and respond at all.I was shocked and tried to find his breath.Thank God.He is alive,still a fresh MEAT.Nothing I could do to this kind of MEAT but to ignore him.
Came back at nighttime,I entered my room steadily.Then I saw the PHOTO.(situation)10s Stunned of Mirana's arrow!Sorry..I should buy a Linken!==
He kept sleeping without changing the Uniform!!!
well~At the end,he woke up at another morning with his Uniform.I emphasized!With His Uniform!!!!Oh my~Really..that is a world record...in my mind....==

That is worthful to me.

2009-11-19T18:38:00.000-08:00

3 girls = 1 pasar that is what I used to say.
How about 3 girls + 1 smart guy?LOL!

In our class,most of the classmates decided to go for the Penang Bridge Marathon.I was struggling to decide whether I should follow.Finally,I decided to follow and filled up the form.(sorry..niel niel)
After our L6 final exam,and the Marathon is just on the corner.I invited my classmates for a training and most of them can not make it due to their tuition.Then,Melissa and Li Hui decided to fulfill the plan with me.Before we went to Mengkuang Dam,we played "Ting Ting" in Jusco 1st.
Well...I filled up my petrotank with fuel for the sake of journey.I was glad to look at my fuel tank's pointer.haha!Felt a little bit satisfied.=D
Before I moved to fetch them,I was worried of wearing what kind of shirt?Sportive or refined?I was lazy to bring any extra cloth there.Finally,I just be a sportsman then.
Actually the appearance doesn't often bother me.haha!What I care is behavior.
After that,I fetched them and all of them were very sportive also.We all were lazy to bring extra cloth.==
And this is the way they wore on that day.

A nice match.Speechless should be an only response.==
Left LH,middle her sister,Right Melissa Lim
(sorry,I was not allowed to take photo officially,but sneak.)

I should not stop my job as a cameraman.But sad that I just took a few picture.==
Notice or not?They didn't buy any Doken,but they asked if the machine works?haha!LOL!I was like siam away from them.==

After that we went out and made our way to Mengkuang Dam.^^
There is a nice place.I am regret of not taking its photo.
That should be an appropriate place for human being to have a break or an exercise.^^
A lot of fun we got in that outing.I have never expected that I would have this kind of outing.Thank God,for giving me the chance,though that was a rainy day.^^
(I much cherish the outing.^^May have next outing later.)

How tiny are we?

2009-11-06T04:42:00.000-08:00

We may be proud for being the most intelligent creation in the world.
But look at the sky,the sea and the sky, be aware that we are almost nothing in the universe.A flood can destroy a big country in one single night.How tiny we are!

But sometime, if you are in trouble.Try to treat the trouble in the same way.It is just a small problem within the big big world.It's not big big thing.Cheer up!Face any problem with your faith.Always be hopeful!

sustainanility

2009-10-30T09:47:00.001-07:00

A sudden cry in silence,
a heart beats from that moment.
Wondering,
how long will it last in the future?
How hard will it beat against the external pressure?

Contracting and relaxing are everything,
everything of muscular working.
Questioning,
how long will it work in the future?
How hard will it work against the air particles?

Expression on the face is something,
something that reflects our feelings.
The darkness of the world steals the happiness,
the garish flowers numbs the consciousness.

For everything, there is a season,
and a time for all the matter under heaven.
A time to kill and a time to heal,
a time for war and a time for peace.

On the way of your life,
all the troubles' coming by.
They are cruel and even fierce,
try to make your show your tears.

Falling down? Never mind.
Stand up straight and don't be shy.
Give thanks to the grass and the sky,
cus they are caring and kind.

The sun's rising, the cock's crowing,
all the things keep on working.
Clear the dust on your body,
make a step and keep on walking.

Mates are always standing by,
be the booster in your life,
help you go through all the tides,
to see you soaring on the sky.

Life is hard,life is tough,
may God bless you all the path.
Friends can be a catalyst,
as a wellspring of sustainability.

In the world of A(ii)

2009-10-24T23:13:00.000-07:00

The overwhelming sense of loneliness kept growing.
A felt more and more heavy in his life.All the feeling is being kept inside.He wanted to get relieved!
One day,he was setting at a corner lonely and helplessly.This was a good moment for evil to attack.There were many negative feelings conquering his mind and emotion.They want to conquer his mind completely and take control of his soul!
They asked A and said:"You are alone at all!what a failure and abandoned pitiful boy!You are rejected!What is the meaning for you stay here?There is no reason!No reason for you to live!No reason for you to bear the cross and follow Jesus Christ!You are now suffering!What for?!"
A answered:"erm..ya.You are right.I am alone.I am now lost and wondering for the reason of living.Are you sure that there is no reason?!Tell me the answer!"
They kept convincing.A kept struggling with them.However,at that instant,there is a sound!A voice came from no way.
It sounded:"You should search for the good news!You may find the answer."

A felt curious and wondered what it is.
Search on the net.
Found a website:www.goodtv.tv
There was a sermon.(John 5:6)
John 5
The Healing at the Pool
1Some time later, Jesus went up to Jerusalem for a feast of the Jews. 2Now there is in Jerusalem near the Sheep Gate a pool, which in Aramaic is called Bethesda[a] and which is surrounded by five covered colonnades. 3Here a great number of disabled people used to lie—the blind, the lame, the paralyzed.[b] 5One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. 6When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, "Do you want to get well?"

In this passage,the pastor said:"you may be alone,no one may understand your feeling.You are helpless?hopeless as well?How about I tell you that [now there is a person who is praying for you.]You may say:(all the people fail you!No one may pray for you.)Then how about I say [there is a God who prays for you all the time?Holy spirit prays inside of your heart with intense sigh of feeling.Jesus Christ prays for you always on the heaven.]Then,what is your though?"

A has nothing to say but to listen to the pastor.
These passages told A that God is looking at him all the time eventh all the people ignored him.
A knew that god not only look at him and also knows what he feels!
A felt very comfortable and touch.At the same time,pastor asked by saying:"Do you want to get relieved?"
A was shocked because that is what he wanted for a long time.
A nodded his head hardly and said "YES!I want!"
(The end)

In the world of A

2009-10-24T06:40:00.000-07:00

In the world of A
Anyone here?hey~response please..It is dark!
Hey!Hey!Anyone here?answer me please?No person here?How come?
(turn to one side)Oh shit!There is a big gate in my heart!It blocks everything from entering.It is locked!Which is the stupid who locked it?o~my...I locked it...ya...I decided to lock it sometime.(just realized.)
(talk to myself)You must be stronger eventh here is dark completely.You must be faithful and hopeful eventh there is no light at all.You...You...You...must not show your worries and sorrows eventh.....you are alone here.(the gate is still being locked.)
(Outside.)
A:hey~come!study group?^^
B:o~sorry...not free..you enjoy then.
A:haha!It's ok.^^never mind.see you tomorrow.

A:hey!do you know about xxx?I shared with you last time right?rmb?
C:o~ya.anything again?
A:walao~I tell you what pla pla pla pla...
c:o~like that only lar?!(B seems like not interested)
A:haha!nothing la..kidding only~^^ok la..busy of your stuff then.(not in the same channel)

A:what is the difference btwn Catholic and Protestant?You are Catholic,should know right?
D:o~like that la..nothing different.
A:serious?there should be a difference.
D:a little bit only.
A:o~hahahaha^^(stop topic)

A:how come like that?misleading lar~
E:?take it easy man.Any prob?
A:what?!ok...nothing then.==(disagreement)

Most of the time...A is physically alone.But sometime there are some girls accompany A.However they are not in the same channel so far.Alone at last.

(the gate is still being locked.)
A likes to set at a corner quietly.Talk to himself.The overwhelming sense of loneliness grows continiously.

contradiction

2009-10-23T08:01:00.000-07:00

It is very interesting for us to get into a new place.You will become the stranger then.
I like the feeling being a stranger that others know nothing about me.
They don't know about my past.What I have done they won't know unless I tell them.
kaka!Like a man in secret.Every thing of you is secret.^^Do you like the feeling?What do you think about that?

Some of the people may enjoy this kind of feeling but somehow they feel lonely.Ya.Actually they just want it last temporary.Sometime they need.They need to be listened and understood.In a new situation and environment,there should be no one who understand you well.No one will be in the same channel with them.Hence there is no achievement of sympathism.
Sometime we try to held our emotion and feeling deeply inside our heart so that others may not be able to read your mind and understand about your feeling.
But sometime we try to tell others about our feeling and thought indirectly by doing something strange and abnormal.
Such a complicated contradiction.^^

爱是不保留

2009-10-17T18:04:00.000-07:00

常听说世界爱没长久哪里会有爱无尽头
尘俗的爱只在乎曾拥有一刻灿烂便要走

而我却确信爱是恒久碰到了你已无别求
无从解释不可说明的爱千秋过后仍长存不朽

谁人受痛苦被悬挂在木头至高的爱尽见于刺穿的手
看血在流反映爱没保留持续不死的爱到万世不休

惟求奉上生命全归主所有要将一切尽献于我主的手
我已决定今生再没所求惟望得主称赞已足够

Principle,it doesn't matter?

2009-10-17T08:58:00.000-07:00

"I got no choice!!!!",nowadays that is what people usually use to explain the difficulty of the crisis they faced and the excuse they use to prevent from being guilty.It works indeed.Really!They will feel in this way,take it easy and just go ahead with their flexible principle.Actually I won't believe that human being will really act like that(change their principle).But now I fail to convince me not to believe.
There are many cases which are not rare to be found.The matter is your perspective.Don't pay attention on that thing, it may make ur life more easy and comfortable.
Some1 may say that I got no choice so they have to do something that is not allowed and unmoral or maybe something that is against their principle.
The principle now becomes the rule they used to follow in their life.By the way,it is flexible and fixed by themselves.Well~then what is the real and main principle?Where is it?In the world,something that is accepted by them is considered as acceptable.Well~if that is really acceptable,why do they get the bad ending,the tragedy which they don't expect early in the beginning.
Some1 disobeyed their principle and did something they thought that is unmoral.
After that,I asked.Some1 told me that the principle can be changed any time.I was like nothing to say.Really!
Some1 told me that they decided to be a man but then now they become a dog which is smelly and messy.
Some1 told me that they won't behave in a particular way,but finally they told me that their principle can't be applied and fulfilled in the world.
Some1 asked me to take it easy because that is what they do.They changed their mind and principle due to the changing of the situation.Nothing to do with me.They said that One day I will be like them also.==
For an example,a person who said that he won't sleep with his partner before marriage.After several years,what he disagreed has been done by him.The principle was changed.He said I won't have sex with his partner.Others may agree with the change.Now I asked.Then what will be the next principle?He may change it again.Then,something that may happen will be a tragedy.
What should we follow?Are you right?Who can tell you?Don't ask me please.Instead you should Ask God.
I don't like to be such people.
Conclusion:Live without truth=Death.(honestly)
you may disagree.But that is what I think.That is all.

What the?(II)

2009-10-03T20:11:00.000-07:00

Well~After what the?(I) case,I was shocked.Now realized that indeed there are many people who don't really know how to appreciate the right and beneficial things.Instead they will consider that as rubbish!Sad~That is why such people may miss the grace from Lord at the end.
Ok...I used to be Driver in BM.Its ok..Even thought some of my BM friends might joke with me involving the word 'driver',I just take it easy.^^
I used to bring my cousins to Jit Sin(independent) every morning.so I have to wake up extremely early.Well~no blaming...I volunteer to do so.But indeed it may spend my time due to some procrastinations.
Early in the morning,I asked my cousin brother what time I have to fetch him.He answered and said 3 o'clock.Well~230 I left my school to Jit Sin.Ready to fetch him.
I was standing in front of Jit Sin and the same time I was observing something not only my cousin brother but X X X.haha!lol!But I felt strange cus I waited for a long time.==''So I called my cousin sister who was staying at home.She asked me to leave and ignore him.WelL~Nothing I can do right?Just leave then.Walao~just noticed that I wasted my time!LLB!!!I was kinda pek chek!He is the thief of my time.(I guessed that he was playing game with his friends.)
ok ok....I kept it.And I asked him about the case.He didn't apologize, and told me that he forgot to go back instead he went for a game with his friends.
LLB!!I was hoping that my guesswork is wrong!but...ai yo~
I felt kinda unpleasant, because my stupid cousin didn't appreciate my contribute.==
sad...He is an unreliable and irresponsible boy.Really having low moral value.
Nothing to say.But I keep praying for him.Cus I don't want to see his life become a waste.It is pitiful due to his naivety.

What the?

2009-10-02T22:08:00.000-07:00

Long silence...pai seh la...^^
My friends please forgive me..
What a rush?What a rush?
I used to rush in my dairy life.Not only weekdays but weekends as well.
I arranged my time properly and sensibly so that I am able to involve something unnecessary into my living day.
There were several sad cases almost dismay me.Thank God.I just took it easy,otherwise I would get mad seriously.
Case 1
My cousin sister is quite a good and obedient girl.She always goes to work after school(help her father).I would like to encourage her by bringing her out for a cinema.well~the Up's showtime was about 945pm.In order to be Gurney there early, we had to move at about 8oopm.Well~She left from her working place and took a bath.We both were about to go out for Cinema.I was waiting for her,watching TV and chilling out.My mobile phone rang and I noticed a msg.
From Ah Ting(my cousin sister)
我爸爸不给我去，我们还是别去了，不然会害你被骂。

Reply
Its okay.next time la.
I made my way to my room and tried to ready myself for reading.
When I was doing my works, a scolding voice came from the hall.(my uncle)
I ignored him and did my work.But I heard that he was talking about me!
what the?!
I went out for drink.Met him unfortunately.Greeting and leaving.
He stopped me and said something annoying and provoking.I "LL" then.
He said:“啊俊！下次你要带她们出去前先问过我。不可以随便随便就提早放工的。他们放工时间是八点。他们早放，谁来做工？你以为你是谁？要早放就早放啊？”
I was like walao~I just want to encourage my dear cousin sister only.Nothing bad right?
I just answered:"sorry.Ah tior~我不知道他们八点才能放工。没有下次了。^^"(faster entered my room and closed the door)
He kept scolding no one.My cousin bother then came in, and asked me to go out cus uncle wanted to talk with me.Walao~again?
I went to him.He scolded again:“啊俊！你的朋友买票了吗？”我说：“没有，我跟阿停而已”。He said then:"我跟你说年轻人要拍拖前，先想想自己有没有本钱。你听到没有？"nodded my head steadily and said yes.
He kept talking until he felt satisfied.=='
At the same time, we were staying outside my cousin sister's room.She heard all the thing and sent me a msg to apologize.
After words, my cousin brother told me that his father thought that I was going to bring my cousin sister to know other guys.@@walao~!!!!!what?!!!!Terrible!Am I trying to bring her falling in love?
Lucky,I was kinda steady.I endured all the thing without any blaming.At the same time,my cousin sister was very sad and she cried in her room.(my cousin bro told me.)
Sad case...really don know how to have a outing next time.May be nerd soon.

Master?Monster?

2009-09-24T09:26:00.001-07:00

In my view,High School BM is a school which is full of hardworking teachers...so far..^^they would like to inspire and encourage the students to be hardworking.Actually, they often give us the modal of hardworking.
There was a story that my Chemistry teacher shared with us during the class.
She finished her lesson and started to talk with us.
Scientists were going to perform an experiment.(what experiment she didnt mention at all.)They brought 3 boys into a room.The boys were young ,physically and metal healthy.
The scientists put 3 famous and testy chewing gum on a table.It is very attractive for the three little boys.And they said:"There are few crewing gum here.You all can take it.After 5 minutes if your crewing gum is still here.You will get one more crewing gum."After that,they went off.
Several CCTV were set at the corner of the room to observe their behaviour within 5 minutes.
1 of them just simply took it without hesitation.
1 of them hesitated for a few minutes but finally he took the crewing gum before the end.
1 of them hovered around the table,he seemingly intended to take it.But after that, the boy went away from the table and did other thing to removing the attention from the crewing gum.(trying to get another crewing gum.)
After that, the scientists let them get back to their lives.
After several years,the moment the boys entering into University.
The scientists went to visit them, and observe how their lives were.
The boys who took the crewing gum within 5 minutes,were not able to entrance any university due to their bad results.
The only boy who succeed to get another sweet got the excellent result and was able to get into a good and well-knowing University.
"what do you learn from the research?",my teacher asked.
All kept silent.I answered:"determination, teacher."
"good,that should be the answer."

My friends, in fact we can do all the things without any impediment.But is that really beneficial for you?For your life?For your future?
We can do whatever we want to do.No one!no one!can impede you do to so!But yourself.God has given you the authority to do whatever you want.The freedom has been given.But please!please!cherish the authority....
We would like to eat the sweet which is really attractive and even tempting.But you didn't achieve anything if you just simply take it without and delay.
Wait for a minute, you may achieve and get one more..gain...obtain...you succeed.
Be the one who take control of the tempter.Be the one who can take control on your own.Be the one who is called as Master.
Above all the mass media,all the damn tempter!
Otherwise you will be the prisoner which is cheated and trapped by the scheming tempters.You look like a Monster then.

You raise me up!

2009-09-22T07:55:00.000-07:00

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up… To more than I can be.

(Give all the glory to your name, Lord.
cus you strengthen the weaker,heal the patient.)

Us against the world...

2009-09-22T07:49:00.000-07:00

Westlife-Us Against The World

You and I, we’ve been at it so long
I still got the strongest fire
You and I, we still know how to talk
Know how to walk that wire
Sometimes I feel like
The world is against me
The sound of your voice, baby
That's what saves me
When we're together I feel so invincible
(chorus)
Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight
Us against the world
Against the world

There’ll be days
We’ll be on different sides but
That doesn’t last too long
We find ways to get it on track
And know how to turn back on
Sometimes I feel
I can’t keep it together
Then you hold me close
And you make it better
When I’m with you
I can feel so unbreakable
#(chorus)

nightmare?just an odd midnight.

2009-09-17T02:48:00.001-07:00

Last night, I decided to sleep at about 10 O'clock and I got my body's approval.
Because I was really exhausted not only physically and emotionally.
I was supposed to study and rush my homeworks at the time, but I cant tahan.
I laid on my bed and fell asleep...

Fell asleep,that was nice.
Peaceful state at a night.

Door was knocked,sound annoyed.
Ass was brought out from the bed.

Washed my face,cleared my mind.
There had a big crowd stand outside.

Mixed inside, wonder why.
I never meet such in my life.

Noise coming, flag coming.
Holding a smoke jar and went in.

Close the palm of the hand,
With 23 incense in between.

Annoying, suffering,
Breathing equals torturing.

The clowd dimissed ,the flag was set,
Uncle called me come and prayed.

Frightening, steadily,
Went off after I said yes.

Hope that you all will be able to know what I am talking over here..haha!
There was a taoism ceremony.^^

procrastination..==

2009-09-17T01:38:00.000-07:00

As what my annoying MUET teacher says-How many day you all are having now before the coming of STPM?haih~sianz...keep reminding us until I feel nauseated.Genarally we may ignore her words and keep doing our sizable homeworks.Well~actually we don have much more time...I think about the question properly..and found that we just have a short period in fact..If we procrastinate the works or revisions, then the period will get more and more shorter.haih~
Last Tuesday, I had an experiment to do.That was a physics experiment and our Physics teacher-Form teacher is a serious man.Before the physics period our PA teacher prolonged our class period. At the same time, our stupid monitor didnt ask teacher to let us go for the experiment.=='well~they rushed to the physics lab after that.But I was keeping my books slowly and steacily with a guy.Both of us got into the lap late.well~a show then.
When we paced into the class which was terribly silent at the moment.
I felt that something bad and mad was going to happen.=_=
We reached followed by our class monitor and assistant monitor.(they just passed up the hmwk and left from the office.)
We all were punished..our stomach kena pinched seriously.(that was really painful@@)
Ah Sir scolded us for awhile and then he left us in the lab doing the experiment without any lead.sad..then we all just moved ,took the apparatus and did our experiment.
After teh experiment, Sir stated that those who hang in the report late after he went out the lab, their reports won't be accepted anymore.
At the same time, my group was late.That was going to be recess period and Sir was going to leave.
I still steady steady cus the front door is just infront of my group.I thought Sir for sure would leave by using the door.
OKAY!DONE!I turned to Sir's table just realised that he left already!what!he went out from the back door?!oh shit ,I said and rushed to the office.
When I met Sir, he still looked very angry.I was chasing after him and he noticed me.Before I said any thing.He knew what I was going to say.He stopped in time and asked me to keep the report and go off from the office.what?!oh no!just a chance...?
I still tried to convince him..and finally he warned me and said:"don't disturd me"
speechless.."see you Sir"I replied.
well~my procrastination brought me into a trouble...finally my prayer brought me from there.Sir recieved my report after that.thank God...no more next time..I dare not to do so..

Beh Tang!

2009-08-23T03:10:00.000-07:00

I feel very sorry for my long silence..forgive my laziness please..haha!
I thought I have nothing to share with you all..but i just noticed that there are something funny..well...there is a picture-a commode...beh tang!

It made me recall our friend..Ah Beh!haha!
something unknown inside the Beh Tang!guess what?

oh shit!all the shit tennd to come out!walao~torturing!I had to go to my aunty shop for excretion.==It lasted several days only...thk God!haha!

back...sad...

2009-07-31T08:34:00.000-07:00

packed my things and took my key...got into my car and drove...
I have to attend a Chemistry tuition before I can go back to NT.
Smth happened and made me feel unsatisfied...suak suak...well~jus straight away turned my way to NT..
reached NT and called Niel out for a dinner..we shared about many things...erm..actually they shared alot...I was trying to share...but not much more things that I can share...erm...I got no special thing...==''anyway...I was willing to listen...^^
after d dinner,I went home...opened the gate and noticed that my mom was doing her works...
It was odd for her to ignore me...I found it weird and I was pretty sure that something happened before...
I asked my mom that anything happened before...what she look so angry?at the same time,I was playing with my dogs^^
Actually,I got the answer before she answered me.She got angry because of my younger brother...same case same problem...Generally,I am not able to find him out....because he is such a popular guy in the school now...many programs are waiting for him.I hard to see him at home.==''and at the same time,It means that I wont be able to control him or even interrupt into his living life.I expected that there will be a problem like now.
She cried while she was explaining her anger to me...the only thing I could do was to confort her...and encourage her...so that she won't give up and despair of the boy.
At that moment,I was pretty angry...I was just like to punch him seriously!!!!
what can I do?really punch him 99?i don't think that is a good solution...
I wonder...what is the time that he realised his naive?

Jesus's Eyes

2009-07-08T11:04:00.000-07:00

Scripture
[God] told me,"My grace is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness." Once I heard that,I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap andbegan appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness...And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.
- 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 -
A story~"[Melha] went right uo to her nearly blink father and pointed to one picture on the wall---one of the Lord calling little child to Him--and said,'Look at Jesus'
" 'have no eyes,O my daughter--I cannot see,' was the answer.[The girl] lifted her head and eyes to the picture and said, 'O Jesus,look at father!' "
Had Melha shown the pride of adulthood, she might ahve agreed with her father that it was useless to try to see God.But in joyful humility, she simply acknowledged that her father was weak and God was strong. She knew that God sees us before we can even look at Him. He longs for us to acknowledge how dependent we are on him.
In our ambition we believe that we must get our lives together before we can turn to God. But in our humility we realize that only through God will we find the completeness we need to love him,see him, and care for others.

Prayer
God, I am weak today...Help me to be strong in you...

(Garp Chapman & Elisa Stanford; The Love As A Way Of Life)
DEVOTIONAL~

Saturday~

2009-07-06T09:14:00.000-07:00

Satuday and Sunday are both the bustling days for me.I recalled my memories that happened before I tranferred to BM High school.Actually, my Saturday is supposed to be peaceful and meaningless.Somehow, I would rather to sit infront of the computer for nothing than of a book during the lame Saturday.But for now,it changes to be the most bustling day in a week.
Generally, many family likes to have a outing during the weekend,especially mt family.They used to go for dinner at Saturday night,because they are free during the weekend.
Now,I just can get back to my hometown NT about 430pm something, due to my tiring chemistry tuition.It is merely a rush!After that,I am not allowed to take my own time,but to spend the time with my family.Em~I think nothing is bad...everything is good actually...but I am not satisfied about the schedule...It is pretty short...to spend tiem with my family and even friends...==
well~my parents drove and picked up my grandparents for dinner.I don't really know why they often call them out for dinner recently, but anyway it is a good behaviour.I have no comment.
On the way to restaurant-Tambun,I picked up my mobile phoneand viewed the photo I have taken before.
At the same time,I got an idea~to take photo with my grandparent...kakaka!!
Reached the restaurant,we got out of the car.I stood straigthly and looked around for nothing.My grandfather stuck with me closely and straightened his body=='''I was wondering what he was going to do for me...He stared at me,grined and said that I am getting talled,grown up much more..haha!I just responsed by laughing.He turned his body and started to move away toward the restaurant.I grasped his shoulder politely from his back and asked him taking a photo.Ki cha!settle!At the ame time,I asked my grandmother to take a photo also.
Actually, I am not a person who likes to take photo anywhere and anytime..I just know that it is necessary for me to have their photos,even they may be old and unsightly now or they may not be good on grininng in the face of the camera.
After dinner,we reached home about 830pm.Alright~my parents got their own entertainments and it seemed that they didn't encourage me to join them.Then,I just lep on the bicycle and rushe ahead MY church delightfully.There ahs been a long time that I didn't come to church~
Always geelfs extremely joy and peaceful whenever I paced into the church.. like my second comfortable home~The topic was about "love"
we were separated into 4 groups and discussed about the things we didn't achieve the scripture.I shared about something with my brothers and sisters in Christ.Always keeps reminding myself that without spirit I am merely a Dust~there is no reason for me to boast!
After that,I had supper with Daniel and Man Yen...we shared about the experiences that we gained in our lives with each others.At the same time,I found it lametable if we harbored he jealousy and hatred among our friends..sorry...I am just only a dust,I am weak without God...I am nothing without spirit..so I may despair of anyone of you~pai se..forgive me...
went to Daniel's hjouse and chatted with his parents...then finished my tiring and meaningful -Saturday...(we got a plan,that I have never expected before...)=P!!

One week?or one second?

2009-06-27T02:50:00.000-07:00

there are many differences between 1 week and 1 second.
The magnitude is one of the differences...1 week is actually 7 days and we convert it into second that should be (7x24x3600)second.
There is about 604800 second within a week.erm~big difference~
A week is just like a spark(happen within a second).haha!crapping lar~erm...
I am now at my comfortable home in NT.What happened in this week?Sorry...I just can roughly share with you all~
Monday~in the beginning, every thing was fine as usual~But in the Physic class,I kena~
When the teacher Mr Lew was teaching,I whispered again...walao~and immediately my guilt was discovered by his eyes.He pointed me with his finger and at the same time all the students were staring at me...oh no~at that particular time,I felt extremely remorseful of my stupid,useless and unnecessary whispering.you know what?Actually,I whisper to no one.I just pretended nothing happened.stayed cool,baby~
"you !five push up." Do you still remember...?last time Mr Lew called me"you, shut up!".I just realized that was a warn.After that,5 push up~instead of shut up!
well~just obeyed his order and gave him five push up rapidly~because I scared that something more terrible will happen...
He is a good teacher.haha!Eventhough,he punished me~because he didn't scold you after the punishment.I like this kind of teacher...I really respect him but I was sorry that I am not enabled to adapt myself in such special and fresh way of study so far.(silent totally and just listen)
After that,was chemistry period.She gave us many and many homeworks...damn~and I am also owing her the chapter 1's homeworks.LLB!!!nothing to say...
I transferred my friday PA tuition to Monday.
Actually I didn't concentrate my attention well in the beginning because I just finished a rush~
Besides that,there were some Jit Sin students around.The one who sat by me was a talkative guy.He was joking with a girl whose is my classmate and was one of the Jit Sin students before.
They talked about me I could hear that....They asd that I look like thier friend...who is it?
O~Huang Jun Wei~yeah!I know that...we both have a similar face.They made noise in the class...walao~really a crazy group....
I changed my seat and sat beside a girl "Che Huo Gui" while we were waiting for the ohter teacher.haha!The group joked again by saying that she is my GF...=='''
well~speechless..I dislike nonsense.what lar~handsome guy must have a girl friend?lol!
Then,a friend that I encountered in NS-JPJ...I noticed her and greeted...
She pointed the girl and saying something...I didn't really know what she said or asked....but I can ensure that she was questioning me whether the girl is my GF or not?lame~
I was lazy to explain more during such embarrassed situation.sianz~
At last the talkative guy asked for my HP no and now chat with me frequently.sweat~=='''

七十二变?不好料。不变才好料。

2009-06-20T03:56:00.000-07:00

“这个世界上唯一不变的东西就是变”
这句话，是我在去年的时候，在我的亲戚家里头的一本心灵大师所写的心灵论读到的。我相信那本书应该蛮著名的。
对。他写的理论听起来确实头头是道。我也很相信，他说的理论，大家听了都会点点头。
我一面看，一面点着我的大头。看到了那一句，我就迟疑了一会儿。
“这个世界上唯一不变的东西就是变”
对。很多东西都在变，我们对这些改变真的作不出细毫的影响甚至控制.当然，我们也只能白白接受。可是，他是否是完全正确的呢？他是谁？他是心灵大师！我知道～出了很多有名书籍～我也知道～无论如何，我知道，他也是人。就算他会飞也好！他还是一个会飞的人。哈哈！
我读到这里的时候，我的大头里冒出了一个念头－可以说是答案吧？
我认为他对一大半，只错了一点。可惜，错一点，还是错，没有同情分。
这世界有个千年不变的道理，那就是耶稣爱你～
这就是我脑海里那时突然所冒出来的念头。
神使世界一直在不停的变换中，从这里就已经衬托了他那伟大又永恒的爱。因他的爱不被时间影响，永无止尽。阿门。

pek check!!!!

2009-06-14T05:41:00.000-07:00

yeah~the end of the holidays,but some1 is just about to begin his (Danny) holidays...haha!!
My holidays were good enough...I was so satisfied...haha!
well~this morning I went out for breakfast with my family.At that time, I was worried about the tuition time.sweat~
when we were eating, my brother suggested to go to Econsave...why?because he planed to make a cake for his girl friend...=.='''oh no~
By the way, my dad and mom sapu the things they need in the Econsave...lol!!!bought many fruits and mineral water...=.='''sianz...I was pushing the damn heavy trolley and walking there like an clumsy idiot...just discovered the principle of Newton's first law and inertia...haha!!!
Then,I was late to be at home...and allowed my friends and teacher waiting for me outside my home...=.=so sorry~unexpected case...=P!
After the tuition,I found myself in trouble.I knew that 1 of my friends received a letter from JPN..and er application was approved...
and Delvinson sadly failed to apply his tukar sekolah!!haha!!tease him!!!I t should be bad to him.
and now...I sakit kepala~i didnt get ANY letter from what damn or shit JPN!!I got nothing!It is worse!!!sianzz...my mind was blank...and I was just sitting in the hall for no purpose.
walao~~sianz!!!I am yearning to change my study circumstance cus i needed that to help me on my study.
well~it's okay for them to disapprove my application.But~at least tell me ma!!!turtoring me!!I have no answer..and I don really know what to do for the next.=.=AH!!!!LinLaoBuA!
I asked Daniel's family for help...they adviced me going to JPN and inquire them.
well~that should be the only way to solve my worry...

AhKuNaMaTaTa~what a wonderful day~

2009-06-14T05:25:00.000-07:00

oh~thank God for giving me a wonderful holidays...I really enjoyed the whole holidays~
recall back~that can be considered as 2 weeks busy and meaningful holidays...
terribly tired during the holidays but at the same time I felt satisfied...
we planed to have many trips...and by the ways, unconsciously I found us in several conflicts.
haha~well~finally, thank God for humbling us to tolerate each other whenever we discuss together.
and then we all had a good discussion and made a decision.Everything is fine then.
I learned something during my holidays.Simple is good~simple is great~I cherished something that we can do in NT but not in other country.I started to like it...and stopped my annoyed sense.
Hallelujah!!!I have nothing to say but praise the Lord~that is all~

Home Alone ~.~

2009-06-09T06:24:00.000-07:00

My parents have gone for a journey 2 days ago.the place shoud be Bukit...I don't really know where the place located even my mom told me before.^^
well~
This morning,I woke up at 1130am..oh no~wasted!I missed the pretty and peaceful morning.>.< Paced out from my room and I noticed 2 pairs of bright eyes were staring at me.It was so pitiable for 2 stupid dogs sitting helplessly in the chest.^^
Due to my lovingly-kindness, I liberated them from the chests and brought them for a walk.
got Hungry and went out for my lunch...didn't know where to take my lunch.Finally,i went to 5 tingkat having fried rice as my lunch.
I returned to my home...just realised that I was the only one staying at home except the dogs.
My younger brother stayed at Hutan Lipur to participate a camp as a helper.
My elder brother went out for working...speechless...
Home alone...I could totally understand the loneliness the kid felt in the movie " home alone"during the lonely time...In the movie,there has 2 stupid thiefs.
Thank God.Here just got 2 stupid dogs instead of thiefs.It would not be so dangerous.Nonetheless,they brought me many troubles.
Ricy~cute right?It is lovable and cute on his appearance,but it is a naught and mad dog!!
One afternoon,I came from IBM with a tired condition.I discovered some gastric juice on my sofa.Yuck!whose masterwork?I thought the author should be Ricy.Ignoing the problem and went into the kitchen.In my kitchen,half of the ground was full of rubbish.oh~Ricy!!!!
oh no!!It was clever enough turning over the rubbish can and search for something to eat.I didn't know what was that,but that should be in his stomach already=='''and that was the reason why the s2p dog vomited.don't know why they don't like to eat the food we bought for them.
Then,I had no choice but to clean up the mess.==''
alone...alone....alone...
my friends went to penang and I was at my home....
and my dogs were ignoring me for the whole day...lying beside the door and waiting for my mom coming back...emo dogs...=='''
my parents are supposed to go back today...but they sent me a messange saying that "we are going to spend 1 more day at Bukit..cus there are many funs...take care lo...!"
Eventhough the messange didnt mention any thing about the dogs...but I understood that "take care" should be for the dogs.haha!!!
(blog for fun....)

a long way that is full of EMO

2009-05-29T23:38:00.000-07:00

last Friday,my brother brought me and our friends to BM.
My friends and I went there for a 2 hours of Pa tuition while he and his friends went there for a dinner...
My mom used to worry about me..It is fathomable and I would endeavor to subside her botheration.^^so I had no choice but allowed my brother fetching me to IBM.By the way,I had to recognize the way to IBM because there would be my turn one day in the future.
So sorry..On the whole journey,I was busy joking with my friends...and there was full of laugh.We kept the condition until we reached IBM...=='''I just realized that I didn't really remember the way.
Yesterday,my dear brother had to work.I thought that should be a time to let me drive by myself.^^My mom started to worry again..and she tried to be free fetching me to IBM...but finally she failed...because our Tuition would spend us 2 and a half hours.She won't be able to wait for us until we finish the tuition due to some reasons.
well...she had no way but allowed me to drive.
My friend,Chiong You,a girl who used to pretend a Kawaii Girl...arrived my home at 530pm..She was stupid.She called me out by her phone but not by the doorbell.walao~terrible...
Then we started moving to fetch our Xiu Li.
I was waiting for her outside the Happy Kindergarten while chatting with Chiong Yu.^^
due to some reasons,she has to work as a teacher of kindergarten.I used to look her with my full of respect because she is a indepentent and sensible girl.^^
She was shocked by my early coming,she assumed that I would come at about 555pm.
^^Finally,she was forced to quit her class prematurely.
kay..we made my way to IBM...^^we chatted on the way.
There were many things and persons we talked about.They just shared their feeling and wondered why they can treat me as a good opposite sexual friend that other guys can never be.
haha!I was so delighted to know what kind of person I am in their life.
Then,talked about planning for a trip in the future...haha!Xiu Li was sad and unpleasant to talk about the topic because she thought her family won't give her approval for the plan.^^who knows?haha!perhaps,it may be a miracle!be hopeful la!!!haha!!
Next topic was about my leaving.I am just waiting for the letter from JPN and I hope that they can approve my application.They asked me about the reasons^^
I bla bla bla...They had no comment but to agreed with my reasons.I could tell the grief from their talks.It sounded touching...even we are not in the same class for now..but they are still unwilling of my leaving.I totally believed that they didn't attempt staying me just for being their driver.I was glad to know about what they feel when I am about to leave from them.
Haha!EMO-such of this feeling more or less becomes the feeling I always experience recently.
I departed from some of my secondary schoolmates,departed from Ns's friends...departed from Jao Jun..departed from Idiot...haha!now just discovered that there are so many persons I departed from recently.Probably,I will depart from Tunku kaki after 1 or 2 weeks..leave to a new circumstance that may be worse or better compared to NT.
don't have to be depressed..I will be back..and there will be a moment we meet and laugh at each others again..^^be hopeful..cheers~~

3 new classmates

2009-05-24T22:54:00.000-07:00

As usual~cycling to school peacefully...nothing was going to be special in our lame physics class.
When I was hesitating to do my PA essay,a teacher followed by 1 girl and 2 guys stayed outside of our class.At the same time,I didn't notice their coming,because I was turning my back to them.
Since,the teacher turned and stare at them,I was automatically attracted paying my attention on them.At the moment,I could feel that they would be our classmates.
LOL..why did they change to my school?I wondered if they are having any mental problem.==
haha!okay~after PA class,I left my seat and went to talk with them(2 guys).^^
erm...I forgot their names already...haha!In their opinion,I knew that their school may be more worse compared to our school and at the same time,I thought my school is not bad la...haha!!(not good also)
haha!!I was so surprised that their applications were approved successfully and rapidly.==''
I asked them about that...and finally I just realized that how low is my school teacher's efficiency...
they just straight away found Miss Lee who works in JPN requesting approval from JPN.That was all.swt...
I never talked to the girl.But, Man Yen had talked with her for quite a long time.If you want to know about the girl's appearance...sorry..please ask our sister Man Yen,so far,she should be the only one who can help you to know about the girl.haha!!
yeah..one of the guys is Christian from Parit Buntar Methodist Church...quite handsome la...but he is hyperactive...i just noticed during the class...=='''
I forgot to say.haha.they came from Parit Buntar...they studied at Krian before...kakakah!!I think they should be the students of high quality.^^

Stand

2009-05-23T08:31:00.000-07:00

stand by me...stand by me...God!!!
This should be what I always say...I also bless to the others in this way...It should be meaningful and tactful to us...because He stands by us whenever and wherever.How can the almighty God stands by us?
Is it deserved for us to receive such unconditionally preferential treatment-Grace?
Yes!!He says....All because of Love...^^I will grin and joy whenever I ponder the grace He gives me in my life.Cause...It is so delightful to being cared and loved by a almighty God.
Well~I found many of Christians including me just know who great our God is.
We all know that He will forgive our guilt and sins due to our weaknesses.He will pity us whenever we confess in front of Him.yeah!We know and believe that He will...
But somehow we forgot and even used to ignore what God had shown during the old testament.
I know..cus I read more or less about the old testament...
The word that He had mentioned and emphasized many and many times during the old testament is Justice.
Exactly,It is hard for us to talk about Justice,but it doesn't mean there is not such thing like justice.We even have ever ignored such truth when reading the holy bible.Definitely,there has justice in the world,no matter we ignore or accept!And because our Lord is everlasting and also justice and love are eternal.
haha!I love God and believe in Christ because He loves me the most and He is the first one who loves me.Man may fail me but he won't and never fail me.
but~actually,what can I do to answer his love?Yeah...just trust Him and obey the commitments He gave us.haha!!How easy and ludicrous for me to type on the blog and talk in front of the guys,but..but...but...I could not stand properly and even steadily at the position that is at the side of my lovely God at certain particular moments and conditions.
what would happen if I was drawn by darkness and at the same time He came from the Heaven to the hopeless and degenerate earth.What could I say in order to escape the just trial?
yeah!I would be punished 99.Sadly,that I can't stand by Him but I often call Him to stand by me.oh no!!totally wrong!!!I should be the first one moving to his side...so that He can stand by me and lead me.I just realized how selfish I am?
Thk God..because He hasn't come yet and I confessed to the Lord in order to beg a forgiveness.But I can't ensure that he won't come when I am in the side of darkness for the next time.==''Jerry~Don't try to ignore and neglect Justice.Because Justice came before the coming of Love.><*

Higher ways

2009-05-19T09:39:00.000-07:00

"My thoughts are not your thoughts,neither are your ways my ways,"declares the Lord.
Isaiah 55:8

I often meet Christians who are upset because God hasn't answered their prayers-at least not in the way they had hoped or on their time schedule.Being patient with God doesn't mean believing that he is still in process.Being patient with God means trusting that he is sovereign and loving.It means believing that his love will not allow him to answer requests that don't line up with his ultimate purposes.
We are not first to grow restless when God's timing appears to be off.Thousands of years ago,God reminded the prophet Isaiah,"As the heavens are higher than the earth,so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts"(isaiah 55:9)
When we know that God is loving and just,we don't have to understand his ways in order to be at peace in teh midst of life's stresses.We can accept that God operates on his own timetable.As the British hymm writer Frederick William Faber wrote,"We must wait God,long,meekly,in the wind and wet,in the thunder and lightning,in the cold and the dark.Wait, and he will come.He never comes to those who do not wait."

Prayer~Dear Lord,help me to trust that you love me even when I don't understand your timing.

神与我同在

2009-05-19T08:36:00.000-07:00

从前不明白为何我的世界只有黑白

一直在徘徊那个才是我生命的路牌
现在才明白是他拣选我这平凡的小孩
因为他的爱让我生活多姿多彩

神与我同在他的爱不会更改
就算我失败他也能让我站起来
神与我同在他的关怀不会慢一拍

我曾败坏是他让我活过来

我才明白神是爱～

hallilujah!!!这是我在营里所写下来的歌~thk God!!!

Breakfast with my GM and Mom

2009-05-16T23:35:00.000-07:00

In a very good morning,I was woke up by a call which was from Micheal Angelo.He was not sure the way to Bukit Jawi and asked me how to go in the phone.=='''
He went swimming with his pretty sisters,sadly I rejected his invitation last night.cause I should have to accompany my Gm and Mom this morning.
sat on the sofa of white with semi-lying posture.opened my eyes with semi-consciousness.
They urged me to wash my face and follow them.well~forced to move...sianzzz~somehow my brother was more lazy than me,he didn't wake up for breakfast also.Geng!!Actually I should be the latest who fell asleep last night among my family.Of course,I should have the right being the one who woke up latest.
Whatever,I just endeavored to be a good son and grandson.^^
On the way,I was still in a 1per4 awake condition.=='''
We made our way to bustling Pasar.I set my safety belt automatically,even I was not so conscious of which Hand I used.
At the Pasar,we found no place parking and I noticed a familiar umbrella.wah kao!!police!
Why was I so scared?take it easy,man~=='''
Don't know why police like to set beside the road reading news paper and don't want to set properly inside the Police Office drinking coffee?
Niel,beware!!
At the same time,I discovered many cars were parked in many hazardous and irresponsible ways.walao~sort of selfish behavior!It became a seemingly acceptable way of parking.
There have some areas for parking.Some of the stupids parked their stupid cars outside the lanes and covered the way for the cars which are in the parking area to come out unreasonably.
hard to express la...Actually,I should have to take some photos...really angry with the behavior.Why don't they just straight away park their cars in the middle of the road?more easier what?walao~
Due to their stupid behaviors,we went ahead to Palir Buntar...^^
Light refreshment became our breakfast.Nothing was special,they just ate and I just swallowed.
erm~going back...By the way,I asked my GM about the story of how my GM and GF encounter?(cus she asked me about BGR before.)
haha!!funny story!!It happened dramatically.She enjoyed to tell me about the her story.haha!!!
It sounded interesting....kakaka!!!erm~well~that is all.
Then,they went to buy ticket for my GM.cus she will go back to Rawang on monday.^^sad...

memories～

2009-05-15T20:41:00.000-07:00

I was used to live without ambition before.Is it important for a person having a ambition?
I didn't think so.^^
4 days ago,due to some reasons,I should have to go to Penang.On the way,I was alone and taking a long time pondering.I like to have a silent moment pondering,no matter it is short or long.
Because,I believe that whenever you ponder,God will provide wisdom to you at the quiet and secluded moment.
By the way,I read a book which talks about significant ambition and attitude in our life.
It inspired me a lot.I just realized how naive I am.
At the same time,I discovered some wira and wirawati.I didn't know where the camp they came from.But,the picture they were going home was very touching to me.
oh no..The life in Gua Chenderai was a very indeed sweet memory in my life.I was so grieved when we were going to separated.
I started being EMO.Then,I noticed a wira with a guitar.It recalled my memory about the moment I was playing guitar delightfully in bustling L5.It was a scene of bustle and excitement.
I never forgot the moment I was alone in Gua Chenderai L5 hostel every Friday.
They had to worship every Friday evening.During the period,all the Buddhist and Muslim had to leave.yea~I was alone but not lonely.^^
The moment they were worshiping, the moment I was carrying a common guitar in my strong arms and singing praises to the Lord joyfully in L5.
All the sweet memories were recalled when I was sitting at a isolated corner within Rapid.
=D!!I grinned to the sky and felt deeply grateful to the God for giving such memorable memories in my life.
Rapid brought me to Perangi,and I went off the bus with my huge head.
After Daniel's call,I tended to Perangi and was standing outside of the bustling shopping complex.Emo again~I still could not forget,I had come here for "straying" with my friends several times.We were used to build a trip and came here for 'straying'.haha!!Actually,we had written and read some essays that talk about the cases of straying.haha!!Obviously,we are the strays.lol!!!I thought that we could write that kind of the essays very well.^^
But we stopped straying since Form 5.
During these few hours,I was terribly emotionally sensitive.
haha!!EMO right?Don't know what time I started to be emotionally sensitive.==''

Durian and dog

2009-05-11T02:50:00.000-07:00

Phone rang.I picked up the phone and talked.My father said that he bought many durians for my mother.^^haha!!lol!!
After a few minutes,a engine sound told me that my father just came back.I still kept immobile because my grand mother was in the drawing room.I assumed that she would go to open the gate for my father.My father kept honk,I was forced to get out of my room.I saw my grand mother arranged our shirts but she didn't notice the coming of my father.When I found out the remote control and opened the gate,she just noticed it!=='''lol!!
My dad straight away took out 2 bags of durians from the car.I automatically found out a big knife newspaper and a cloth.I thought that I finished my job.^^but I forgot to take out the tapper ware.
haha!my mum likes to held all the durian in the refrigerator.^^
My family likes to eat durians..haha!!esp the dogs...see??they always become the 1st and 2nd which attend the "durian operation".They are called as Durian King and Durian Queen.haha!!
oh!They discovered my camera!!!back back!!our sussy has a strong appetite...you can tell in its eyes.^^haha!!our Ricy has strong nature of patience..see?It kept quite and waited for the chance to assault..good boy!!^^haha!!

Sianzz..

2009-05-11T02:00:00.000-07:00

Today, i went to Tunku for orientation.
Before,I moved ahead Tunku,I stood in front of the mirror and made sure my uniform is standard.^^
haha!!A deep sense of feeling overwhelmed me when I was wearing school uniform in front of the mirror.well..any thing was fine.I leaped on my Bike and made my way to school.
When I reached the school,I discovered that some thing is wrong with my uniform.My senior saw me and told me that my uniform was wrong..Actually,my pants should be black=='''
walao...please la...1st day only la...I..I..speechless then left to Dewan.
Oh!!Exalty!I was the one who wear wrongly the uniform.I had made a big mistake.==''I didn't ask the color of the pants and shoes.Well...my friends all teased to me...when everyone entered the dewan and discovered my wrong uniform,they would laugh and said-"Qi Jun,are you going to study F5 again?"
oh no!!I was willing to dig and hide my BIG HEAD inside the hole.
ai yo.....annoyed!!!!
I quite dislike my head but face.I should have to think about the solution to cure my Big Head disease.Otherwise,I will be in crisis again in the future.
Then,we just started the orientation.While the teacher was talking about the subject,we were chatting at the back.haha!Rest time...erm...I discovered that I was in a lonely status.Then,I found myself inside the group of girls.=='''I felt complicated and confused why I didn't set with the guys but...oh no....something wrong with me?
maybe,I can't talk with guys well.^^
yea..Niel!I kept my hook properly today.^^don't worry.kakaka!!

Happy Mother's day

2009-05-10T07:03:00.000-07:00

wow....Two stupid guys stayed my home last night."Early"the morning,they woke up and went back to their own house.When I was intending to sleep again,my dear mum asked me to take a bath,because she was going to bring GM and me for a breakfast with her.
I felt annoyed to be in my home,I didn't know why.Maybe I was just woken up and felt uncomfortable.
We went to Sungai Bakap for a breakfast.Unexpectedly,we just had a simple breakfast.I expected to go Palir Buntar.Cheh...
On the way going to Sungai Bakap,I sat at the back seat of our car.I looked around inside the car and thought where did my brothers go.I could not imagine how lonely both of these 2 women would feel.Oh no...how bad are my brothers??What day is it??
(After you finished to blame each other,you will start to blame yourself.)Ai...How worse am I?
I am the son they love the most.I always leave them alone.=='''I felt so bad to realize how worse the way I used to treat them.Sorry....I am so sorry...
I didn't buy any thing for her as a mother's day present but I decided to glue myself with her for the whole day.haha!!We went to Sunway Carnival for a movie.In the beginning,we passed by a stage.I saw a group of people standing by the stage.It seemingly was going to have a program^^
Yea..I got it.There was a cat walk for many pairs of daughters and mothers.Haha!!My mum felt interested in the program,and she stared to me delightfully and asked me to participate the program with her.Walao..don la!!!I just got away from her rapidly.All daughters....she wanted me to go for what??hook??don la!!Daniel and ES will scold me later.kaka!!
They felt disappointed because there didn't have any good movie for them.Then,I just noticed a movie-Shinjuku incident!
haha!!!I thought it should be nice.Therefore,we decided to watch the movie.^^
bought Tickets then "Pid"to popular...^^I looked around the new age's area.A title of a book looked familiar,that was-'Lies Women Believe and The Truth Set Them Free"
HEY!All the girls pay attention please...For the sake of my friends and Sisters,I decided to suggest the book to you all...you all should have to read the book okay??kakaka!!
It will change your life in a particular way.kakaka!!
There is a stall which sells many adornments.All of the adornments was made by either iron or glass.Those are small and pretty.I ordered a adornment which can hung on the bag.haha!I like it..^^a word of blue-"blessing"
Hope that I really can bring the blessing from God for my friends or neighbor.God bless.

Happy Mother's night^^

2009-05-10T05:34:00.000-07:00

Last night,I didn't go to church.The reason was I decided to have a happy dinner with my family.I wished they have a happy mother's day.Then, my presence was to bless them in this very moment.haha!

We went to NT Zhang Ke having our tasty dinner.
Before my brother and I reached the restaurant,we brought along a cake which was made by my brother's hands.
I got out of our wira of black with a cake on my hands.^^It looked impressive in the restaurant.
All of the customers stared on me...(actually they was staring the cake haha!)
I could feel their envy of my mother.^^I was upset to take the cake,because the manufacturer of it was my brother but me.=='''
Before the coming of meal dishes,we enjoyed the cake joyfully.

see that?Even it was unsightly,it was tasty.The lament was the unstable biscuit-made base.
The manufacturer was my brother.It should be his maiden cake.so dirty!!!look?@@haih...behave abit la..in front of my camera la....==''Yeah...we should not forget our GM!Her appearance was changed 180degree.=='''
walao...coloured her hair with black@@and wearing a red colour spec...=='''looked so lifeful.
haha...There was a wonderful night with a beautiful moon^^I appreciated the scenery when i was waiting for Daniel.haha!nice day....

walao~2

2009-05-07T05:54:00.000-07:00

I wrote 2 blogs this evening until 530pm..
well~made my way to Daniel's house.haha!I reminded him to take helmet,haha!He answered by saying"i know"(That means he won't forget)
covered our head,started my engine,moved to Sri Nibong.
We waited for the football match in between indians and malays for 20mins.
Then,we started our game.^^haha!
shoot the ball...steal the ball...block the ball...pass the ball...foul the player...tease the player..complain the player...nothing is special...
finished the game...we moved our body to motorcycle...keep our things and cover our head then we moved out of school...
what!!police again??
walao~we almost kena...if we didn't cover,sure kena again!thk God!!=='''haha!!that is all...

reading~

2009-05-07T01:23:00.000-07:00

Haih~lame la...I decided to play a match of Dota so that i could be relieved by abusing the NOOBs..sadly,I had to follow my mum and GM to go to Japatan Imegrense xxx in Butterworth.
She wanted to renew her passport.Don't know where she intends to fly.
She brought a book for me..with the title-"少抱怨,多实践" in order to satisfy my reading desire during the boring moment when she was busy of the passport's renewing.
I found the knowledge in the book makes sense.There are many theories to encourage the reader for fulfilling their aims.
A story..
There was a competition in between a group of frogs.The 1st "person" who reached the top of the mountain would be the winner.The match started.After a few minutes,they started to feel suffering and began to complain about the weather.Some of the frogs that were having a huge belly complained by saying "How can i leap and reach the peak with the stupid belly!?"
They teased to each other during the competition.Finally, a frog reached the peak and won in the competition.^^It is a deaf frog.Haha!In his world,it jus has aim but complain.Therefore,it could be the winner in the match.
Some of the principle are against the principle of Buddha..I found it should be a sensitive issue.
(please forgive me for expressing it in chinese.^^)

有位修道士隐居在山上静修,近十多年来都没下山,饮食都是从他的弟兄姐妹来的.

有一天,有人上山询问他修行的原因.结果,那修道士直率地回答道:"这样子,我的下辈子就会更好!"
the writer harbored many comments for the short dialog.He showed all of his comments on the book.I could understand his confusion clearly for the principle by his words.
(Why don't we start to change our life for now?why do we have to spend this life for the sake of our next life?=='''If we try to escape the reality for now,we are merely a coward and won't make a triumph in our life anymore.)
It makes sense...i agree with it fully!He is a good speaker who has writen many books to encourage the hopeless people.I like the book's title-<<不要看破,要突破>>
well~haha!I really like it.It comes from reality principle.

WALAO~~

2009-05-07T00:03:00.000-07:00

Last night,I made a deal with Daniel that we are going to Pasar for our healthy breakfast...
Actually,he decided to accompany his dear mum "shopping" and called me to follow them.
For my sake,he asked me to wake up early in order to have a healthy life style..otherwise,i will~~haha!!Then,i was grateful to accept his invitation.
Thk God...I brought my ass out of the bed before 645am SUCCESSFULLY..haha!!who says i can't make it??!!
I got ready and waited outside my home..I found it hard to open widely my eyes...I took up my HP and texted Daniel in order to inform him that i woke up already.
It was suffering to be in a half-sleepy status..I sat outside for along time...looked forward their coming...but I didn't see any Vios come to me...
After a few minutes..Daniel texted me by writing that "come fetch me"..
well~as usual..I just put my helmet on the motorcycle and made my way to his house...
It was cool enough to drive with my basketball T-shirt in the early morning.haha!I assumed that I would go to Pasar by their car.
Daniel was ready when I reached his house...he lep on my motorcylce.. then we made our way to Pasar...
On the way, he told me that his mum left to Pasay early..and left him alone...=='''
well~We just took it easy and rejoiced that we could have our HONEYmonent.LOL!!
At the pasar..our stomach didn't give any demonstration...so we decided to find his mum...
We were confident enough on finding out his mum even she is a short and small but wise woman...^^
We could not find her out in any corner of the market...
suak liao~we had to fulfill our appitites...we talked and ate alots....haha!!I felt satisfied for this morning...^^
(who knows what will happen for the next?)
Generally...NT kampung Kia...haha..don used to pakai helmet anymore...
hey!pasar la~don have to wear (helmet) what??Do you think a piece of spoiled vegetable will fail us?haha!!just drive regardless...
I am a good driver...I used to drive without speeding over the rate which is fixed for the drivers..
haha!But in the eyes of police, a motorcylist drives without helmet is a bad driver...=='''swt!!
I got a rude shock,when i turned into a corner and noticed a big umbrella fixed at the end of the road..and the worst was 3 polices sitting there.Oh shit!!
what a bad luck!I felt helpless and hopeless when a police stood up and stopped us,then he asked us by saying "kenapa tak pakai topi?"...
what a good question!I wonder know "kenapa hang berada di sini?"
If they didn't come.they would not ask the question la....kap kap siao siao...
My skull was blank temporary,because I really didn't know what to do.I was just laughing at Daniel.They were busy of writing sth.I didnt wonder anymore..just trying to hide myself or get out from here rapidly...because there were many uncles and aunts know about us.Haha!!
walao~~while we were waiting for them to finish their writing,another uncle was blocked due to his uncovered head.I thought some1 was going to accompany us.But it was merely a faked,the uncle tried to take a forgiveness from the handsome police.Finally, he was relieved...yea~God blessed him...lol!!I had nth to say.It showed us obviously that WE were in terribly WORSE luck..
A piece of paper made me down...My mind appeared many pictures for example the moment when my mum knows it..when my dad knows it..and what I will be come after they realise that...lousy la~GAI lo!!!The pictures just came out temparory.After that, I drove peacefully back to my house.
On the way,I was wondering that what time our hard working police started to patrol our peaceful NT kampung?keso~tell me next time!please...i will cover my head with my dad's huge helmet!!
Then,Daniel kept the damning paper for my sake.=='''As a concluision,it was a lamentable morningWe felt lame and stupid in this morning.
I pretended that nth happened this morning.^^
swt~=='''don't worry...Daniel's dad will help to swallow the paper...lol!to settle it!^^be hopeful and fool!!! XD

why did He choose me?Who am i?

2009-05-04T22:05:00.000-07:00

I have confused many times before.Why did my Lord choose me to present his blessing in front of the people?Who am i..?What a huge head wretch i am!It should have no reason for him to choose me..expressing his love on the stage in front of my church members.
I know...I know...I am nothing..merely a mess or dust...
Because of his Spirit,I was regenerated to serve him.
Because of his Love,I was selected to be his people.
haha!I am glad to be selected inexplicably..
I am glad to stand with him permenantly..
I am glad to sing for him joyfully..
I am glad to be embraced by his unfailing love..
3rd of May is the date for my brother and sisters in church to be baptized.
They determined to sacrifice their life for God..and admitted that Jesus Christ is their Lord and God of life in the face of world and Devil..
We rejoiced!^^and sing for them..
I sang the song on the stage with 2 of my brothers..ES and Daniel..
Thk God...they changed the lyric before..finally the lyric could be called as flawless..^^
Daniel...rushed to type the lyric into his laptop...so that we could straight away transfer it into teacher Tong's laptop...At the same time, i was just sitting aside..in order to cool down in the very moment...haha!I was like...a bit nervous~but thk God,my body didnt tremble anymore..because i was steady enough...haha..
Well~we practised for a while..in a small and echoes-filled room...discussed properly about how to present the song.
After a few minutes,Mrs Teoh came to urge us,because we would have to present soon.
well...let us give the blessing by singing the song for them!
Thank God...We presented the song steadly and flawlessly...
I heard many of people giving many of compliments for the song.They didn't know where the song comes from?because they never heard it before...
When I nosed that the compliments about the song..I reasonably took it easy..
Actually I dont deserve to be praised..I know..because I am dust without love of Jesus Christ..
I prefer to give all the glories to the Lord..who had created me and strengthen me...made me wise and gave me inspiration to write the song at the night...
Some of them praised for my sweet voice...yea~Thk God my sweet voice comes from him.He graces my voice...Hallilujah!

1st of May in Nibong Tebal Gospel Hall~

2009-05-04T07:32:00.000-07:00

Today,1st of May was a holiday.But for those who participtated in the camp,it was a busy ,tiring and nice day...

Do you see that?They were so~naive and cute...I used the technique of the teacher in NS taking control of their mouths.Thk God..they all are good boys and girls...so they coorperated with me.

I enjoyed to lead them dancing and singing...also chicken dancing...all of the kids became a group of cute chicken little...lol!!

and also...ES and I made fun in the way of dancing...lol!!haha!!

After that...There had a sermon talking about how to love our parents...and the promises of God!

After that...our Daniel brought us (JJ ,ES and me)for a lunch in KFC...haha!!We almost late to get back to church....=='''talked so much!!don't know who is the most talkative one...

okay..let us start the game!

There had a big spoon in a bucket filled with water...a team had to take the water using the big spoon and try to fill a bottle in 15minutes..It seemed easy...therefore I set some obstacles...to fail them..kakakah!!For the steady boy..I would influence them after that...haha!!

see the boy?Do you think his spoon have any drops of water??i don think so!haha!!!He is very cute...I saluted his determination the most!

okay~erm...I also realized that the kids have high pitch of voice...wow~i really got shock!when they cheer on their teammate ...they used to say "jia you" but i asked them to say "jia shui"..cus they were adding the water into a bottle right??haha!!

Yea~thk God...everything was fine...hope the kids got something after the camp...^^

加油!!

2009-04-27T22:17:00.000-07:00

haha!last night...due to the preparing of station game,i went to tuition center to meet Mccaan.
At the same time...teacher called me to create a song for my brother and sisters...cus they are going to be baptized on 3 of May...
We have to do something new...to bless them...yea~+U!!!

Thank God..I have done at last night..God bless..may the song bring the truth into your heart permanently.....remember...the song...
^^cus this represents my blessing to you all...

想起过去唱诗读经的你
生活仿佛毫无目的
一直努力证明自己
到了最后垂头丧气

在这些年你放下自己
试着倾听他的话语
不知不觉看见真理
你才明白耶稣爱你

(副歌)
我们为你欢呼我们给你祝福
希望你以后要更加爱主
我们为你歌舞我们向神祈求
希望你别向世界屈服

在这几天你告别过去
决定让他主宰你生命
并且让他成为你的主
一直陪你渡过人生风雨路

在今天你站在这里
告诉世人耶稣爱你
当那浸水洁净你的灵
你已成为神的儿女

Jerry Ng

To be different

with everything we have

Feel Good!

Thanks giving

Be still

Will be blessed.

please help, Lord!

感恩

Don't you give up now.

What faith can do

sigh

update

Need helps

Spot Check year 2

Update

Thirst

Your health

Are you feeling ashamed of me?

Melody in our life

I am angry!

What is playing the role?

So Lucky....==

The sea~

No need to be like that~

Happy Mother's Day

Time to wake up....

Home

unforgetable memories

The court

say Hi or Bye

Sad case

Vanity

Lame ma!

A time for sentimentality, a time for motivation.

Who am I by Casting Crowns

You Stand Alone - Hillsong

I will lay me downAt Your feet in worshipAnd listen to the sweetest sound of all

Make sense...But...

I am in charge on my emotion

Learning is like boating against the water current. There is either improvement or retrogression.

STPM 4 flat

Happy CNY!

Bond

What actually we have to appreciate?

Chinese New Year

Mandarin Orange

Setting Sun

Down

Take a chance, make a change and break away.

Take a chance, make a change and break away.

Being famous~

Remember that I won't forget you.

Another one...

The 1st day

哥哥，我爱你^^

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That is worthful to me.

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sustainanility

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contradiction

爱是不保留

Principle,it doesn't matter?

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What the?

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You raise me up!

Us against the world...

nightmare?just an odd midnight.

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Saturday~

I will lay me down
At Your feet in worship
And listen to the sweetest sound of all